late night Gerard,he might be a daddy now but that wont stop him from going back to his old habits
I remembered each flash as time began to blur
Like a startling sign that fate had finally found me
And your voice was all I heard that I get what I deserve
bleh im sorry i havent written anything for the diary of a ripper which title i might change personal shit and schoolwork have been dragging me down i havent even gotten to start reading wuthering heights i borrowed frm the library anyway heres my story thank u lisa for editing i wouldnt mind feedback and im off to bed since it is like 1:30am here
Licking my lips I couldn't help but stare at it in awe, everything I had worked for could all disappear before me if I did this, I knew I shouldn't but I fucking wanted it. Although…I'm a father now, I'm a husband, what would my kid think of me? I never want her to get into this fucking shit.
Glancing around the darkened room I knew Lindsey was still asleep as was Bandit, safely tucked away in her crib. Shit dude, how am I going to explain this to the guys tomorrow, I still have to finish those vocal tracks, my voice is gonna be fucked up.
"Who cares" The little voice in the back of my mind still screamed at me.
Reaching out with trembling hands I felt my breathing began to speed up as I started the ritual I so long ago couldn't stop. Sweating I could feel the blood rushing through my veins as my heart began to pound in my ears, it was too much for me to bare....
"What the hell are you doing?"
"HOLY SHIT" I yelled, swivelling around on my seat I see Lindsey standing there. I'm so fucked right now…
"What did I tell you?" she asked frowning and placing both her hands on her small waist.
"I was just.."
"You were playing tetras again weren't you?"
"No" She gives me her stern look. Oh fuck...
"Yes" I mumble, playing with my fingers.
"Do you know what time it is?"
"It's four am Gerard, you need to get to bed!"
"I know, I was just finishing this last game…" I tried to explain to her but it was no use.
"I don't wanna hear it, go to bed you need to rest. And what if you had woken Bandit?! She'll be cranky like you in the mornings"
"Hey now, that was a low blow"
"Bed Gerard" Was all the reply I got along with one of her glares.
"No buts or justs or whatevers. I want you in our BED, not me having to wake up to find you asleep on the floor with Frank drawing on your face."
"Ok" I sighed in defeat shutting down the laptop. "Lindsey?" I began following her up the stairs to our room.
"Yeah?" She paused in the doorway.
"I love you" I replied softly kissing her forehead.
"I love you too Gee" She smiled squeezing my hand and guiding me to the bed.
no their wasnt anything dirty that happend when they went to bed just so u know lol i bet u all thort he was gunna do coke again but no BAM! here comes tetris which is addicting might i add,so yes thanks for reading
from your lovely little sinner
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