I don't know you, haven't read any of your work, never heard of you before.
But if you have enough of a heart to feel guilty about lying to your friend, to try and help her, and to try ands help random people on the internet then you're all right by me.
Listen to the people telling you you're a good person, because they're right. I don't know what I can say to make you belive me here, but please do. You seem like the type of person the world needs more of, not less.
If you need someone to talk to, I won't ever judge you and I'm sure that no one else on here will either.
I hope you choose right.
- Betsy xx