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Discovering, Bad Dreams, & Ignoring
1 Reviewswell...Madi finds something out. And who knows what happens! :P
Listening to: When The Day Met The Night by Panic! At The Disco (YAY PANIC!)
Mood: Depressed. I couldn't talk to my baby this morning)':
Wearing: Green Hollister shirt, kinda faded ripped jeans, Ed Hardy shoes
Craving: My baby, Hard Rock, and....some things that should not be said... XD
Author's Note: Yeah, just letting you know that this chapter might break me... You'll see later why. No signs of Nick yet (thank GOD.) uhm...yea. I'm probably going to be in tears by the end of this chapter...
xoxo,
Madi Way
[Madi's POV:]
I stumbled home after I yelled at Gerard and as I got home I flew on my bed and cried. Gramma came in, sitting next to me.
"Sweetie, what's wrong?" she asked me, and I held her tightly. How would I tell her that I wasn't a virgin anymore? How would I tell her about getting drunk? And Gerard? I cried into her and she just patted my back. "Oh honey, you know you can tell Grammy anything..." she told me softly. I sniffled and looked into her baby blue eyes.
"Gramma... M-My boyfriend..." I choked on my cough and coughed more.
"Did he break up with you? Oh no sweetie, I'm so sorry..." I shook my head.
"No Grammy. He didn't break up with me... Well, when I was at his house a couple of weeks ago... W-We kinda... Had sex... A-And we really loved each other... But then this new girl named Karina came... I don't like her Grammy! She kissed Bob! She doesn't even know him! And then I got angry and left... And tonight... Gerard -that's my boyfriends' name- well, he was really drunk and so was I and we had sex again...Kinda. B-But after he made love to me he did the same thing to Karina! He fucked her in front of me! Oh, sorry Gramma," she looked at me like, "What did you say?!" when I said 'fucked'. "And I got really angry with him and told him that if he had sex with anybody besides me that I'd leave him and I w-wouldn't come b-back... B-But now all I want is to have him holding me tightly in his warm arms... But when he's not drunk... He's not the same when he's drunk... Please, Grammy... Help me figure this out... P-Please!" I begged and she nodded.
"Well, you don't really know if the love you have with Gerard is true love..." I groaned. This was totally helping me....
"Gramma! Not. Helping!"
"Why did he have sex with you? Did he use protection?" I shook my head. "Well... How long has it been since you had sex? I've been noticing you're eating a lot more than usual..." I looked up at her with wide eyes.
"Y-You mean... I could be pregnant?!" I screeched and she nodded her head. "NO! No no no no no no noooo! Augh!" I ran to the bathroom and grabbed a pregnancy test that I kept hidden. I closed the door behind me and after I was finished I looked at it. I probably stared at it for about five minutes. Gramma opened the door and poked in her head.
"Everything all right in here?" she asked, walking in.
"No. Gramma, the test is positive! I'm fucking pregnant!" I cried into my hands and flashbacks of Gerard Way, the Sex King, played in my head. "What do I do?" I moaned and Gramma pulled me into her lap.
"You could always have an abortion... You're going to have to tell this Gerard sometime, sweetie..." I looked up at her and cried more.
"Gramma I can't! He'll-He'll... I don't know what he'd do! I don't wanna tell him... Gramma I don't want this baby if it's Gerard's! I don't want this goddamned baby!" I pried myself out of my Grammy's arms and cried on my bed. Gramma tried to help me but only made it worse. After she left me to die in my misery I grabbed my cell and called Dev.
"Dev... I-I'm pregnant..." I whispered after she answered. I heard a loud, "YOU'RE WHAT?!" on the other end. "Devanie! Not helping at all! It's Gerard's baby!" I cried into the phone and I could imagine her roll her eyes.
"Oh well, you two have fun taking care of that baby!" she replied with sarcasm.
"Dev you don't understand! We got in a fight! He fucked Karina in front of me!" I yelled in the phone.
Her voice was shocked. "You? Gerard? In a fight? The only fight you two would be in is wrestling! But anyways, so like, what are you gonna do? You want me to tell him for you?" she asked and I sent out a mental prayer in my head.
"NO! Don't tell him anything!" I screamed and I also calmed down a little. I stared at a picture of me and him in a photobooth and wiped away tears and threw the picture at my bedroom wall. "Devanie... I'm pregnant! I'm going to be like....Like Juno!" I cried. Dev said that she'd help me later because she had to go get ready for her date with Christian. "Oh thanks Dev. Your boyfriend's more important than your fucking cousin!" I yelled and hung up and threw my phone at the wall also. Everything reminded me of Gerard and I cried myself to sleep.
"Madi, how's the baby doing?" Gerard asked me. "Oh, it's doing alright... It's due sometime in May." I dropped my hands to my stomach. Gerard moved closer to me and put his ear to my stomach. "Madi. Talk. Now." he commanded. I blabbed on about nothing and I felt the baby kick me really hard. I groaned in pain and Gerard laughed. "Kid's got some power in there. Got any names yet?" I shook my head. "What about... Matthew Anthony?" Gee smiled. "Nice name... Ah shit. I gotta go Madi. Bye!" he ran off, leaving me there with my hands on my stomach. God I looked like a balloon...
I woke up with a start and screamed. "This baby is going!" I demanded to myself. After I calmed down and had something to eat I fell asleep quickly.
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At lunch, Dev, Bob, and I sat at a different table. Outside. I still saw Gerard in my classes and I ignored him when he tried to speak to me. I ignored him all day. I never talked to him once. I guess he saw my stomach because he stated, "You're stomach's bigger Madibear." I had to try so hard to not answer him. I went home with Devanie and we stayed up all night talking about what I should do. If I should keep this baby or not. I had no clue and I basically attacked her food pantry and almost ate everything in it. I felt so bad. It fucking sucks to be pregnant.... I thought to myself as I fell asleep.
'Fuckin' Gerard for getting my eggo preggo...'
See? It almost KILLED me! Tears! I'm such a bitch to Gerard in this.... Sorry Gee! uhm...yeaa I can't write anymore cuz my tears are falling on the keyboard...
Thanks for reading, again.
xoxo,
Madi Way
Mood: Depressed. I couldn't talk to my baby this morning)':
Wearing: Green Hollister shirt, kinda faded ripped jeans, Ed Hardy shoes
Craving: My baby, Hard Rock, and....some things that should not be said... XD
Author's Note: Yeah, just letting you know that this chapter might break me... You'll see later why. No signs of Nick yet (thank GOD.) uhm...yea. I'm probably going to be in tears by the end of this chapter...
xoxo,
Madi Way
[Madi's POV:]
I stumbled home after I yelled at Gerard and as I got home I flew on my bed and cried. Gramma came in, sitting next to me.
"Sweetie, what's wrong?" she asked me, and I held her tightly. How would I tell her that I wasn't a virgin anymore? How would I tell her about getting drunk? And Gerard? I cried into her and she just patted my back. "Oh honey, you know you can tell Grammy anything..." she told me softly. I sniffled and looked into her baby blue eyes.
"Gramma... M-My boyfriend..." I choked on my cough and coughed more.
"Did he break up with you? Oh no sweetie, I'm so sorry..." I shook my head.
"No Grammy. He didn't break up with me... Well, when I was at his house a couple of weeks ago... W-We kinda... Had sex... A-And we really loved each other... But then this new girl named Karina came... I don't like her Grammy! She kissed Bob! She doesn't even know him! And then I got angry and left... And tonight... Gerard -that's my boyfriends' name- well, he was really drunk and so was I and we had sex again...Kinda. B-But after he made love to me he did the same thing to Karina! He fucked her in front of me! Oh, sorry Gramma," she looked at me like, "What did you say?!" when I said 'fucked'. "And I got really angry with him and told him that if he had sex with anybody besides me that I'd leave him and I w-wouldn't come b-back... B-But now all I want is to have him holding me tightly in his warm arms... But when he's not drunk... He's not the same when he's drunk... Please, Grammy... Help me figure this out... P-Please!" I begged and she nodded.
"Well, you don't really know if the love you have with Gerard is true love..." I groaned. This was totally helping me....
"Gramma! Not. Helping!"
"Why did he have sex with you? Did he use protection?" I shook my head. "Well... How long has it been since you had sex? I've been noticing you're eating a lot more than usual..." I looked up at her with wide eyes.
"Y-You mean... I could be pregnant?!" I screeched and she nodded her head. "NO! No no no no no no noooo! Augh!" I ran to the bathroom and grabbed a pregnancy test that I kept hidden. I closed the door behind me and after I was finished I looked at it. I probably stared at it for about five minutes. Gramma opened the door and poked in her head.
"Everything all right in here?" she asked, walking in.
"No. Gramma, the test is positive! I'm fucking pregnant!" I cried into my hands and flashbacks of Gerard Way, the Sex King, played in my head. "What do I do?" I moaned and Gramma pulled me into her lap.
"You could always have an abortion... You're going to have to tell this Gerard sometime, sweetie..." I looked up at her and cried more.
"Gramma I can't! He'll-He'll... I don't know what he'd do! I don't wanna tell him... Gramma I don't want this baby if it's Gerard's! I don't want this goddamned baby!" I pried myself out of my Grammy's arms and cried on my bed. Gramma tried to help me but only made it worse. After she left me to die in my misery I grabbed my cell and called Dev.
"Dev... I-I'm pregnant..." I whispered after she answered. I heard a loud, "YOU'RE WHAT?!" on the other end. "Devanie! Not helping at all! It's Gerard's baby!" I cried into the phone and I could imagine her roll her eyes.
"Oh well, you two have fun taking care of that baby!" she replied with sarcasm.
"Dev you don't understand! We got in a fight! He fucked Karina in front of me!" I yelled in the phone.
Her voice was shocked. "You? Gerard? In a fight? The only fight you two would be in is wrestling! But anyways, so like, what are you gonna do? You want me to tell him for you?" she asked and I sent out a mental prayer in my head.
"NO! Don't tell him anything!" I screamed and I also calmed down a little. I stared at a picture of me and him in a photobooth and wiped away tears and threw the picture at my bedroom wall. "Devanie... I'm pregnant! I'm going to be like....Like Juno!" I cried. Dev said that she'd help me later because she had to go get ready for her date with Christian. "Oh thanks Dev. Your boyfriend's more important than your fucking cousin!" I yelled and hung up and threw my phone at the wall also. Everything reminded me of Gerard and I cried myself to sleep.
"Madi, how's the baby doing?" Gerard asked me. "Oh, it's doing alright... It's due sometime in May." I dropped my hands to my stomach. Gerard moved closer to me and put his ear to my stomach. "Madi. Talk. Now." he commanded. I blabbed on about nothing and I felt the baby kick me really hard. I groaned in pain and Gerard laughed. "Kid's got some power in there. Got any names yet?" I shook my head. "What about... Matthew Anthony?" Gee smiled. "Nice name... Ah shit. I gotta go Madi. Bye!" he ran off, leaving me there with my hands on my stomach. God I looked like a balloon...
I woke up with a start and screamed. "This baby is going!" I demanded to myself. After I calmed down and had something to eat I fell asleep quickly.
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At lunch, Dev, Bob, and I sat at a different table. Outside. I still saw Gerard in my classes and I ignored him when he tried to speak to me. I ignored him all day. I never talked to him once. I guess he saw my stomach because he stated, "You're stomach's bigger Madibear." I had to try so hard to not answer him. I went home with Devanie and we stayed up all night talking about what I should do. If I should keep this baby or not. I had no clue and I basically attacked her food pantry and almost ate everything in it. I felt so bad. It fucking sucks to be pregnant.... I thought to myself as I fell asleep.
'Fuckin' Gerard for getting my eggo preggo...'
See? It almost KILLED me! Tears! I'm such a bitch to Gerard in this.... Sorry Gee! uhm...yeaa I can't write anymore cuz my tears are falling on the keyboard...
Thanks for reading, again.
xoxo,
Madi Way
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