But I don’t know what it is, since I got cancer I don’t feel like a person and I most defiantly feel like a man. Ray brought over his Friend tonight, there all in a band together, well there trying to start a band and make it work. I think he thought by bringing them over that I’d hang out with them all, but he was wrong, because the one person I can’t be around was there. Gerard Way. He was Beautiful, He had this manly era about him, even though he’s is gay, Gayer then I am. He’s voice is so smooth and sexy but had this childlike twang to it to. And he has the strongest Jersey accent that he has ever heard. He was to die for. Completely and utterly to die for. And I just can’t be around him, because it would just make me feel worse and it wouldn’t be his fault at all. It would be my own.
There was a soft knock on my door, I stopped playing and looked towards the door.
‘Come in’ I put down Pansy as the door slowly opened and Ray’s afro popped around the door followed by the rest of his body. He shut the door and walked over to the chair in front of me and sat down.
‘Why don’t you come out and get something to eat, we just ordered pizza, your favourite’ He had a hopeful grin on his face that broke my heart, because I was going to have to recline his offer.
‘I’m not hungry, sorry’ I went back to playing the peaceful tune I had been playing all night, Just playing it over and over again, it was slow and soft. It helped me relax.
‘Frankie it’s not healthy been locked up I your room all the time, you’re not eating or scoicaling at all. It really isn’t healthy and I’m starting to get worried. ‘I could tell by his face and eyes how concerned he really bad, it really did break my heart. I couldn’t tell him the real reason I couldn’t go down, he’d laugh.
‘I’m fine Ray, please don’t worry’ I smiled at him and took his hand and squeezed it. ‘Please, I’ll eat later, keep me a slice of pizza’ he sighed and nodded and hugged me.
‘I’ll hold you to that, Iero’ he joked and left. I went back to playing guitar. I must have been so caught up in because I never heard a knock on the door nor someone enter the room.
Would you believe i can not remember my passowrd for my other account? So i am now back to useing this one. I hope if doesn't mess up this time. or i wont be able to post anything.
anyways, R/R please my beautiful zombies !