I woke up in my bunk with an odd jelly-like sensation on my jaw. How strange. I was pretty damn sure I didn’t lie down here; in fact, last thing I remember was running after something, or someone. I sat up and black spots danced in my eyes and I slumped back down again, letting out a groan.
A small shadow shifted behind the curtain of my bunk and then it was ripped back.
“He’s alive” Frank shouted down the bus.
I just stared at him as footsteps made their way down the bus, stopping when they reached my door.
“Toro, you okay man? What happened?” Gerard said panic etched in his face.
“iduno” I mumbled, it hurt to speak.
Gerard just looked confused so I tried again.
“I can’t remember Gee.”
“I can, I had to lug your ass a whole two blocks, no mean feat for someone of my size” frank piped up.
So that explained how I got into my bunk.
“You were passed out in an alleyway, you have a huge bruise on your jaw so you don’t wanna be touching that just yet” Gerard said.
That also explained the weirdness in my mouth.
Then it all came back to me.
“I remember!” I said, a little too suddenly, making them all jump.
“Well go on then!”Frank ushered me on.
“There was a girl, she was with her mom I think, I went to sign some stuff for then, but then her mom just went fucking pale, she dropped like a rock and I knew something had happened. Her eyes were wide and staring. I noticed someone running away, they were wearing a slipknot Hoodie and a baseball cap. I chased them down, all that working out helped a lot, but I was fast, but he was fucking strong dude! He hit me right in the mouth and that’s the last thing I remember...” I trailed off, noticing the small dark girl standing just behind Gerard.
“It’s you!” I cried, and she shrunk away from me.
“Hey don’t be scared, I’m Ray Toro, you know who I am, I’m not gonna hurt you sweetheart.” I held out my arm and she uncertainly held my hand, and I pulled her in giving her one of my special hugs.
“I’m so sorry” I whispered and I realised she was crying. Shit. That’s an understatement, she was having hysterics!
I watched Lilly as she was calmed down by the guys. I sat on the bunk opposite, silently obseriving. didn’t think she noticed me staring at her until the guys left and she asked me “what are you gawking at?”
“Nothing” I replied hurriedly and carried on trying to draw Mikey in various (painful) comical situations.
I was drawing him falling into Toro’s ‘fro (with painful consequences) when I noticed her sit next to me.
“Not doing umbrella academy?” she quizzed me
“Nope, I finished that a while back.”
“And I still held out hoping you would draw more” she said sadly.
I didn’t know what to say to that, so I stayed silent
I opened the door and strode in, after another argument with Alicia over the phone. I went straight to my bunk and tore the curtains shut so hard they ripped right off the rail. Great, now as well as no girlfriend, I now had no privacy, it was infuriating. I hadn’t noticed I began to cry until Lilly appeared.
“Mikey? Are you okay?” she asked, she sounded scared, I couldn’t blame her.
“I’m not oh-fucking-kay” I sang under my breath
Next thing I knew, she was in my bunk, her arms wrapped around me, tight.
“Please don’t cry Mikey” she mumbled into my shoulder
I hugged her back for a while before she pulled away
“Do you wanna talk ‘bout it?” she didn’t push me or anything; I guess I just needed to talk.
“Know Alicia, my girlfriend?” I asked, not knowing how much of a fan she was.
“Erm... yes, I think so, the one with the black hair?”
“Yeah her, well, we broke up, and she keeps calling telling me I’m a useless fool and I’m stupid to have left her...” he trailed off.
She sighed, rolled her eyes and then spoke up.
“Look Mikey, ignore her. Don’t answer her calls, because she’s wrong. Has she got thousands of kids looking up to her? Has she saves hundreds of lives just through playing music? Is she recognised by thousands of fans everywhere she goes? Does she have a band like you? No. She fucking doesn’t and also, she’s a fool for thinking she’s better than you.”
I was shocked. Did she really think that? I looked at her, I looked at her properly. She was about 5”7 with long, bright, red hair, a perfect figure, not skinny, not fat, and around her wrist and her ankle, she had words tattooed there, I couldn’t make them out. I stared and stared until I realised she was waving her hand in my face
“Mikey? Earth calling Mikey...”
My head snapped up and I smiled stupidly.
“Did you really mean what you just said?” I asked her
“Well yeah, anyone can see it” she blushed and I decided he liked Lilly. A lot.
I liked Mikey, he watched out for me on my first week on tour, everywhere I went, he came too (with a few exceptions) when I was down about mom, he was there to pick me up. He made me coffee and brought me nice clothes, in all honesty, I was really starting to like him. In fact, it extended to a little more than like.
One morning though, I had just stopped crying and was getting myself coffee (I was totally at home on the bus now) when Gerard came in from outside, reeking of smoke.
“Hey Gee, wanna coffee?” I offered and he nodded.
I couldn’t help noticing the way his hair was flicked out and I also noticed that from the rain outside, his white tee shirt had gone see through, revealing a really toned body, you never would have known he had. I had a hard job keeping my eyes on the coffee.
After a few minutes of awkward silence, Gee piped up
“Yeah, what’s up gee?” I saw his face twist as he looked for the right words, I thought I knew what was coming, my stomach flipped
“You know, we have enjoyed having you on the bus, but we need to think why you’re here. What can you do for us? And more importantly, do you want to be here?” he asked me, speaking real quick, stumbling over his words.
“I, I-“I stuttered. This was NOT what I’d expected “I can help you.” I said firmly. “I can cook, wash, clean, iron, I’ll be like your band mom” I laughed as I said it, trying to cover up my upset.
Gerard looked at me and he must have seen some truth in my words.
“Lilly, that’s all we need, it’s our manager, Brian he says that he can’t afford to keep you on the bus, unless you prove valuable. If we say what you just said, he’ll have to let you stay!”
It took a few moments to register what he said.
“So, you mean, I can stay!” I jumped up and pounced on Gerard hugging him. You can imagine the shock I got when he kissed me.
He pressed his lips onto mine and I was totally stunned, but after a while floundering round my brain, I remembered how to kiss back. I pulled back and stared at Gerard, he looked guilty for some reason and then I heard a door slam and looking away from Gerard, I noticed Mikey’s coat gone from the back of the sofa. Fuck.
I pulled myself from Gerard’s grip. He looked down at the ground and I just wondered what the fuck was going on.
I grabbed my new Hoodie that was a surprise present from Frank and ran out the door.
I walked around the buss park for a while praying he hadn’t left the premises, otherwise Gee would freak out. Then as I turned to return to the bus, I saw him, crouched down pressed against the wall, smoking. I strode over.
“Michael James Way” I spat.
He looked up
“Lilly something Elliot” he whispered.
He looked so small I forgot to be mad and laughed.
“My middle names Jayde” I smirked, taking the cigarette out of his hand and stubbing it out on the trash can.
“Hey! That was mine” he pouted.
“You don’t even smoke” I laughed “thank god, it stinks”
“You didn’t mind Gerard smoking; it couldn’t have stunk that much if you were making out with him.” He sounded in pain as he said it. Oh hell.
“Gerard kissed me! Not the other way round! Why are you so fussed anyway?” I shouted
“Because, you just can’t kiss Gerard.” He blushed madly.
“WHAT! I’m a grown woman! You can’t tell me what I can and can’t do! What’s your problem with it?” I was fuming by now. I was taking deep breaths, but if he didn’t come up with a good excuse, I swear to god I was going to punch him in the face.
“I-“he started, and then licked his lips, he tried again. “I like you too.”
“What? I don’t understand Mikey. Explain.” I crouched down.
“I like you. I told Gerard, and that’s why I was so fucking pissed when he kissed you.” He got up and walked off, back towards the bus, leaving me staring at the graffiti covered wall, like a total idiot.