Things change so quickly
"One day Frankie, Your going to make some girl very happy. Maybe not here in Belleville but you will find someone who is far to lucky to have you"
"I hope so"
"... I know so" he began to say.
he started talking but I couldnt hear what he was saying.. He at that very moment looked like... GOD!
what ever he was saying about a girl he was sorley mistaken... I want him.. I don't want a girl or a different boy. I want Gerard Way.. he makes all the pain
disappear.. He makes reality seem fantasy he makes me complete.
"Frankie were you listening?"
"no.. I'm sorry"
"well its ok then.. Lets just watch these movies"
He pushed play on the remote and put the tray with assorted food in between us.
We both started muching out on popcorn.
"So whats this movie called Gerard?"
"is it good?"
"I think it is"
"Well then I guess it will be"
My eyes were drawen to the tv... This was so so so good.
I reached my hand in to get some popcorn when Gerard did too.
We both started laughing like it wasn't anything major.
"Fuck that was classic"
"I know" I laughed back at him
The popcorn supply started getting low.
"Wanna try an Oreo?"
"uh ok" I said un surley... What the fuck was an Oreo? Well I guess I'm about to find out.
"oh, wait we have to have some milk"
"Ok Gerard" I giggled as he went and got a carton of milk and two cups.
"alright first you twist it" he said twisting him biscuit... I followed his lead.
"Then you lick it" he said again
"Then you dunk it" He said pushing it into the milk
"Do we get to eat it?"
"Of course you do" he replied putting it in his mouth.
I carefully put mine in my mouth.
"Wow... This is SO good!"
"I know right?"
"Can i have-"
"Frankie... Help yourself... to anything in this house"
"Honestly seriously" He said smiling back at me.
"Your welcome Frankie"
"That was a very cool movie!" I said just realizing it had finished.
"I know, its one of my favorites"
"I see why... I want scissors for hands"
"I want knifes for fingers" he said running his fingers along my face.
"That could be dangerous" I smiled at him.
"No its like Freddy Kruger"
"You dont know who Freddy is?" he asked seriously..
Oh no.. I'm in trouble.
"no.... I don't"
"He's this rapist who would touch the towns kids then finialy the parents got sick of him and burned his house down with him inside... He was burned to death
but he came back..but only to those who sleep... He gets in your dreams and kills you and theres not a thing you can do about stopping him because you dont'
wake up" Gerard said in a scary voice.
"That sounds so scary" I said pulling a sofa cushion to my face.
"Nah its not really"
"Does he have an enemy?"
"Jason" he answered.
"Yeah.. He drowened... hes afraid of fire.. and Freddy afraid of Water"
"oh... well do you have a Freddy, Jason movie?"
"I have Freddy Verses Jason"
"is it good?"
"well lets watch it then"
"I'll go get it then" he said getting up and walking to his room.
I took Edward Scissorhands out of the d.v.d player and put it in the case
"Thats good Gerard"
"Yeah, Is it scary?"
"a little bit, but its not all that bad"
"oh well I get scared easily"
"You'll be fine Frankie"
"better be!" I muttered as it started.
"Want some fruit loops?"
"uhh Sure" I said unsurely
He returned with a bowl of circle colored things.
"Open your mouth" He said
I did as he asked.
he began throwing the circles in my mouth.
"Open your mouth..." he did just that.
"Shut your eyes"
He shut his eyes and opened his mouth.
I picked up a handfull of 'fruit loops' and went closer to Gerard...
With my index finger I slowly shut Gerards mouth. He didn't say a word just went with the flow
I pushed his fringe from his face and looked to his closed eyes.
Ohh god how I want him... I think its what I want I dunno, I've never done this before.
He turned his body so we were chest to chest.
I took his hair in my hands, My heartbeat picked up.
I gave his lips a little peck. Followed by another. and another. and another.
His hands took my back as he finialy kissed me back. I pulled myself against him.
Our lips moving at the same pace... It was warm. and unexpeted, I really liked it.
Gerards tounge glidded over my lips.
It was so delicate and I loved every second of it.
Gerard pulled me so I was sitting on his hips... Kinda like he was a horse and I was ridding it.
He layed flat on his back and pulled me so my chest was touching his.
his hands went up the inside of my shirt forcing me onto him.
My hands shakingly went up the inside of Gerards top.
Tracing over every detail of him.
His hips stood out. and so did his ribs.
I stopped. I didn't think I was doing the right thing.
I sat up and pulled myself of Gerard.
"I-I'm so very sorry Gerard.. I-I don't know what.. I'm sorry Gerard" I said standing up and rushing to the bathroom
I locked the door and sat in the shower rocking back and forwards.
Surely Gerard will have a razorblade... Or something sharp.. surely.
I pulled out his draws searching......... Found it!.
I rolled up my sleeve and just dragged it across my skin.
uhhh. it hurts so so so so damn bad. But now I've ruined things.
Gerard dosnt like me anymore. I've ruined my whole entire life... Gerard was my whole enitre life.
I sat in the shower again just watching the blood surge from my arm
"Frankie Honey open the door" I heard him call through the door
"no..." I wispered I knew he couldnt hear me.
His face keept playing over and over in my head.
I rested my head on the corner of the shower When my vision went black.