Past Cheyenne sees how much Gerard has changed. Present: Mikey is furious at Frank and Alicia and Chey comfort Jamia
‘You should’ve seen your face’ Cheyenne giggled as she walked up the path to her home ‘you were mortified’
‘I wasn’t’ Gerard laughed ‘I was totally cool, I handled it like a man.’
‘Like a gay man would’ve maybe’ she said bursting into another fit of giggles as she fished in her bag for her keys ‘you couldn't stop staring’
‘So did you enjoy your birthday Gee?’ she asked. She genuinely hoped he did. He had taken her out a few times in the last month or so and each time had been better than the last, the rapport between them was coming back and it got stronger the more time they spent together.
‘I had a wonderful birthday’ he said a smile dancing on his lips ‘thank you for everything, you’ve been amazing.’
‘I’m glad you enjoyed it’ she said blushing at his compliments ‘I’ll admit not a lot of planning went into it but it was a last minute idea…’
‘It was perfect’ he interrupted ‘I wouldn’t change a second of it.’
‘Not even when that homeless guy flashed you?’ she laughed
‘Not even that’ he laughed ‘just made the night all the more unforgettable.’
‘Hey I know it’s late, but do you wanna come in for a coffee?’ Cheyenne asked. It was now that she was starting to grow nervous. She felt like she was in high school all over again asking Cory Maine to the spring dance.
‘Sure’ He said ‘I’d love too.’
‘Really?’ Cheyenne squealed before she could get a handle on herself ‘I mean cool’ she recovered
Half an hour later they were settled on the sofa both of them finishing their cup of coffee. They hadn’t stopped laughing or talking and Cheyenne couldn’t believe how nice it all felt, it reminded her of the times when her and Gee would sit in his basement room talking while the world continued on around them. They had their own world and their own time.
‘That coffee was good’ Gerard said closing his eyes and resting his head on the back of the chair ‘just what I needed.’
‘You tired?’ Cheyenne asked brushing his hair back from his forehead and it surprised her how natural the gesture was.
‘Very’ he admitted feeling warmth spread through his body at her touch.
‘You can stay here tonight’ she said ‘instead of driving home’
Gerard opened his eyes and sat up before standing up completely ‘No I better be getting home, that way I can relieve my mom of Jasmine in the morning.’
Cheyenne too stood up trying her best to mask the disappointment on her face. She couldn’t understand why he was running hot and cold. The last few times they had gone out he had been so affectionate but he always left her with a goodnight and no kiss at the end of each night. Was he not interested in her? So much had happened between them that she couldn’t blame him if his feelings had changed for her but then if that was the case why did he hold her hand and put his arms around her whilst they watched movies? Was he just messing with her head because he thought she had done the same to him a year or so ago? As Cheyenne watched him putting his jacket on she grew angry she didn’t like games and she certainly wasn’t going to play this one with him.
‘If you don’t want me you can just say so’ she suddenly snapped ‘you don’t have to play the hot and cold game Gerard. It’s so childish.’
‘I’m not playing a game’ Gerard said in surprise as her tone had completely caught him off guard.
‘Then what are you doing?’ Cheyenne asked ‘I try an kiss you and you reject me, you hold my hand, you hold me but you never kiss me, you always leave at the end of each…I can’t even say date because I’m not sure if they are dates. I’m trying to figure you out.’
‘It’s not a game’ He said taking a few steps to stand in front of her ‘I’m just taking it slow. We were in this position a year or so ago and we both thought differently about it, it was just sex for you but to me it seemed like we were getting back together. I was wrong. And I didn’t want to be wrong again this time. You know how I feel about you Cheyenne but I need to know that we want the same things. I can’t take it any further; I can’t be with you like that again unless I know we’re on the same page. I won’t use you for sex and I don’t want to be used either. I want you to be mine again for real.’
Cheyenne’s heart was pounding as he spoke each word. God he was cute when he was serious and the things he said made him all the more wonderful. She did want to be with him and not just for sex but for the conversation for the friendship for the laughter. They were good together they always had been but still that little voice in the back of head reminded her of why they were no longer together, why they had broken up to begin with, but she also recounted how much he had done to turn his life around to prove to her that he was worthy to be in her and their daughters life. He was the same old Gerard, the one that she had always known and loved but he was also a new man.
‘What do you say?’ Gerard asked quietly his heart was beating so hard in his chest he thought it would break right through his ribs and the fact that she hadn’t spoken was making it even worse, he needed to know what she wanted. Gerard opened his mouth to speak again and felt Cheyenne’s soft lips on his. He moaned at the unexpectedness of the kiss and he closed his eyes letting himself melt into her as he pulled her closer. Cheyenne opened her mouth and Gerard slipped his tongue between her lips deepening the kiss, he heard her moan and the sound sent a shiver down his spine. His heart was rejoicing at the moment they were sharing but his head wouldn’t let him forget the fact that she hadn’t yet answered him.
He pulled back suddenly panting for air, his forehead resting on hers. ‘I need to know Chey.’
‘Yes’ she said her eyes looking straight into his ‘I want to be with you Gerard, I want to try again.’
‘You do?’ he said ‘you’re sure?’
‘Yes’ Cheyenne giggled ‘one hundred percent. I love you, I always have. I want to make our family work.’
Gerard’s lips crashed down on hers and he kissed her with a passion that he didn’t realise he had in him, it took both their breaths away.
‘Make love to me Gerard’ Cheyenne panted. She had broken their kiss to speak those words. He had ignited a desire within her that needed to be fulfilled, she wanted to feel him inside her, to remember how it felt to have him move within her, she wanted to hear him moan and to feel the hot stickiness of his cum inside her.
‘Is this what you want? Are you sure?’ he spoke through heated kisses ‘if we do this we can’t go back.’
‘I don’t want to go back Gerard’ Cheyenne said quietly. She pulled away from his last kiss intent on making him understand that the words she spoke were for real ‘I want this, please don’t be afraid of me I won’t hurt you.’
‘You’ve never hurt me’ he said softly ‘It’s me who does the hurting.’
‘But that you is long gone isn’t he Gee?’ she asked stroking his face ‘he’s not coming back’
‘Not ever’ he said ‘I won’t let him.’
Cheyenne smiled truly believing the words he spoke because she knew that from the depths of his heart he meant.
‘Take me to bed Gerard’ she said ‘and stay there with me where you belong.’
‘In three minutes we’ll know’ Jamia sighed, it was a sentence she had said so many times before that it really held no meaning now. She held the little white stick away from her like it may be covered with disease, when in the past she had clutched it tightly in both hands as though her tight grip could alter the result.
Frank silently prayed beside her, his chin resting on his hands as he awaited the result, his sentence more like. He still had every intention of breaking off his relationship with Jamia but there never seemed to be a good time and while he was waiting to find the time they were still having regular sex in hopes of conceiving. He knew if she was pregnant he’d be trapped and his plans for a life with Cheyenne would no longer be an option. And to Frank that future was still an option even though Cheyenne was taken. It was all he thought about and although he knew Gerard and Cheyenne were making a go of things he prayed it wouldn’t last. He believed deep within his heart and soul that he and Cheyenne should be together.
‘It’s negative’ Jamia said with a disappointed shrug of her shoulders. Frank hid his smile and leaned back on to the couch with a deep sigh of relief.
‘What was that?’ Jamia asked
‘What?’ Frank asked looking at her
‘That?’ she glared at him.
‘What?’ Frank asked sitting up and looking out of the window.
‘I meant you’ Jamia cried ‘that sigh of relief I just heard you take.’
Frank took a deep breath, now was a good time as any to tell Jamia how he really felt. There was no point putting it off any longer.
‘You’re right Jamia’ He said running a hand through his hair. He couldn’t believe he was about to do this. He had pictured the moment in his mind a thousand times and it never seemed as hard as it seemed now ‘that was a sigh of relief you just saw. I…Jamia I don’t want to have a baby.’
‘What?’ Jamia gasped ‘what are you talking about? Of course you do’
‘I don’t Jamia I don’t want a baby’ he said looking at her as he said it this time. ‘I haven’t wanted a baby for a while now.’
‘But why?’ She asked taking a seat beside him ‘are you despondent because it’s taking so long? Dr Schwartz said it would and that we just had to be patient.’
‘I don’t want to be patient Jamia, please listen to me I have som…’
‘We could try and get another appointment tomorrow’ she said hopefully ‘and see what else he recommends since the natural way isn’t working so well.’
‘No Jamia’ he said ‘I don’t want another appointment. I want-Oh God this is so hard. Jamia I want a divorce.’
Jamia recoiled like she had been slapped she heard the words but didn’t quite understand them. She replayed the sentence over in her head a few times until it registered.
‘I’m so sorry’ Frank said turning to face her ‘I just- It’s not that I’m terribly unhappy because I’m not I just-I feel differently about the life we chose together. This isn’t what I want anymore. I’m so sorry. I know I’m hurting you and I don’t want to, that’s the last thing I want but I want different things now and a baby isn’t one of them.’
‘But what did I do?’ Jamia asked. She wasn’t actually looking at him more like through him. Frank could see that she was dazed as there was no focus in her eyes. Jamia was on autopilot.
‘You did nothing Mia’ Frank said taking her hands in his ‘you’ve been nothing but a loving and devoted wife and a wonderful friend to me since the day we met but that was a long time ago and I don’t…’ he didn’t want to say he didn’t want to be married to her anymore so he let the sentence die on his lips.
‘We’ve only been married three years’ she said as tears fell from her eyes and meandered down her cheeks.
‘I know and the years have been good Jamia.’
‘So what’s different now?’
‘The way I feel I guess’ Frank answered honestly.
‘I don’t understand, we’re trying for a baby, you said that’s what you wanted and now you’ve changed your mind about the baby and about me, I don’t get it’ Jamia cried her voice starting to get louder.
‘I don’t understand it either Jamia it’s just the way I feel’ Frank repeated. He really didn’t want a screaming match but he understood that maybe she needed to scream maybe he would want to do the same if the tables were turned.
‘This is bullshit’ Jamia snapped suddenly jumping up from her seat ‘I don’t understand.’
‘Jamia please’ Frank pleaded ‘I know I’m hurting you but this doesn’t have to get out of hand.’
‘You just told me you want a divorce’ Jamia cried ‘a divorce, do you know what that means Frank?’
‘I do’ he said ‘and it’s not your fault, it’s nothing you’ve done it’s all me. It’s my fault.’
‘I thought we were happy’ Jamia chocked her eyes welling up.
‘We are…were’ Frank said ‘I’m not unhappy with you Jamia I’m really not.’
‘Then why do you want a divorce?’ she sniffed
‘Because it’s not fair for me to go on pretending, to go on letting you think I want the life that we have now.’
‘But why don’t you want it?’ she cried, letting her tears flow freely ‘what’s the reason?’
‘I just-I don’t kn-I feel…’ he let the stuttered sentence die on his lips, he couldn’t tell her the truth ‘it’s not what I want anymore.’
‘That’s not an answer. God damn you Frank, why don’t you want to be married to me?’
‘Because I don’t love you’ he said quietly. At that precise moment he hated himself, he watched as Jamia sank back down to the sofa, silent tears spilling over her eyes. He knew that he had just broken her heart because he could feel a terrible pain in his own as he looked down on her. He knew that this was painful for her but he knew telling her he was in love with someone else would hurt her even more.
‘You don’t love me Frank?’ she asked
‘Oh God Jamia’ he said as he settled beside her ‘I do love you, I will always love you but I’m not in love with you. I’m sorry’ he said feeling himself welling up as the impact of what he was doing rained down on him ‘you have no idea how much I hate myself right now. I hate that I’m hurting you.’
‘Then don’t’ Jamia begged her eyes pleading with his ‘we can pretend that this didn’t happen. We can just carry on.’
‘I can’t keep on pretending Mia, I just can’t’ he sniffed looking away from her ‘It’s not fair to you and you know it.’
‘I don’t want fair’ Jamia cried ‘I want you.’
‘It wouldn’t be good for you. I wouldn’t be good to you. You deserve better Jamia you deserve a man who will love you.’
‘But you do love me’ she sobbed ‘I know you do.’
‘Just not in the right way’ Frank told her. Getting up he walked across the room and retrieved the box of tissues that were always on the window ledge and handed them to Jamia, she took one and wiped her eyes.
‘Look I’m going to go and pack some stuff I’ll stay out tonight and give you some space.’
‘Jesus you can’t even bring yourself to spend one more night with me, the last few years must’ve been excruciating for you.’ Jamia said bitterly
‘Don’t do that’ Frank said ‘It’s not like that and you know it.’
‘I don’t understand’ she said standing up ‘I cook, I clean, I take care of you, I support your dreams, I follow you around the country, for God’s sake I run your fucking company AND ALL I GET IN RETURN IS A DIVORCE.’ She screamed ‘Is that all you’ve got for me, is that all I’ve earned after all this time.’
‘I told you, you deserve better’ Frank reminded her.
‘Get out’ she hissed glaring at him. After everything she just said all he could say was that she deserved better. She worked her ass off for him, for them and he didn’t even care. Fresh tears poured from her eyes and she sobbed as she heard Frank packing to leave the life they had behind. Why this was happening Jamia wasn’t sure, she had done everything that a wife was supposed to do, she thought she was a good wife but clearly she was wrong.
‘Thank you Jamia’ Frank said appearing at the living room door ‘all the things you mentioned before I want you to know that I sincerely appreciate them, you’ve been amazing over the years and I wouldn’t be the person I am now if I hadn’t been with you.’
Jamia turned her head to face him and she noted that he had tears in his eyes but she also noticed that he had packed his things and she knew that he had no intention of staying with her tonight or changing his mind about what he wanted.
‘I’ll call you later if that’s ok’ Frank said
‘Why bother?’ she wept.
‘I still want to be friends Mia, I need to know you’re ok.’ He said softly
‘Well I’m not’ she growled ‘I’m not okay, so just get out and go on with this new life you so badly want. Don’t worry about me, you don’t love me remember?’
Frank opened his mouth to say that just because he wasn’t in love with her that it meant that he didn’t care. He cared deeply for her but he knew she wouldn’t listen or care at this point she was angry and she had every right to be.
‘I’ll call’ Frank said. He knew she wouldn’t respond so he picked up his bag and left. Once outside he called Alicia and filled her in, he didn’t want Jamia to be alone and after a lot of profanities and shouting Alicia agreed to stay with Jamia and Frank headed off to nowhere in particular contemplating where to sleep tonight and how to get the life he wanted.
Past April 2010
‘What is that smile?’ Gerard asked as Cheyenne’s eyes fluttered open he had been awake for hours going over the events of last night, he couldn’t believe how much they had made love or how good it felt or how right the world suddenly seemed.
‘Contentment I think’ Cheyenne replied ‘I feel like I’m going to burst’
‘With happiness?’ Gerard asked
‘Nope with pee’ Cheyenne giggled as she jumped out of bed and hurried to the bathroom ‘I’ll be right back’ she called over her shoulder ‘don’t you dare move.’
‘Wouldn’t dream of it’ Gerard sighed a massive smile on his face.
Cheyenne couldn’t stop smiling as she relieved herself, even when she wiped herself and felt the sting of last night’s love making she still smiled. As she washed her hands in the mirror she caught her appearance and despite the mess she looked the sparkle in her eye was undeniable. She straightened her face and spoke to her reflection.
‘Are you sure this is what you want?’ she asked herself outloud. She didn’t have to answer the question the butterflies in her stomach and the grin that broke out on her face spoke volumes. This was what she wanted.
‘Talk about forever, I’m about sixty now’ Gerard said as Cheyenne came back into the room ‘Jasmine’s already grown up and moved out.’
‘Very funny’ Cheyenne grinned as she settled herself back into bed she rolled over and rested her head on Gerard’s chest. ‘Speaking of Mini we need to pick her up soon, it’s nearly midday.’
‘It’s taken care of’ he said his fingers gently running through her hair. ‘I asked Mikey and Alicia to relieve mom so you and I could spend the day together.’
‘You did?’ Cheyenne said ‘what have you got planned?’
‘Nothing much’ he said ‘the usual stuff, housework shopping blah blah but tonight I’m going to take you out somewhere nice.’
‘Ooh I like the sound of somewhere nice’ Cheyenne said ‘sounds nice’
‘Oh it is’ Gerard laughed running his fingers down her side ‘it’s very nice.’
‘I’ll be the judge of that.’ Cheyenne said capturing his hand and entwining their fingers. ‘But I trust you.’
‘Do you mean that?’ Gerard asked his face taking on a serious look ‘because I want you to trust me, I want you to trust me so much.’
‘I do trust you’ she said softly ‘you’re different now, I can see it you won’t let me down.’
‘No I fucking won’t’ he promised. He removed his hands from her and lifted her chin to look in her eyes ‘I love you Chey and I promise I’ll never let you down again.’
‘Kiss me’ Cheyenne whispered and Gerard bought his lips to hers sealing his promise with his kiss.
‘Frank Iero you get your ass out here’ Mikey fumed a she stormed into Ray’s house through the garden door.
‘Well hello to you too’ Christa said not looking up from the paper she was reading.
‘Hi Christa’ Mikey said, rushing over to place a kiss on her cheek. ‘Where’s Frank?’
‘In the living room with Ray. Talking’ she said ‘go easy on him Mikey, he’s upset.’
‘And so is Jamia, which made Alicia upset, and that makes me upset. What is thinking asking for a divorce?’
‘Maybe he’s unhappy’ Christa shrugged ‘these things happen.’
Mikey snorted then sighed ‘I just feel bad for Jamia, Alicia said she won’t stop crying.’
‘And she won’t not for a long time’ Christa said ‘but if this is what Frank wants, it what he wants.’
‘Well he’s wrong’ Mikey huffed ‘I’m going to talk some sense into him.’
‘Good luck’ Christa said ‘hey I’ll even bring you guys in some drinks I have a feeling you’ll be in there a while trying to change his mind.’
Cheyenne’s hands shook as she knocked on Jamia’s door. She knew this was it, she just knew it. Alicia had text saying to get to Jamia’s now she’d explain when she got there and Cheyenne’s heart just sank.
‘Thank God’ Alicia cried as she opened the door ‘she won’t stop crying.’
‘What’s happening’ Cheyenne asked she could clearly hear Jamia sobbing in the living room.
‘Frank asked for a divorce.’ Alicia said as Cheyenne unbuttoned her jacket. They spoke quietly so Jamia wouldn’t hear.
‘What?’ Cheyenne gasped hoping she sounded genuine enough. She was going to kill Frank, just murder him ‘why?’
‘He says he doesn’t love her anymore’ Alicia explained. This time when Cheyenne gasped it was genuine.
‘Oh for fuck sake will you two just get in here I can fucking here you whispering’ Jamia cried out angrily
‘We’re sorry’ Cheyenne said rushing into the living room, she sat down and enveloped her friend in a hug. ‘I’m so sorry Mia’
‘I thought I was a good wife’ Jamia said fresh tears falling from her eyes.
‘You are’ Cheyenne told her ‘you’re a great wife’
‘Not great enough’ she sniffed ‘I don’t know what I did wrong.’
‘You didn’t do anything wrong’ Alicia soothed ‘this is all on Frank’
‘Listen to me Jamia, you’re wonderful’ Cheyenne assured her ‘maybe Frank just needs a break to see what he’s missing to realise that he needs you.’
‘Unless there’s someone else’ Alicia snorted. The words came out before she realised what she said.
‘Oh my God, do you think that’s it?’ Jamia cried jumping out of Cheyenne’s arms ‘Oh my God I bet she’s beautiful no wonder he doesn’t want to be with me.’
‘You are beautiful’ Cheyenne told her whilst shooting Alicia a death look. Alicia mouthed a silent apology.
‘Mia don’t listen to me’ Alicia said crossing the room ‘I didn’t mean to say it, pregnancy is making me stupid.’
‘What about before you were pregnant?’ Cheyenne teased
‘Yeah you can blame the baby’ Jamia said managing to crack a smile.
‘Do you think there’s someone else?’ Jamia questioned ‘he didn;t say where he was staying tonight, what if he’s with her?’
‘There is no her’ Alicia assured her ‘Frank’s at Christa and Ray’s’
‘Ok listen’ Cheyenne said standing up and pulling her friend with her ‘you need to get some rest. Come on I’ll tuck you in.’
‘Hey will you be here when I wake up’ Jamia said the tears returning to her eyes at the thought of spending the night alone.
‘I’ll definitely stay the night’ Alicia said ‘Mikey’s cool with it’
‘I’ll try to be’ Cheyenne said honestly ‘but if I leave Gerard and Jasmine alone too long madness ensues.’
After putting Jamia to bed, Cheyenne nosed around the kitchen. If Jamia was going to survive the next few days without going insane she’d need supplies. When she walked back into the living room Alicia was draped across the sofa mindlessly flicking through the TV channels.
‘She asleep?’ Alicia asked not turning her head to look at Cheyenne.
‘Not sure’ Cheyenne said ‘hey I’m going to head to the store to get some things for Mia, you want anything?’
‘Nah I’m cool’ Alicia said ‘me and bump are just gonna chill until Auntie Jamia wakes up.’
‘I’ll be back soon, call me if you need anything’ Cheyenne said heading for the door.
‘Will do’ Alicia replied as she settled further into the chair.
By the time Cheyenne returned from the store, Alicia was fast asleep curled up on the chair and Jamia appeared to still be resting too. Guilt racked Cheyenne’s mind ad she packed away the shopping she bought and started cooking. Had she done everything she could’ve to deter Frank? Sure, she had her slip up moments but she had made it crystal clear that she was going to remain with Gerard, why hadn’t Frank listened to her?
It was just after six when both Alicia and Jamia awoke and Cheyenne was glad for the company she had gone through a lot of negative emotions and thoughts whilst she had been alone, she was glad for the distraction her friends brought.
‘It smells very good in here’ Alicia yawned stretching and revealing her small pregnant stomach.
‘Aw look at your bump’ Cheyenne cooed as she dried her hand on a dishcloth.
‘Yeah it’s getting there’ Alicia said stroking her tummy fondly ‘what’s all of that?’ she asked nodding to the counter covered in food.
‘Meals for Jamia, I figured I’d make a couple of meals to freeze and she can pick ‘em out and heat ‘em up as she wants them.’ Cheyenne shrugged ‘I know the next few days it’ll be kind of hard for her to function and she’ll need to eat.’
‘You didn’t have to do all of that’ Jamia said coming into the kitchen, she looked bad, her red puffy eyes were the first thing you noticed. ‘You know all I’m going to want to eat is ice cream.’
‘Not a problem’ Cheyenne said opening the freezer and showing Jamia the tubs of Ben & Jerry’s that occupied the top shelf ‘I got you covered.’
‘You guys are so nice’ Jamia said as she burst into tears. Alicia got there first and hugged her friend.
‘We’re ok I guess’ Alicia said lightening the mood ‘we could be awesomer but it’d be too much work.’ Jamia laughed through her tears and shook her head at her friend’s words.
‘Listen I have to get to Christa’s and pick up the child and the brat, I’ll let you decide which is which’ Cheyenne announced
‘I wish Frank was staying with you and Gee’ Jamia said ‘that way at least you guys would keep an eye on him and then I’d know for sure if he was seeing someone else.’
‘He’s fine at Ray’s’ Cheyenne said quickly ‘and I assure you there’s no one else’ she lied
‘Yeah’ Alicia chimed in ‘Frank isn’t the unfaithful type, he’s always been very respectful he wouldn’t do that to you.’
‘No we just assumed he wouldn’t’ Jamia said ‘and you know what they say about people who assume...’
‘Makes an ASS out of U and Me’ Cheyenne finished.
‘Exactly’ Jamia sighed wearily.
‘Come on now’ Alicia said perkily ‘let’s not think about horrible stuff, let’s stuff our faces and watch movies.’
‘Sounds good’ Jamia said lacking the amount of enthusiasm she would normally have but all she wanted to do was crawl into the foetal position and stay there.
‘Listen Mia’ Cheyenne said as they all walked out into the hallway ‘if you need anything you call me ok, I’ll come as quickly as I can.’
‘Thanks’ Jamia said hugging her friend once more ‘for everything.’
‘Don’t mention’ Cheyenne said with a dismissive wave of her hand not letting on how much she was hurting for the other woman ‘That’s what friends are for’
Past April 2010
Gerard’s heart was soaring as he and Cheyenne walked home. They had caught a taxi to a restaurant up in New York for dinner. They had hopped in a taxi home but decided to ditch it two blocks from their house to walk hand in hand through the New Jersey night. They had a wonderful dinner, lots of laughs and Cheyenne even managed to get him to slow dance with her before they came home, and now they walked home together with Cheyenne under his arm and hers wrapped around his waist. Everything was perfect.
‘Gee’ Cheyenne spoke disturbing the quiet ‘do you remember our very first date?’
‘Of course I do’ he laughed as they turned onto their street. Gerard could already see their home, the dim light of their bedroom made it easy to spot, they always left it on when they were out to ward off any burglars ‘do you remember it?’ he asked
‘Of course it was one of my best nights with you’ she said looking up at him.
‘How much do you remember?’ he asked a small smile playing on his lips.
‘Everything’ Cheyenne said unsure what he was getting at.
‘Do you remember how you mercilessly tied me to the bed and bought me close to orgasm over and over before we made love?’
‘Oh yes’ Cheyenne replied feeling a rush of heat between her thighs ‘I’ll never forget that, you begged me to finish you off.’
‘Oh yeah well tonight it’s my turn and you’re going to be the one begging’ he whispered in her ear as he pushed open their gate. Cheyenne moaned at his words as the memories of that night flooded her mind and she raced him to the door.
Once they were inside Gerard spun her around and pushed her against the door his lips instantly finding hers. She kissed him back roughly and she moaned against his lips as his hands travelled up her thighs and under her dress.
'You like that huh' he asked his voice husky with need as he stroked her womanly mound through her underwear.
'You know I do' she replied breathlessly. His hands pushed the lace material down her thighs and they fell towards the floor pooling around her feet.
'I think I've only ever done you up against a wall once before' he told her through kisses 'do you remember?'
'I-I don’t know' she gasped as his leg nudged hers apart 'I can't think right now'
'And why is that?' he teased
'Because your hands are caressing my ass and I can feel your hard cock pressing against my thigh' she said 'I want you inside me that's all I can think about.'
'Well then we'll just have to re-enact it won’t we?' he said lowering his lips to her neck and suckling gently on her skin, he felt her shiver and he suppressed a moan, he was on fire in anticipation of what he was going to do to her now and for the rest of the night.
'Just do what I say and you can't go wrong' he whispered 'First I took your hand like this' he instructed taking her right hand with his left and guided it to his hard length that strained against his trousers, her fingers immediately began to stoke him and he groaned deep in his throat.
'And then I exposed your breasts' he breathed. He left her hand where it was and pulled her to him, his hand going to the zip at the back of her dress, he gently unzipped it and peeled the straps of her dress down her arms until the dress fell from her torso and rested on her hips. He unclasped her strapless bra and let it fall to the floor.
Cheyenne’s breathing was fast and heavy as she gently stroked him, she could feel his warm breath on her chest and she felt herself become wetter. She was now remembering the day he was re-enacting and her breath quickened even more as she knew what was coming, as the thought came to her Gerard eased a finger inside her wet heat and she cried out, she shook as his finger wiggled inside her moving in and out of her tight hole making her ready for him. She clung to him as he worked a second finger inside her, her legs were weak with need and she was trembling from anticipation. 'Fuck me Gerard' she managed to get out.
'Patience my love' he soothed his sexy voice teasing her 'not much longer now. Spread your legs.'
Cheyenne moaned and opened her legs wider and Gerard shoved his fingers deeper inside her and she cried out. She felt so erotic up against the front door, her breasts on display and Gerard between her legs she could cum just thinking about it.
'Release me Chey' Gerard mumbled, his mouth was on her breast suckling away at her erect nipples and he didn’t want to stop massaging them with his tongue until he had to. With trembling hands Cheyenne unbuttoned his trousers and unzipped him, she pushed his boxers down and released his erect manhood. She took it in her hands and gently began to pump him, Gerard bit down on her breasts in appreciation and she cried out once more. The feel of his hardness and the soft skin that covered it was driving her to insanity and she begged for Gerard to take her.
'How bad do you want it' he teased, he could tell she was more than ready she was practically dripping over his fingers.
'Bad' she gasped as he grabbed her arse and lifted her off the ground. She wrapped her thighs and arms around him as he penetrated her heat. Gerard grunted as he pushed deeper inside her, his fingers digging into her thighs. Cheyenne half moaned half whimpered as he guided himself in and out of her throbbing woman hood, she wasn’t shocked at how quickly her orgasm was building, Gerard made her want too badly.
'I'm not going to last long' she gasped as she clung to him 'I'm gonna fucking cum soon. Oh fuck me harder Gee'
'Woman you keep talking like that and I won’t last much longer either' he ground out as he thrust inside her again and she bucked against him. 'God, you’re so fucking wet.'
'You know you do that to me' she replied crashing her lips to his, she kissed him hard as he continued to move within her. All that could be heard in the confines of the hallway was their breathing and Cheyenne's moans.
'Oh I'm so close' Cheyenne whimpered and she clamped her mouth shut to stifle the loud moan that was building in her throat.
'Don't you dare' Gerard growled 'Don’t you dare stifle those moans I want to hear what I’m doing to you.'
'Oh fuck I'm cuming' Cheyenne cried as the first wave of passion crashed through her body. Gerard felt her pussy tighten around his cock and the sensation threw him over the edge too, he came hard inside Cheyenne and he cried out as he plunged into her spilling himself inside her over and over again. Gerard held tight to her until the euphoric feeling faded and their breathing started to return to normal.
'Oh man that wasn't the plan' Gerard panted
'It wasn't?' Cheyenne asked 'it seemed like a good idea to me.'
Gerard laughed and kissed her lips, setting her back down on the floor 'I had something else in mind.'
'Care to share' Cheyenne said wrapping her arms around his waist and laying her head on his chest.
'Come upstairs and I'll show you' he said taking her hand and leading her to the bedroom.
Of all people to greet Cheyenne at Ray and Christa's door of course it would be Frank and she let her distain show by rolling her eyes at him.
'Hey beautiful' He grinned.
'Wipe that grin off your face Frank' she snapped 'I'm not happy to see you.'
'Well I'm over the moon to see you' he said 'what are you doing here?'
'I’ve come to pick up Gerard and Jasmine' she said walking past him, she stopped when he suddenly grabbed her arm forcing her to face him.
'I didn’t mean to hurt her you know' he said his face showing the sadness of his voice 'I never did.'
'Oh Frank' Cheyenne said softly lowering her guard 'what did you think this would do to her?'
'I knew what it would do' he said tears forming in his eyes 'but I hated to see her cry, I hate that I made her cry but I wasn't happy.'
'Are you happy now?' Cheyenne asked 'by yourself.'
'I'm not but I will be happy and I won’t be alone for long' he said with the sure fire certainty he had been using with her since the beginning
'Frank you have to stop this fantasy of us that you have in your mind it's never going to happen. I want to be with Gerard, I belong with him.' Cheyenne said making sure to keep her voice low.
'But you're bound to me' he replied 'and deep down you know it.'
'I'm going to say this in a way I hope you'll understand.’ Cheyenne replied ‘I will never, ever leave Gerard for you Frank not ever.'
'It won’t necessarily happen that way' he said with a shrug 'who knows how it'll go down, I sure as hell don't but it will.'
'You're fucking crazy' Cheyenne hissed trying to yank her arm out of his grip 'let me go'
'I’m crazy for you' he smirked tightening his grip 'what do you want me to do Chey?'
'Nothing' she cried losing the will to fight his hold on her arm 'I don't want you to do anything I- I just want you to be my friend again, to be my Frank again, my friend who made me laugh when others made me cry, who I could talk to about anything, who was there for me. I just want him back.'
'He’s still here' Frank said softly 'and I can be much more then that I can be your everything.'
Cheyenne opened her mouth to speak when Mikey came bounding down the stairs 'I thought I heard voices, I mean other than the ones in my head.'
Cheyenne smiled and Frank released her arm 'how you doing Mikey?' she asked.
'Other then angry as hell at this shit' he said punching Frank in the arm 'I'm ok. You here to convince this jackass to do the right thing?’
‘I’m trying my best’ Cheyenne said as Mikey took her hand and led her into the living room. She looked over her shoulder and threw Frank one last serious look ‘but he’s just not getting the message.’
Past April 2010
‘Aw look at all of this’ Cheyenne gushed at the rose petals that covered their bed ‘It’s just like out first date.’
‘That was the plan’ Gerard said lighting the last of the candles that gave the room a light glow ‘until you ravaged me down stairs.’
‘I don’t believe it happened that way’ Cheyenne laughed as she slipped her dress off completely. ‘So’ she said spreading herself across the bed are you going to tie me up and tease me mercilessly’
‘That was the plan’ Gerard said his eyes filled with lust as he watched her wiggling around on the petal covered sheets, her hand roaming her body. He walked across the room and joined her on the bed. He propped himself up on his arm and looked down at her naked form, he was temporarily mesmerized by her breast rising and falling as she breathed peacefully. He gently trailed his fingers up from her thighs, over her stomach and breasts until it rested under her chin, he lifted her face and dropped a gentle kiss on her lips. ‘I was planning to have my wicked way with you’ he murmured against her mouth ‘but now I see you spread out in front of me naked and beautiful I don’t want to fuck you’ he told her kissing her again ‘I want to make love to you.’
Cheyenne wrapped her arms around his neck and pulled him down to her, she kissed him softly but with meaning and before long they were both breathing heavily with want.
‘Thank you’ Gerard said to her as he kneeled beside her shedding his clothes.
‘You’re welcome’ she said knowing that he was still thanking her for this last chance and she wondered how long it would be before he realised that he did deserved it.
‘I love you’ he said positioning himself between her thighs, his body laying over hers, his lips brushing her neck.
‘Show me how much’ she said reaching for his face and pulling it towards her.
‘Oh sugar I will’ he said as he gently pushed inside her. And true to his word Gerard spent the rest of the night showing her exactly how much he loved her.
A/N – hello my darlings : ) that’s the last of the past flashbacks for now I think, I’ve shown you how much Gerard changed and the man he became. He used to be such a wank lol. Anyhoo got lots more to tell you and much more shocking drama as usual so need all the writing space I can get, although important the flashbacks were taking up valuable space lol. Hope you all enjoyed it. Please R&R and let me know what you thought and of course thank you to all those who reviewed the last chapter. Thanks xxxx