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Songfic-Based on Haru Haru by Bigbang ( K-pop)
Based on a Bigbang song
Written by G-Dragon
These events in this story are very true and are also based on the Music Video, I highly recommend you check out the song Haru Haru or the band Bigbang.
I translated the song from Korean to English so if there are any mistakes sorry my bad.
If you have any questions please ask I will answer as much as I can.
I am nothing without you
Yeah, Finally I realize that I am nothing without you
I was so wrong, forgive me
Ah ah ah ah~
I couldn’t see the signs? how could she not tell me? The grip on my hand loosened as she breathed her last breath. How was I so blind that I could not see this? I gave a suffering scream as I openly sobbed.
Ah ah ah ah~
All that I felt was anger as I gazed upon the scene in front of me. My three friends who had dutifully followed me stood behind me, their eyes wide with disbelief. My girlfriend was in front of me, the girl I had for two years. Her eyes were fixed towards the man who was in front of her. I would have been awed by her beauty if it was not due to the fact that she was taking off our engagement ring. In front of her stood my friend T.O.P.She gently gave him the ring with a small smile on her face. He placed her hand in his and said “It will be okay, I’m here” He swept her hair back, holding her hand.
Like the tides my heart is broken
Like the wind my heart is shaking
Like the smoke my love faded away
It never erases like a tattoo
I sigh deeply and the ground shakes
I can’t let her go, I can’t. Why didn’t I know? it hurts to much to let this go.
My broken heart like a wave
My shaken heart like a wind
My heart vanished like smoke
It can't be removed like a tattoo
I sigh deeply as if a ground is going to cave in
Only dusts are piled up in my mind
I stand there watching with my two friends near me. Just as she looked back at the other guy she got a glance at me and walked away. I could feel the anger bubbling in me as I walked up to the T.O.P. He seemed to see me but he chose to ignore and walked away towards his silver car. I roughly grabbed his shoulders and shoved him towards the body of his car. He hit it painfully, eyes looking into mine with the anger as it glared at me with tears.
Why was he crying? I didn't know, I didn’t care.But I knew it was not due to the pain. He was used to me beating him up as a child, so this was no big pain to him.Why did she tell you and not me? I punched him.
Yeah, I thought I wouldn't be able to live even one day without you
But somehow I managed to live on (longer) than I thought
You don't answer anything as I cry out "I miss you"
I hope for a vain expectation but now it's useless
It’s not like she loves you it was always me. Friend don’t hold me back let me at him. He started attacking me and said that she could tell me everything without making him worry. I punched him, he knew it was coming.
"What the hell was that for, GD" he snarled out, his voice equivalent to the anger in his eyes. I grabbed the collars of his shirt as I pulled him towards me, our faces almost touching.
"How dare you try to steal my girl from me ?” I asked as I pushed him on the car. He just gave me a small glare as he pushed me away, punching me in the face.
The blood poured down.
“Man what is wrong with you? I didn’t she came to me, she trusted me with it He yelled into my face. My anger in my body started to rush right back up and another attack happened.
What is he talking about? I started asking in my head.
What is it about that person next to you, did he make you cry?
Dear can you even see me, did you forget completely?
I am worried, I feel anxiety because I can't get close nor try to talk to you
I spend long nights by myself, erasing my thoughts a thousand times
Look at me now, look how much I changed.
We fought, punch after punch. That was when my two friends obstructed as both of them grabbed me away and held me against the metal door of a nearby shop. The one who grabbed T.O.P struggled to pin him against the car. Their attempt to stop us from fighting was useless it was pointless as I pushed the one hold me away almost easily, my nails tearing on his skin slightly. T.O.P punched the guy who was still grabbing his arm away and charged back towards me.
Don't look back and leave
Don't find me again and live (on)
Because I have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories
I can bear it in some way
I can stand in some way
You should be happy if you are like this
I become dull day by day (eh eh eh eh)
Oh girl I cry, cry
You're my all, say goodbye...
I had to stop thinking of her I purposely stood up and walked towards the bathroom. I looked upon the mirror and realized that I look like shit. Dark circles surrounded my eyes. I looked tired and heartbroken. My hair messy as hell, looking like I haven’t showed or brushed it in forever.And it was her fault. Letting out an anguish filled scream laced with anger, I punched the mirror.
That night I full in alcoholic drinks, trying my best to drown my pain. To at least stop this pain hurting my heart. T.O.P had dealt quite a few blows to my face and body, covering my face with band-aids. It was not only the pain of the blows I was trying to drown but the pain of heartbreak. My mind flickered towards our beautiful memories. She was just so sweet… I just couldn't get my head around that she truted him not me. With something so serious as this.
My flashbacks of her and I were so vivid, tears falling down my face. I can’t live without her.
She was by far the perfect woman I have met. Her beauty was incomparable, her kindness was unlimited and her purity was unbelievable. The smiles she gave me was half hearted and laced with sadness.
If we pass by each other on the street
Act like you didn't see me and go the way you were walking to
If you keep thinking about our past memories
I might go look for you secretly
What is she doing with him?
That night, I saw the two of them together once more. This time, they were cuddling in T.O.P’s BMW.This hurt too much. She can’t care about her, she didn’t need to leave me.They looked happy as they chatted with each other. I could not stand it anymore as anger started to override the pain. I walked towards them, anger coursing through my entire body. I walked in front of the car and slammed my hands onto it.
My eyes glanced towards her. She looked different. It looked like she was crying, the black bags under her eyes were shown and she must have lost so much weight.
"Get the fuck out of the car, T.O.P!" I yelled. She merely looked away and buried her face into T.O.P’s neck. He gave me a cocky smile and said,
"Leave her alone, GD Move on man"
Always be happy with him, (so) I won't ever get a different mind
Even smallest regret won't be left out ever
Please live well as if I should feel jealous
You should always be like that bright sky, like that white cloud
Yes, you should always smile like that as if nothing happened
Weeks later I got a call by T.O.P.
Answering with a gruff "What?". I listened on to what my poor friend was trying to frantically tell me. My eyes widened when I caught on to one of the many sentences he was rushing to tell me and my hand dropped the phone.
“Your Minyoung is dying!"
“ she has a terminal illness”
Not caring if I had dropped the phone, I ran as fast as I could towards the direction of the hospital. My heart pounded in my heart as I ran quicker than any human could possibly run.Tears started to prick my eyes once more as I thought of the her dying. I was ready to give her up to T.O.P .Now I understand why she didn’t tell me. But if she were to die, I could never ever see her smile for him ever again!
Flashes of memories of our time together came to his mind as I smiled intensely at them. My leg hurried determinedly towards the hospital. I will get there in time for her, I must see her.
I reached the hospital, I asked where she was.A woman gave me an remorseful look before stating that she was in the emergency room in a serious condition. I quickly ran up the stairs not caring about the people in the way. The instant I reached the hallway
where the emergency room was, I saw T.O.P.He was standing there looking at me with a sad face. He took a deep breath and walked, fully meaning to ignore him. When I walked past him, he gripped my upper arm. I stopped and gave him a small frown. He turned me around so I looked at him.
Getting something from his pocket, he turned my hand around lightly so that my palm faced the ceiling. He placed something gently in my hand.
It was my girls engagement ring.
"I am sorry I lied Minyoung really loves you and it will always just be you.T.O.P said. Then he turned and walked away.I saw love behind it and I knew that he had deeply cared about her too.
"Minyoung really loved you," he said, his voice breaking. I swear I saw tears trickling down his cheeks as he turned and walked away. My heart instantly broke at that moment. Clenching my hand with the ring in it, I slammed my back on the wall behind me. My heart hurt and I could not breathe. She still loved me. She still loved me and I had doubted her. The tears I held started to fall as I gasped fervently, trying to take in as much as air as I could. Crying into my fist briefly, I tried to calm myself but I knew it was impossible. As I staggered towards the emergency room door, my mind was a blank. My two friends and T.O.P was there pained with sad faces.
I walked nearer to the door, my mind with an outbreak of memories.
"How?could this" was all I could complete.
"terminal illness "
I hope your heart fees relieved
Please forget about me and live (on)
Those tears will dry completely
The went to the door waiting for her to come out and be okay. The tears started to rush down my face and I almost fell to the floor before one of my friends grabbed me and hugged me.
I turned around……
I could see people wheeling out Minyoung ……..
I rushed to her side. I grabbed her hand and held it in my own .
She wasn’t breathing…..
Flash backs of her and I smiling and having fun together appeared again
NO SHE CAN’T BE DEAD!I screamed
Her eyes opened a little bit and her hands gripped my hand weaky and she said
“I have always loved you”
The grip on my hand loosened as she breathed her last breath. Her heart stopped and her lungs stopped functioning as well.
She was dead. Tears which had been running down my cheeks fell faster as I fell on my knees.
“ Oh my love”
“Don’t lie, Lie”
“You’re my heart”
“ Say goodbye”
The girl is GD's girlfriend. She's dying with a terminal illness, and she doesn't want to tell GD about it, so she goes to GD's friend, TOP, who knows about her sickness, and pretends that they're dating so that GD can get over her and forget about her so he wouldn't suffer as much when she dies. But GD can't get over her and when he sees them together in the beginning, he was jealous, and that's why they were fighting. It was done to cover up the fatal illness that she had but GD's perspective is "his best friend dating his girlfriend" so they fight. I hope my explanation didn't confuse you! It would really help if you read the comments on Youtube.
(source-Youtube and because I'm a fan)
- I don’t own this song nor the video
- Bigbang- Haru Haru
- Look It up, it really is amazing.