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Chapter 22 One Must Choose...Or Die
0 ReviewsKurono has made her choice to fix her soul now that her problems with Grimmjow have supposable been solved. but will their love last forever like she hopes? or will she have to give him up?
Chapter 22
One Must Choose…Or Die
“Grimmjow?”
“Kurono, I'm almost there, hold on”
I focused on his voice in my head, trying to pull myself out of the seizure.
“Seira…”
Seira’s hands grabbed my shoulders; holding me steady. I convulsed some more
“Go… Grimmjow….on the way”
“Arashi lets go”
“We can't leave her”
Arashi tried to pull me up, offering no words of comfort. I pushed away from him
“Let go of me!!”
I fell back to the ground, I shook some more
Don't start crying…I have to fight this!
Arashi reached for me again, I pushed the hand away
“I told you, I'm staying until my job is done!! Go away Arashi!!! Just because Grimmjow…”
My eyes rolled back into my head. I forced my brain to work against the seizure.
“He might have killed you… I don't care!”
I could feel the seizure lifting as my thoughts cleared
“I killed my mother… and father… that doesn’t make me evil!”
The shaking stopped and I looked up at Arashi. Grimmjow was getting closer every second
“I got forgiveness!! Maybe Grimmjow did too…”
I closed my eyes as I tried to catch my breath...
“Hold on Kurono…”
“LEAVE!!!! NOW!”
Seira grabbed Arashi and started to drag him down the hallway.
“Seira!”
She turned and looked at me
“Tell Kisuke… what happened…I met Tenshi… He told me what to do...”
She nodded and disappeared around the corner. Only a few seconds later Grimmjow was in front of me, eyes full of worry.
“Grimmjow…”
Then I blacked out
----------------------------Dream---------------------------------------------------
I woke up back on the street. The sky was completely black. Rain started falling and the ground under me shook. The buildings were cracked and falling apart
“Tenshi?”
I sat up and saw Tenshi sitting on a nearby bench that wasn't there before. I walked over to him. When I sat the ground shook again like some one was shaking a snow globe. Tenshi closed his eyes and sighed
“Pain holds us and keeps us awake at night. Shame is always there when everything is falling apart. Hate is never far, it is always at the door of your heart. Anger makes us high, always showing up on time, a burning flame. We must let these things go before they break us. They will always chase you, but they don't own you Kurono. Always keep that in mind.”
I leaned back on the bench as the rain let up
“You kinda sound like a fortune cookie… a weird twisted fortune cookie.”
Tenshi nodded and opened his eyes to look at the dark sky
“These things have entered this world and have gone about destroying it. Combined, these feelings are an unstoppable beast.”
“But what do you want me to do about it?”
Tenshi looked at me and then sighed.
“Look at this puddle Kurono.”
I looked to where he was pointing. At my end of the bench was a large puddle.
That’s weird…that puddle wasn't there before…
“Look closely”
“It’s just a dirty puddle”
“Look again”
I leaned over and stared into the puddle. The rain had stopped so the surface was utterly smooth. My purple eyes stared back at me
“It’s my refection”
“Keep looking”
“You know, you sound like that baboon on Lion King, what's his name? Rafiki”
“Focus Kurono”
“Alright, alright, I'm focusing”
I stared at the puddle. The surface started to ripple even though the rain had stopped. As I continued to stare an image appeared
“Its some sort of street… like a dark ally”
“Keep looking”
I stared as the image came into focus. I gasped at the still frame. It was the hollow that had killed Arashi. It was a panther with large claws, a black and white coat, and a long black tail. Green eyes pierced the darkness.
“Tell me Kurono, does that look like Grimmjow’s Adjuchas form?”
I leaned closer
“I… I don't know”
“Keep watching”
The puddle image changed again. Here I saw another panther Adjuchas frozen on sand. White bandages were wrapped around the black tail and a bone materal covered most of the body. But the feature that stuck out the most was the shinning blue eyes.
“That is Grimmjow’s Adjuchas. Does it look like the other one?”
The previous image appeared beside it
“No… their… their not the same…this one has blue eyes, the other has green”
“Which means?”
“Grimmjow didn’t kill Arashi!”
The sky started lighting up, like a sunrise.
“You see, when you are distressed this world starts to crummble. You have glued it back together with spit and anger. It is time that you fix it, purify it.”
I nodded
“I thought if I just told myself I was good then I could fix myself… but… I don't know anymore. My life as gotten so screwed up lately…”
“I know. I can not tell you how to fix it but I can bring up a point”
“What?”
“Look at the puddle again”
I looked at the puddle. The image of Grimmjow turned into another hollow. With a full mask, red eyes, and messy black hair he looked familiar.
“Do you know who this is?”
“He looks familiar…”
The image changed to show a young teenaged boy with redish-brown hair and a nice smile.
“This is Sora Inoue. Orihime’s brother. He was turned into this…” the image changed again to show the hollow with red eyes “This hollow who called himself Acidwire. Do you know what he did?”
“He tried to kill Orihime, Rukia told me about it. Ichigo killed him”
“No Ichigo did not kill him. Sora took back his mind, much like you did, and used Ichigo’s Zanpakutō to Purify himself. Sending himself to the Soul Society”
“So you want me to…”
“I don't want you to do anything. You have to choose for your self. I'm just giving you an option. When you have gotten us out of this mess we will talk further about your choice”
He stood. I noticed his wings were pulled around him like a cloak.
“Kurono, you have to make your decsion. If you do not, your inner world will crummble. You will cease to live”
“You mean I will die?”
He turned and looked at me with sad eye
“Much worse than that. You will sink to lowest type of hollow possible. You will be below death, a brainless monster with no heart.”
Fear turned inside me like a bad storm.
“You have to go back now. In the next two hour you must choose. Or you will never have a clear thought again”
I suddenly felt like I was falling.
-----------------------------End if Dream--------------------------------
I opened my eyes only to see Grimmjow. His blue eyes were angry. I opened my mouth, still confused about what happened
“Well that was random…”
“What?”
“I thought I saw Arashi”
“You did. He ran back home with his tail between his legs. Aizen wouldn’t let me after him. We don't even know how they got in here.”
I nodded and sat up. I was laying on Grimmjow’s bed. Taro was sitting on the couch with a worried look.
“Lady Kurono…”
Before I could say anything Grimmjow cut in
“Shut up Idiot!”
“You can't blame anyone”
Grimmjow sighed and sat on the side of the bed
“You got to stop scaring me like that”
I looked at Taro
“Taro, can you give us a moment alone?”
Taro nodded and left the room
“Grimmjow”
“Yes?”
I sat up and wrapped my arms around him. He stiffened
“Uh… are you sure you're feeling ok?”
“Yes, just peachy”
“Ok, you're creepin’ me out…”
I laughed
“I have to go now”
“Why? Go where?”
Grimmjow pulled me around to where I was sitting on his lap.
“Where are you going? Mmhm?”
His blue eyes searched my face for the answer. I tucked my face in the nap of his neck
“I have to go… I have to”
“Why?”
“Cuz”
“That’s not an answer”
“Because I love you”
“That’s not an answer either”
I sighed
“I have to go… to see… if I can save my soul”
“Your soul?”
“Yes”
Grimmjow kissed the top of my head
“What's wrong with your soul? Is it sick?”
I laughed
“Kinda”
“How are you going to save it?”
“I have to Purify it”
“How ya gonna do that?”
“That is something I can't tell you”
“Will you come back?”
“It depends on if I can get to the place I need to be in time”
“And where is this place?”
“I don't know yet”
Grimmjow chuckled
“Then how will you know the place?”
“I just will”
“Can I come?”
I closed my eyes and Grimmjow wrapped his arms around me
“No… I don't think you can…”
“Why not?”
“Cuz you like being bad too much”
He laughed
“Yeah I guess I do”
We sat there for a while
“I can't let you go”
“You have to”
“Why?”
“Do you love me?”
“Ye…yes”
“Then let me go fix my soul. There’s too many holes in it”
“I don't care I love you just the way you are, holes and all”
“Well I don’t… if I let it stay that way then I won’t be able to love anyone. This is really important to me”
“Do you really have to go?”
“Yes”
“Will you come back?”
“I will try… just… just don't die before I get back.. ok?”
“That’s an oath”
“Good”
I pulled away from him and stood
“Don't wait on me… and don't follow me. I have to do this alone”
Grimmjow nodded and watched me walk out the door. Once outside I turned to Taro. He nodded and followed me down the hallway towards Orihime’s room.
Hold on Grimmjow. I’ll come back soon enough… Just don't die…
One Must Choose…Or Die
“Grimmjow?”
“Kurono, I'm almost there, hold on”
I focused on his voice in my head, trying to pull myself out of the seizure.
“Seira…”
Seira’s hands grabbed my shoulders; holding me steady. I convulsed some more
“Go… Grimmjow….on the way”
“Arashi lets go”
“We can't leave her”
Arashi tried to pull me up, offering no words of comfort. I pushed away from him
“Let go of me!!”
I fell back to the ground, I shook some more
Don't start crying…I have to fight this!
Arashi reached for me again, I pushed the hand away
“I told you, I'm staying until my job is done!! Go away Arashi!!! Just because Grimmjow…”
My eyes rolled back into my head. I forced my brain to work against the seizure.
“He might have killed you… I don't care!”
I could feel the seizure lifting as my thoughts cleared
“I killed my mother… and father… that doesn’t make me evil!”
The shaking stopped and I looked up at Arashi. Grimmjow was getting closer every second
“I got forgiveness!! Maybe Grimmjow did too…”
I closed my eyes as I tried to catch my breath...
“Hold on Kurono…”
“LEAVE!!!! NOW!”
Seira grabbed Arashi and started to drag him down the hallway.
“Seira!”
She turned and looked at me
“Tell Kisuke… what happened…I met Tenshi… He told me what to do...”
She nodded and disappeared around the corner. Only a few seconds later Grimmjow was in front of me, eyes full of worry.
“Grimmjow…”
Then I blacked out
----------------------------Dream---------------------------------------------------
I woke up back on the street. The sky was completely black. Rain started falling and the ground under me shook. The buildings were cracked and falling apart
“Tenshi?”
I sat up and saw Tenshi sitting on a nearby bench that wasn't there before. I walked over to him. When I sat the ground shook again like some one was shaking a snow globe. Tenshi closed his eyes and sighed
“Pain holds us and keeps us awake at night. Shame is always there when everything is falling apart. Hate is never far, it is always at the door of your heart. Anger makes us high, always showing up on time, a burning flame. We must let these things go before they break us. They will always chase you, but they don't own you Kurono. Always keep that in mind.”
I leaned back on the bench as the rain let up
“You kinda sound like a fortune cookie… a weird twisted fortune cookie.”
Tenshi nodded and opened his eyes to look at the dark sky
“These things have entered this world and have gone about destroying it. Combined, these feelings are an unstoppable beast.”
“But what do you want me to do about it?”
Tenshi looked at me and then sighed.
“Look at this puddle Kurono.”
I looked to where he was pointing. At my end of the bench was a large puddle.
That’s weird…that puddle wasn't there before…
“Look closely”
“It’s just a dirty puddle”
“Look again”
I leaned over and stared into the puddle. The rain had stopped so the surface was utterly smooth. My purple eyes stared back at me
“It’s my refection”
“Keep looking”
“You know, you sound like that baboon on Lion King, what's his name? Rafiki”
“Focus Kurono”
“Alright, alright, I'm focusing”
I stared at the puddle. The surface started to ripple even though the rain had stopped. As I continued to stare an image appeared
“Its some sort of street… like a dark ally”
“Keep looking”
I stared as the image came into focus. I gasped at the still frame. It was the hollow that had killed Arashi. It was a panther with large claws, a black and white coat, and a long black tail. Green eyes pierced the darkness.
“Tell me Kurono, does that look like Grimmjow’s Adjuchas form?”
I leaned closer
“I… I don't know”
“Keep watching”
The puddle image changed again. Here I saw another panther Adjuchas frozen on sand. White bandages were wrapped around the black tail and a bone materal covered most of the body. But the feature that stuck out the most was the shinning blue eyes.
“That is Grimmjow’s Adjuchas. Does it look like the other one?”
The previous image appeared beside it
“No… their… their not the same…this one has blue eyes, the other has green”
“Which means?”
“Grimmjow didn’t kill Arashi!”
The sky started lighting up, like a sunrise.
“You see, when you are distressed this world starts to crummble. You have glued it back together with spit and anger. It is time that you fix it, purify it.”
I nodded
“I thought if I just told myself I was good then I could fix myself… but… I don't know anymore. My life as gotten so screwed up lately…”
“I know. I can not tell you how to fix it but I can bring up a point”
“What?”
“Look at the puddle again”
I looked at the puddle. The image of Grimmjow turned into another hollow. With a full mask, red eyes, and messy black hair he looked familiar.
“Do you know who this is?”
“He looks familiar…”
The image changed to show a young teenaged boy with redish-brown hair and a nice smile.
“This is Sora Inoue. Orihime’s brother. He was turned into this…” the image changed again to show the hollow with red eyes “This hollow who called himself Acidwire. Do you know what he did?”
“He tried to kill Orihime, Rukia told me about it. Ichigo killed him”
“No Ichigo did not kill him. Sora took back his mind, much like you did, and used Ichigo’s Zanpakutō to Purify himself. Sending himself to the Soul Society”
“So you want me to…”
“I don't want you to do anything. You have to choose for your self. I'm just giving you an option. When you have gotten us out of this mess we will talk further about your choice”
He stood. I noticed his wings were pulled around him like a cloak.
“Kurono, you have to make your decsion. If you do not, your inner world will crummble. You will cease to live”
“You mean I will die?”
He turned and looked at me with sad eye
“Much worse than that. You will sink to lowest type of hollow possible. You will be below death, a brainless monster with no heart.”
Fear turned inside me like a bad storm.
“You have to go back now. In the next two hour you must choose. Or you will never have a clear thought again”
I suddenly felt like I was falling.
-----------------------------End if Dream--------------------------------
I opened my eyes only to see Grimmjow. His blue eyes were angry. I opened my mouth, still confused about what happened
“Well that was random…”
“What?”
“I thought I saw Arashi”
“You did. He ran back home with his tail between his legs. Aizen wouldn’t let me after him. We don't even know how they got in here.”
I nodded and sat up. I was laying on Grimmjow’s bed. Taro was sitting on the couch with a worried look.
“Lady Kurono…”
Before I could say anything Grimmjow cut in
“Shut up Idiot!”
“You can't blame anyone”
Grimmjow sighed and sat on the side of the bed
“You got to stop scaring me like that”
I looked at Taro
“Taro, can you give us a moment alone?”
Taro nodded and left the room
“Grimmjow”
“Yes?”
I sat up and wrapped my arms around him. He stiffened
“Uh… are you sure you're feeling ok?”
“Yes, just peachy”
“Ok, you're creepin’ me out…”
I laughed
“I have to go now”
“Why? Go where?”
Grimmjow pulled me around to where I was sitting on his lap.
“Where are you going? Mmhm?”
His blue eyes searched my face for the answer. I tucked my face in the nap of his neck
“I have to go… I have to”
“Why?”
“Cuz”
“That’s not an answer”
“Because I love you”
“That’s not an answer either”
I sighed
“I have to go… to see… if I can save my soul”
“Your soul?”
“Yes”
Grimmjow kissed the top of my head
“What's wrong with your soul? Is it sick?”
I laughed
“Kinda”
“How are you going to save it?”
“I have to Purify it”
“How ya gonna do that?”
“That is something I can't tell you”
“Will you come back?”
“It depends on if I can get to the place I need to be in time”
“And where is this place?”
“I don't know yet”
Grimmjow chuckled
“Then how will you know the place?”
“I just will”
“Can I come?”
I closed my eyes and Grimmjow wrapped his arms around me
“No… I don't think you can…”
“Why not?”
“Cuz you like being bad too much”
He laughed
“Yeah I guess I do”
We sat there for a while
“I can't let you go”
“You have to”
“Why?”
“Do you love me?”
“Ye…yes”
“Then let me go fix my soul. There’s too many holes in it”
“I don't care I love you just the way you are, holes and all”
“Well I don’t… if I let it stay that way then I won’t be able to love anyone. This is really important to me”
“Do you really have to go?”
“Yes”
“Will you come back?”
“I will try… just… just don't die before I get back.. ok?”
“That’s an oath”
“Good”
I pulled away from him and stood
“Don't wait on me… and don't follow me. I have to do this alone”
Grimmjow nodded and watched me walk out the door. Once outside I turned to Taro. He nodded and followed me down the hallway towards Orihime’s room.
Hold on Grimmjow. I’ll come back soon enough… Just don't die…
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