The sexual tense is born as Tsuzuki and Anna ponder their wants-- and obstacles that accompany them.
The sun's way:
hollyhocks turn toward it
through all the rains of May.
Today looked like another all-day rain. Anna and Tsuzuki were now on a confusing path. Emiko and Hotaru set them that way. And that was it. No maps. No directions. Just stuck them in the middle of nowhere. They didn’t know what to do next. It’s just all wandering in the darkness.
Am I attracted to Tsuzuki? I had a crush on him ten years ago. Is it coming back again? It feels so strange… Would it be okay if…
Anna slips her hand to her panties.
It wouldn’t really hurt. I have come close to having sex before. I wonder what it’s like.
Anna bites her lip at the thought.
His hands all over me like that…
Anna gently touches her lips.
We have kissed before. I wouldn’t mind having another one… But does he want the same? And would he mind the…
Anna looks at her back and wrists and shudders. She could hear her life ticking away.
Maybe, I should take it all slow first. Take it slow and see where it goes from there.
Anna touches her lips again.
I do want him to kiss me again at least…
Emiko and Hotaru are right. I do want Anna. I want to be close to her. I want to get to know her very well. She really does find me attractive? Now that I think about it, Anna has turned out pretty cute over the years.
Tsuzuki paused over his strawberry shortcake.
But, I feel so dirty when I think of her like that. I’m older than her. Plus, every time I see her face, I see that scared, helpless sixteen-year-old girl that just lost her dad on that night. Even if we do end up sleeping together, I’ll feel like a pervert afterwards.
Tsuzuki takes another bite and starts on the paperwork again.
Why am I worried about age for? We’re both twenty-six. Anna’s not a child anymore. So, a sexual relationship between us should be okay, right…
Tsuzuki paused again and shuddered.
Tsuzuki sighed and lowered his pen.
But what can I do? I want Anna, but I don’t want to lose my job. Sigh I guess I’ll try to keep things innocent between us for a while and then tell her how I feel… one day.
These thoughts are only the top of the high stakes against Tsuzuki and Anna. They haven’t even begun to dig into the faulty Hell Stone itself and her family. That’s coming up soon. The rain gives people time to think, after all.