"In the general rule of doing the impossible, no one expects you to succeed, and when you do, when you defy the odds that seemed to be stacked against you, suddenly, you become important."
there's press releases, interviews, and traveling the world with Billie and Tré. It's not a bad
thing, but it's not always so good either. After a while you can forget what it's like to be
you. The person that people don't see on camera or in magazine pictures. As crazy as it may
seem, I forget to be me.
Before you get too carried away, it's not like I have this secret alter ego that likes to go out
and murder people. In reality, you wouldn't even notice. Wouldn't be able to tell the
difference. That's what scares me. Because how do you just not notice I'm not me?
I know there's not this huge before and after for comparison. How you see me now is how I was
then. I act the same way, say the same things, and still enjoy doing the same stuff. But then,
it never was about what I said or how I acted but rather what I didn't say or do. Tré calls me
on that a lot. He pays more attention than most people give him credit for. Sometimes it's just
plain annoying because it seems he really only does that to me, but he sees and hears what's
missing. What wasn't done, what wasn't said. He notices, which in this case, makes it less
annoying and more appreciated.
In the general rule of doing the impossible, no one expects you to succeed, and when you do,
when you defy the odds that seemed to be stacked against you, suddenly, you become
important, suddenly you matter. The media can do some crazy things to you if you let yourself
get caught up in it, usually it's not good. But sometimes, it isn't always bad.
Maybe I can still be me by not being me. I need to believe that. Somewhere along the line, I
think I lost a part of me. I'm not any less of who I am or any more then who I once was. I'm
just me, Michael Ryan Pritchard. But you're more than welcome to call me Mike Dirnt.