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Feel Alive
0 ReviewsMaybe If I Jump I Can Have A Second Chance At Life
A cold night in New York was nothing new. I could feel the cold breeze all around me as I walk along the sidewalk. The city lights lit up the sky you would never know it was dark unless the power went out. I could hear cars passing by I often wonder where does everyone go? Sometimes I wish I could just get in a car and never look back. My feet began to hurt from walking I didn’t have my shoes I left them along some where, my feet felt the cold wet ground from the rain. I have been walking for hours trying to clear my mind I haven’t been myself lately, it’s like I no longer know who I am anymore.
I could feel my phone go off in my pocket in my jeans I just kept on walking. I had one place in mind that was the bridge. I kept walking until I got to the bridge I went over to the edge to look down it was a long ways down. I climb on the top of the rail I often thought about jumping to end it all, I no longer want to live this life. What if I jump and die for a few seconds I could come back as a new person, start a new life.
The wind was blowing my hair all around I wanted to be the wind, at least the wind is alive. To be alive again would be the greatest feeling, but I’m not alive I’m dead at least on the inside I am. I look down to see the water flowing by I could be like the water just flowing by I also could be like the birds in the sky flying to where ever life takes me. All those things are alive something I want to feel, a feeling I haven’t felt for years. For one moment I just wanted to feel alive, to know a part of me was still alive. I could jump any minute any second I could be free from this world, I could have a second chance.
I always wonder what would life be like if you could start all over? Maybe if I jump I won’t get the second chance I’ll just die in some ways I wouldn’t mind dying. Everyone needs a second chance at something I need a second chance at life, make things right. But I knew deep down I may not get that second chance I may die, so I thought to myself is it worth it? I wanted to feel alive I needed to know I was still alive even though on the inside I felt dead, I felt as if I was already dead. I wanted to feel as if I was born again to know I have something to live for, just know I’m alive again. But my mind came to a stop when I felt my phone go off once again I finally gave in and took my phone out of my pocket to see I had over ten text messages.
“Carmela? Please answer”
“ Carmela please don’t do anything stupid!”
“ Carmela we can talk, please don’t do anything”
Some were from my friends and my mom, I didn’t bother replying no one could save me now. I just threw my phone onto the ground the phone didn’t break. I listen to the car passing by I was surprise no one as stop me from jumping by now. I couldn’t be save I was alone, broken I needed a second chance at life or die. My mind was wanting me to jump just let go of everything and jump. My heart was beating fast telling me to just get down, I didn’t know which one to listen to. Part of me fear what if I didn’t get a second chance I would never know how my life would have turn out. The other part was yelling for me to jump just to let go and be free. I was torn of what I should do but in the end I knew what had to be done I was ready to jump, and just like that I let go.
I could feel my phone go off in my pocket in my jeans I just kept on walking. I had one place in mind that was the bridge. I kept walking until I got to the bridge I went over to the edge to look down it was a long ways down. I climb on the top of the rail I often thought about jumping to end it all, I no longer want to live this life. What if I jump and die for a few seconds I could come back as a new person, start a new life.
The wind was blowing my hair all around I wanted to be the wind, at least the wind is alive. To be alive again would be the greatest feeling, but I’m not alive I’m dead at least on the inside I am. I look down to see the water flowing by I could be like the water just flowing by I also could be like the birds in the sky flying to where ever life takes me. All those things are alive something I want to feel, a feeling I haven’t felt for years. For one moment I just wanted to feel alive, to know a part of me was still alive. I could jump any minute any second I could be free from this world, I could have a second chance.
I always wonder what would life be like if you could start all over? Maybe if I jump I won’t get the second chance I’ll just die in some ways I wouldn’t mind dying. Everyone needs a second chance at something I need a second chance at life, make things right. But I knew deep down I may not get that second chance I may die, so I thought to myself is it worth it? I wanted to feel alive I needed to know I was still alive even though on the inside I felt dead, I felt as if I was already dead. I wanted to feel as if I was born again to know I have something to live for, just know I’m alive again. But my mind came to a stop when I felt my phone go off once again I finally gave in and took my phone out of my pocket to see I had over ten text messages.
“Carmela? Please answer”
“ Carmela please don’t do anything stupid!”
“ Carmela we can talk, please don’t do anything”
Some were from my friends and my mom, I didn’t bother replying no one could save me now. I just threw my phone onto the ground the phone didn’t break. I listen to the car passing by I was surprise no one as stop me from jumping by now. I couldn’t be save I was alone, broken I needed a second chance at life or die. My mind was wanting me to jump just let go of everything and jump. My heart was beating fast telling me to just get down, I didn’t know which one to listen to. Part of me fear what if I didn’t get a second chance I would never know how my life would have turn out. The other part was yelling for me to jump just to let go and be free. I was torn of what I should do but in the end I knew what had to be done I was ready to jump, and just like that I let go.
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