Ever feel like no one cares for you or no one notices you? Ever feel like a weakling? Young Yuki Shiro tells her similar feelings in the form of a story.
I should probably describe to you what I look like. I have shoulder-length sky-blue hair. I have dark blue eyes. My height is 4'4". I wear the regular shinigami uniform. Instead of the regular white sash, I wear a blue ribbon that ties in the back. (You know, like Senna?) The only accessory I have is a snowflake hairclip that belonged to my mom.
I am a shinigami, as you might've guessed. I belong in the fourth division and I hold the ranking of fourth seat. My zanpaktou is named Ryuushiro, meaning "White Dragon.' Ryuu is a healing and ice zanpaktou. Instead of the diamonds being gold, they're silver. My shikai is "Freeze, Ryuushiro!" The end of the hilt grows a silver bell and then a light blue ribbon about eight feet long. My only attack is "Mizuyuki." It covers a limited area with Ryuu's ice of healing. I have no bankai, but other than that, cool, huh?
I am a childhood friend of Lieutenant Momo Hinamori. Through her, I met my undeniable crush, Toshirou Hitsugaya. She was happy that I was her friend and that I spiritual power like her. She was even happier when we found out that we both came from the same district of Rukongai, Junrinan. When we graduated from the Soul Academy, Momo was sad that we were in different divisions. But I was kinda happy. Aizen-taichou freaked me out and gave me a funny feeling.
I was mildly surprised when Shiro-kun was given the position of Captain. I was happy for him. Though people saw him ice and talked about him behind his back. But I didn't mind that gossip.
My favorite color is, after all, aqua, the color of his eyes.
I walked down the halls to Division 5. My life was perfect. Or was it? I was told to deliver paperwork to Aizen-taichou and Hitsugaya-taichou. Even though Division 10 was closer, I started with Division 5 to get it over with. Like I said, Aizen gave me a funny feeling.
When I got to Division 5, I put the paperwork on Aizen's desk and was about to leave.
"Oh, Yuki-chan! Why don't you stay for tea?" Momo-chan asked.
"I can't. I have to deliver paperwork," I said. "Gomen, Momo-chan."
"It's okay! You can stay over tomorrow! It's you day off tomorrow, isn't it?"
"Yeah. Gotta go! Sayonara!" I waved.
When I got to Division 10, I was stopped short by someone hugging me to the point where I couldn't breathe. No, seriously, I could not breathe. I actually thought I would die right then and there.
"Matsumoto, if you could release Yuki-chan that would be great."
Rangiku-san let me go. I was relived to have my breath back.
"Oh, Taichou. You know she likes it," Rangiku replied.
"Yeah, I do, but when I can't breathe, then I really start to hate it, because you're taking it too far." I had to get that out of my system. I just had to.
"Thanks a million, Hitsugaya-kun." I thanked my friend as I handed him the paperwork.
He smirked. "Anytime. And that's Hitsugaya-taichou to you." He took the paperwork.
"Night, Taichou. Night, Fukutaichou." I yawned.
"Good night, Shiro-san. Sweet dreams," Unohana-taichou said back.
As I went to bed, I couldn't help but feel like something bad was going to happen. I just knew it.
I woke up, got dressed as usual, and went to the Division 5 barracks to have tea with Momo-chan. I couldn't find her there. So I went out to look for her. I swear, Aizen, if you did anything to her, I will kill you…I thought.
I went outside and found all the lieutenants crowded in one place. I went to them to see what the commotion was about.
"What's going on here?" I asked. I looked up and my face went pale.
There was Aizen pinned to the wall way above me. There was blood running down from his body. Even though he scared me a bit, I couldn't help but feel sorry for him. Then I heard a scream.
"No! Aizen-taichou! You can't do this to me!" It was Momo-chan. I couldn't stand to see her like this.
"I'm going to get a captain." I said to everyone. I turned around and was about to shunpo off, when Ichimaru-taichou spoke to me.
"But a captain is already here. A captain has been here all along," he said and smiled widely.
"I meant another one," I said. Then before anyone else could speak, I shunpo'd off.
Please be there, Hitsugaya-kun. Momo-chan needs you. I need you. Please be there. Don't make me look for you, I pleaded mentally.
When I got to his office, I was in luck today. I was breathless, but yet I still spoke to him immediately.
"A-Aizen…murder…Momo-…" I stopped because he was looking at me like I had some sort of disease. "Oh, just follow me," I said as I grabbed his hand, pulling him out of his chair and into step beside me. We shunpo'd out.
As I was leading him, I heard Momo and Izuru shout their shikais. Oh, this cannot be good…
Then I realized that I was not in front anymore. Hitsugaya was now leading. I figured he had heard what I had heard just now and realized the trouble. I looked at his face, and then I quickly looked away. I couldn't look at face. His eyes were filled with anger. Then it hit me. I meant to say, " Aizen's been murdered. Momo's in great distress." He probably thought I said, "Aizen murdered Momo…"
When we got there, Hitsugaya quickly went over. He blocked Wabisuke with his sword and stopped Tobiume with his foot. I landed over by Rangiku.
"Back away, both of you…" Hitsugaya said, angrily.
They both backed away, but the two lieutenants did not stop looking hatefully at each other.
Hitsugaya lectured Momo about attacking people for no reason. Rangiku and another lieutenant took Momo away. Izuru was carried to only God knows where.
I turned to Ichimaru-taichou and was about to speak, but Hitsugaya-kun beat me to it.
"Ichimaru, I believe you were about to kill Momo." Hitsugaya said threateningly.
"Why would I, lil' Taichou?" Ichimaru faked innocent. I knew he was.
"Ichimaru, if you make Hinamori spill even a drop of blood, I will kill you." He said walking off.
"Toshirou-kun," I said, grabbing his shoulder and holding onto it like it was my last lifeline.
"What?" He sounded as if he had just dealt with a huge load of being harassed. I stepped back a little, for I've never seen this side of him before. My blue eyes obviously showed that I was scared.
"I…just want you to know, I'm here for you," I said, letting go. I was about to walk off, but he grabbed my wrist.
"Yuki-chan…tell me something…"
I was silent.
"Why didn't you get Unohana-taichou instead? I'm sure that your captain is more important to you than I am," he said.
"Hitsugaya…you're my best friend…or one of them anyways. Besides you were the first person I thought of," I said, sort of sadly. Well I was sad. I was sad that he liked Momo more than me.
I pulled my wrist out of his grip. I could sense that he was surprised that I had done so. I walked back to my division.
Now I had only one thing to do. Figure out what to do about Momo-chan's imprisonment. She was currently stuck in Division 10 barracks or prison. My mind went to Momo and me.
I was sitting on my pack porch. The sun was shining. It was a beautiful day, but I was sad. No one wanted to play with me. Then a girl with black hair and a boy with white hair came up. Well, the black-haired girl did. The white-haired kid stayed behind her.
"Hey," the girl said, sitting down beside me. "You look lonely."
"Uhh…I am," I said.
"We shall join you then. Right, Shiro-chan?"
"Stop calling me that!" the kid shouted.
"Oh, I like that name though," I said. "I'm Yuki Shiro."
"I'm Momo Hinamori and this is Toshirou Hitsugaya!"
"It's nice to meet you both. I think I'm going to like you guys," I said happily.
"Yuki-chan! Get over here!" Momo-chan called. We were in the Soul Academy. We were training to become Shinigami. I asked Toshirou if he wanted to join us but he said that being a Death God was a pointless job.
But nonetheless, I went over to where Momo-chan and some other kids stood in a circle.
"Oh, hi Momo-chan!" I said.
"Meet Renji Abarai." She pointed to a kid with spiky red hair. "Izuru Kira." She pointed to a kid with blonde hair. "And Rukia Kuchiki." She pointed to a girl with black hair. "Everyone, this is Yuki Shiro. She's our new addition."
"Yuki Shiro, I hereby place you in Squad 4, 4th Seat, under the placing of Retsu Unohana and Isane Kotetsu, Taichou and Fuku-Taichou." Yamamoto's voice hollered out through the room. I was finally a shinigami.
"And finally, Momo Hinamori, I hereby place you in Squad 5, unseated, under the placing of Sosuke Aizen, Taichou." Momo smiled beside me.
"Aww…Yuki-chan…you're in a different division than me. I'm in fifth," Momo whined after the graduation.
"It's okay. I'm just in fourth. I'll be your healer when you get injured, okay? And Shiro-kun too, okay? Agreed?"
That's it. Momo's my best friend. I don't care if I get in prison in Division 10 just like her. I don't care if Hitsugaya-kun yells at me and is never my friend again. I'm breaking Momo out. And no one can stop me.
~Division 10 - Nighttime~
I snuck stealthily toward Momo's cell. Kira-kun's and Abarai-kun's cells were already destroyed and abandoned. The only one left was Momo-chan. I got to her outside wall.
"Hadou 33: Sokatsui," I whispered. I may be a healer, but I am also an expert at kidou. The wall broke and I had created a hole in the wall.
Momo was looking at me hopefully.
"Come on, Momo-chan! We're getting out of here!" I said, extending my hand for her to take it. She did so. We both shunpo'd off. I followed Momo. She seemd like she was going off somewhere. But I respected her. So we went wherever she planned on going.
Then Momo told me to hide in the shadows and not be caught, whatsoever. I obeyed her. I hide in the shadows.
Then I knew why Momo-chan had told me to hide. I heard a familiar voice.
"Ichimaru…" It was Hitsugaya-kun. I felt my eyes go wide.
"Oh! Dear 10th captain…How nice to see you…"
"I see that Hinamori has not arrived yet. That makes it even better," Hitsugaya growled.
He spoke too soon. Just then Momo-chan appeared right in front of him.
"Hinamori! What on earth are you doing here?" Hitsugaya snapped at her. Just then, she whipped around, unsheathing Tobiume in the process and pointed her sword at him. Hitsugaya-kun…what the hell was wrong with Momo?
"Hina…mori…" His eyes were wide.
"Momo-chan…" I whispered. I wanted to yell at Momo-chan to stop whatever she was doing. I wanted to yell at Hitsugaya-kun to snap out of his trance. But I couldn't. Momo said I had to stay hidden.
About two minutes, I was snapped out of my thoughts when I heard Momo-chan cry, glaring hard at Hitsugaya-kun with wet eyes, "And do you know what Aizen-taichou's letter said?"
I was worried out of my damn mind right now. Momo looked like she was trying to attack him or something…
Momo-chan continued, "At Kuchiki-san's execution… the weapon that they plan to use on her… The Sokyoku… when it is used, its powers are heightened by ten times… Anyone who wants to use it could level Soul Society…" I couldn't believe what I was hearing…
"And…" Her eyes narrowed, "Aizen-taichou told me that someone was planning to do this… Someone was going to use Sokyoku… And do you know who that is…?"
Hitsugaya-kun took a small step back, probably trying to brace himself for whatever may happen…
"It… It is tenth captain, Toshirou Hitsugaya …!" She screamed at him, "You killed my captain!"
She charged for him. I was too scared and surprised to pay attention to what Momo was trying to do to him. But I did hear Hitsugaya trying to deny it, but Momo shut him up.
She yelled again, "Liar! Don't lie to me! Do you think you can fool me that easily! What do you expect me to believe!"
She stopped attacking for a moment, crying pathetically in front of her old childhood friend, "Shiro…chan…?"
Then my mind went hazy, but I didn't faint. I stepped forward a bit, but I still held myself back from going any further. I was too scared that Hitsugaya-kun might want to execute me too. I couldn't pay attention no matter what I did.
He was a traitor. He said that he would protect Momo with all his life. Even though I was jealous of Hitsugaya liking Momo more than me, I couldn't help at wanting to kill him myself.
Hitsugaya-kun turned to Gin Ichimaru, catching the 3rd captain's mischievous smile that briefly turned into a diabolical smirk.
His eyes widened, "You…" He screamed loudly, charging for the other man, "It was you!" I've never seen him this angry before.
Hinamori suddenly jumped into his way, tears streaming down her face, "D-Don't push me aside!"
The young captain had no choice and without a second thought, he threw his old friend aside. I was pissed at him right now. It took all my willpower to keep myself from releasing my probably weak reiatsu. It also took all my willpower to keep myself from jumping out and scratching Hitsugaya-kun's face with Ryuushiro.
With the collision and her lack of energy, she passed out on the ground. Tobiume's hilt covered with red blood. She was bleeding?
"Ooooh… How mean, taichou!" Ichimaru mocked Hitsugaya with little fear, "You hit her so hard that she was knocked unconscious… What a mean person you are!" Even though I think Gin is an idiot, I had to agree with him on that one.
Hitsugaya growled, turning his head back to his enemy, "Gripping her zanpakuto so tightly in her hands that she was bleeding…" He sneered, pulling his own blade out from its sheath, "I told you… that if you made Hinamori spill blood…" His eyes got darker and he snarled deeply, "I would kill you."
Wait. Hold the damn phone. Who was the real person who had hurt Momo-chan? Hitsugaya-kun? Or Ichimaru-taichou? I couldn't think right now. I knew there was a fight going on, but I was too scared and mad at Hitsugaya-kun, I couldn't think. Yeah, I had made up my mind about who hurt Momo-chan. Hitsugaya-kun was a traitor. I mean, who could not believe a letter like Aizen-taichou's?
I was finally able to calm myself down when Hitsugaya-kun froze Ichimaru-taichou's arm. I wanted so badly to break up that fight. I couldn't. Momo had told me not to get involved. She had told me to hide and not come out until the coast was clear.
"Shoot to kill, Shinso," Ichimaru said ever so calmly. Hitsugaya-kun dodged it by ducking.
"Are you sure you want to dodge that?" Ichimaru-taichou said calmly. "If you do, she'll die."
Shinso was headed straight for Momo-chan! I couldn't help it. I didn't know how fast I really was until I heard Hitsugaya shout, "NO!" I had run out from my hiding place and jumped in front of Momo, protecting her from Shinso. Shinso was headed towards me.
"Awww…Yuki-chan~! How dare you step in front of her…now you're going to die in her place…" I was now scared to hell. There was no one to help me. Hitsugaya was probably laughing at me getting hurt. Ichimaru was obviously smirking. I shut my eyes tightly.
But I never felt the blade pierce my skin. I looked up and there was Rangiku-san, blocking Shinso with Haineko.
"I'm sorry, Taichou. I was on my way back to my barracks, like you told me to. But then I felt Hyourinmaru's reiatsu, so I decided to come see what was wrong," She said. "Ichimaru, surrender your blade or you'll have both of us as your opponents."
I was jealous of Hitsugaya's reiatsu. Of Momo-chan's ability to fight someone to avenge her captain, even if it was her best friend. Of anyone holding a higher ranking than me. Of people who could fight better than me. I was probably the weakest healer of all Soul Society. I don't know why I became a Shinigami. Maybe Hitsugaya-kun was right. Being a Shinigami is a pointless job. I'm so pathetic, I thought.
Ichimaru called back Shinso and walked away. Rangiku-san stood back up.
"Thank you, Matsumoto…"
"Not a problem, Taichou…"
Nobody realized I was still standing there in front of Momo-chan. Not even Kira-kun, whom I just realized was there. I felt small and useless and weak. I wanted to kill myself. Then to catch everyone's attention, I picked up Momo-chan bridal style. Hitsugaya was the first to notice, of course, because he immediately protested and insisted that I put Momo-chan down right then. I didn't care if he was a captain right at that moment. He wasn't my captain anyways.
"What the hell did you say…?" His eyebrow was twitching, and I could tell he was downright furious with me. But like I said, I didn't care. I only cared about Momo-chan.
"I said no. I'm not letting Momo-chan down. I'm a healer and my job is to heal people, Hitsugaya-taichou…" I put extra stress on the word "taichou" on purpose.
He was speechless. It took guts to talk to him like that. And only I had them. That was when I walked away. I didn't have the heart to look back. I hated him now. I hated everyone except Momo-chan. I really wanted to kill myself. I felt like hell.
When I got to Division 4, I went to my room. I placed Momo on an extra futon of mine. I placed a healing kidou up around her and then I went over to my own futon, and not really caring that I was still in my shihakusho, I flopped down on the futon, crying my heart out, and falling asleep.
I shunpo'd in and out of sight. I couldn't find her anywhere. What was happening? Well I'll tell you.
I had woken up and looked to see that Momo-chan was out of my room. I had also noticed traces of a kidou barrier. So I figured that Momo-chan broke it. She was always good at that stuff. Breaking barriers and mix-matching different kidous and hadous was as easy as a piece of cake to her. I was never good at swordsmanship, but there are two thing I am good at though. That is kidou and shunpo. I was probably the third fastest Shinigami in all Soul Society. But anyways, back to business. I looked all around my division for Momo-chan, but I couldn't find her anywhere. I was now looking all around Sereitei for Momo-chan. I even looked in the 10th Division but she was gone, along with Matsumoto and Hitsugaya-kun. I wonder what they could be up to?
By nighttime, I arrived at the place where I thought I'd go. Central 46. Forty wise men and six judges. I went to the door and looked through. Again I felt my heart twitch with pain.
"Central 46…what happened? They're all…dead. They've been murdered." I gasped. "Momo-chan was here! And so was Hitsugaya-kun! He was surprised for some odd reason. Isn't he the one behind all this? If he is, then why was he surprised? That doesn't make any sense…" Then my surprised look turned into a determined one. "To change the subject, I must not waste any time. Time is money right now. If I want everyone to be safe, I need to report this murder…right away…" With that I left. If Central 46's murder was all part of the plan of whoever was behind Rukia-chan's execution, then I would possibly the savior of Rukia-chan's life, much less than the entire Soul Society. I had to do this.
Squad one barracks
"Let me go! This is urgent! I must tell the Head Captain! This is an emergency!" I struggled against the guards, trying to get to Yamamoto-soutaichou. But unfortunately, they wouldn't let me.
"They're in a captain only meeting right now! You're going to have to wait!" One of them said.
"But this one can't! It's an emergency!" I shouted at the top of my lungs.
Then I heard silence while Yamamoto's voice hollered throughout the silence. "Just let her in. If it's an emergency and it cannot wait, let her in."
The guards opened the doors. I rushed in and went onto my knees bowing with my forhad almost touching the ground.
"Gomennasai, Sir! I will gladly except any punishment later!" I shouted.
"What is it, Shiro-san?"
"Central 46 has been murdered! The interior of the building is covered in blood, Sir! All of their members look like they've been for a three days at the most!"
All the captains tensed at this, but then they look very surprised. I heard a few "whats" around the room. Yeah, I'm surprised too. I'm actually a bit scared too.
Then Yamamoto-soutaichou dismissed the meeting. I ran out, trying detecting Momo-chan's reiatsu, which had mysteriously gone down at least fifty notches. I followed her weakened reiatsu. I found myself at Central 46's chambers where ice covered the ground. There stood an ice dragon. When it spoke, I realized that it was Hitsugaya-kun. Oh, so that's where he went. He went to find Momo and get revenge on Gin and Aizen. Wait. AIZEN?
I was itching to call out a name. Any name. I didn't care if they noticed me or not. I wanted to call out a random name. "H-Hitsu…gaya…kun…" Immediately, his head snapped towards my direction. He looked at me with wide eyes.
I heard him say, "Y-yuki…chan…you're alright…" before Aizen told him that they needed to finish their fight.
Hitsugaya went back to Aizen and said something like a threat. Aizen told him off, but Hitsugaya leapt anyway. I sighed in relief. Hitsugaya had him. Right in the chest, he had him. But then my eyes went wide. Hitsugaya's ice wings from his bankai broke off and there was a fatal wound on Hitsugaya-kun's right shoulder.
It seemed that at the same time, both Hitsugaya and I said, "I-Impossible…" Hitsugaya fell to the ground.
"Even though I like seeing ice, this is not the right time of year for it."
"Aizen-taichou!" I looked behind me. There was my taichou and fukutaichou.
Then I figured out from the conversation that went on that Aizen's zanpaktou made illusions. He had also used his zanpaktou to fake his death. I knew there was something wrong with that guy! He also explained other stuff, which I didn't really care about.
Then my train of thoughts was snapped in half when Aizen said to me, "Ha…Yuki-chan…you and Hinamori-kun were the best tools in my plan. Believing that Toshirou-kun was behind it all…But let me tell you the truth…It wasn't him…you see, it was me. I just used him to just get him out of my way when it was time for me to finally leave…"
I was downright furious. I couldn't help it. I released my reiatsu. All of it. It was actually stronger than what I first thought it was, because everyone backed up, even Unohana-taichou.
In the midst of my wrath, I heard Gin say, "She has a lieutenant-type reiatsu."
So I was supposed to be a lieutenant, but since all the spots were taken, they had put me in Squad 4 and made me Seat 4. Maybe I wasn't a "nobody" after all. Maybe I actually had a purpose in life. Maybe Hitsugaya-kun does like me the same as Momo-chan, and he just didn't show it. I smiled a little. And that made me calm down and my reiatsu storm to stop.
Then Ichimaru and Aizen left with a ribbon thing. I was dazed. They liked me after all. I wasn't weak. Then my mind went to Momo-chan and Hitsugaya-kun. They were injured.
"Taichou," I said. She turned to me.
"Yes?" She had a sad smile.
"Have I ever shown you my zanpaktou?"
"No you haven't. If you want you may show me right now," Unohana said.
She was always somebody you could look up to. Kotetsu-fukutaichou was contacting the Soul Society. She was telling them the truth.
So I unsheathed Ryuushiro. "Freeze, Ryuushiro…" Ryuushiro grew a bell and then an eight-foot light blue ribbon at the end. I went over to Hitsugaya-kun. I placed the flat of my blade against his shoulder and whispered, "Mizuyuki." Immediately, his shoulder was covered in ice.
When he was done, I went over to Momo-chan and did the same thing. When I was done, I resheathed Ryuushiro and walked back over to Unohana-taichou. She gave me a small thank you before Kotetsu-fukutaichou walked over, already done with telling the truth. I could tell she was tired.
On top of Sokyoku Hill
Aizen had left. It was now sunset. I was next to Yasochika Iemura, the third seat, giving orders to the healing units.
"And someone help the Ryoka!" Iemura said.
"I will," I said. I wanted to prove myself.
I walked over to the people who had saved Rukia for me. I was pretty shy walking over there by myself. But I did it, nonetheless.
"Umm…" I thought of something to say. All five faces turned to me, even the one under the orange barrier. "May I heal one of you please? You look badly hurt." Then I noticed Ganju Shiba and the bandages all over his face. "Ganju-san! You're hurt! Let me heal you!" I waited for them to respond.
"Umm, yeah. Sure you can help me, but I think I already have Kurosaki-kun under control," The girl said.
So I healed Ganju, a Quincy named Uryuu Ishida, and a Ryoka named Yasotura Sado, or Chad for short.
While I was healing Chad with Ryuushiro, the girl named Orihime Inoue said, "Thank you for helping me. I appreciate it."
"No, don't thank me," I protested. "I should be thanking you. Rukia-chan's my best friend, or one of them. I thought she was really cool when I first met her. She didn't treat me like a little kid, as did everyone else besides my little group of friends because I look like one, she treated me like I was her own little sister. She was so nice to me. I don't think I could live without her around. So thank you, all of you."
They all smiled, even Kurosaki-san. Then I stood up to Kurosaki's height. I stuck out my hand and introduced myself.
"Konnichiwa, Kurosaki-san. It's nice to meet you, one of the saviors of the Soul Society. My name is Yuki Shiro!" I smiled when he took my hand and shook it.
"It's nice to met you too." He was pretty silent. He reminded me of Hitsugaya-kun.
"Do you have a cell phone?" Inoue-san asked.
"Then we'll call you from time to time!" She was so excited for some reason.
"Okay, but I'll be on healing duty, so I might be available on most occasions. Don't be surprised if I'm not, okay?" I said.
"Okay!" I found some new friends, while also proving to myself that I wasn't a weakling. In fact, I was at lieutenant level. I smiled to myself, despite the injured people around me.