I spent all night trying my hardest to get the thoughts of changing becoming a normal person out of my mind. I’m not a normal person I’m not suppose to be, I was born a liar. I stay awake until morning came it didn’t seem like I stayed awake that long I guess I was too busy thinking to notice. I look at the clock seeing group therapy was about to start, so I got off my bed and headed down the hall. Once I got to the doors I walk in to see Gerard sitting in his same spot, I walk over and sit beside of him. Just then the lady walk in with her fake smile.
“ Good morning everyone” She said while sitting down.
No one said a word it’s like this every time no one ever says anything having group therapy is a waste of time. I sit here everyday never saying a word I have nothing to say every word I say is a liar, so no use for me to say something. Before I even knew it therapy was over with I walk the doors headed for the sun deck. As I open the glass doors I saw Gerard sitting at a table, my mind was telling to get sit with him. I slowly walk over there and sit down in one of the chairs.
“ Have you ever wanted to change” I ask while breaking the silent
He look at me with those hazel eyes he look at me as if he wasn’t expecting a question like that, as if he had no clue how to answer it.
“ I use to think about how life would be if I was a normal person, eating everyday. Not throwing up every time I smell food or going days without eating. But that would never happen I so use to who I am I couldn’t see myself as a normal health person” He said while looking at me.
I had that same thought I’m so use to be a liar I wouldn’t know how to act if I was a normal person who no longer lied that’s a life that would never happen.
“ I couldn’t see my life as a normal non lying person. “ I replied
“ If you could change would you? You never thought what life is like behind these walls? “ He ask in a soft tone.
I could not say I have not I use to think about that every day before, I use to stare out into the sky thinking what life would be like if I wasn’t here if I was not a liar but all those thoughts came to a end, I wouldn’t won’t that life.
“ I can’t say I haven’t but that’s not my life. My life is being a liar until I die” I replied
“ Then I guess your stuck here forever then, just like me” He said while getting up to leave.
I was a liar I did not won’t to change
I do not won’t to change
I do not won’t to change
I do not won’t to..
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