I got out of my cloths and into a t-shirt and black bottoms. I crawled into bed and turned on my radio that’s sitting on my locker. A really nice, calming song was on, I think it’s ‘someone like you’ by Adele. I’ve heard it before. But know it has a different effect on me. A much deeper effect. I started to sing along.
I heard that your settled down,
That you’ve found a girl and that your married now.
I heard that your dreams came true,
Guess she gave you thing’s I didn’t give to you.
Old friend, why you so shy,
Ain’t like you to hold back,
Or hid from the light.
I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn’t stay away, I couldn’t fight it.
I hoped that you’d see my face,
That you’d be reminded that for me,
It isn’t over…
The tears fell think and fast.
‘Never-mind I’ll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you too,
Don’t forget me I beg, I remember you said,
Sometime’s it last in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead.
You’d know how the time fly’s,
Only yesterday was the time of our lives
we were born and raised in a summer haze,
Bound by the surprise by our glory day’s..’
I was now crying so much, that I couldn’t breath, I heard my door open but I didn’t dare look up, I knew it would be Ray, he always come’s in to cheek on me. I felt the bed sink, and new he’d sat down. I felt his arms wrap around me and bring me closer to him, I clung to him and cried. I cried like a baby.
‘Shh Frankie, it’s okay, shhh I’m here’ he was rocking me back and forth, whispering comforting words to me, trying to clam me down. I was so glad Ray was here, I knew if he wouldn’t I would just get my self in such a state that I’d do something stupid. Even though it sounds like a perfectly good idea.
‘I can’t do this anymore, I can’t, I don’t want to be here anymore. I just want to end it, end it all’ I cried harder if that was even possible. He pulled me away and looked at me, my heart nearly stopped. It wasn’t Ray..
‘Frankie, do you know what that would do to me, if you ended your life. Do you know?’ he looked scared and worried. His thumb was making small circles on my cheek, it was oddly comforting. Like I wasn’t alone. I shock my head and he smiled.
‘It would kill me Frankie’ he looked deadly serious in a calming way.
‘Why? You hardly know me’ my voice was low, almost a whisper. I was confused. Why would he care so much if I went out right now and jumped off the heights building I could find. He smiled, his smile was worm, beautiful.
‘Frankie, remember in high school. The really fat kid, with ugly red hair, that asked you to prom because he didn’t have anyone to go with, but you where really sick and couldn’t go?’ I nodded trying not to giggle at the memory, that guy was so cute. I secretly fancied him. ‘Frankie, that was me.’ I gasped. It all clicked. He was in 2 grads above me, my lab partners big brother. Michael.. OMG. Mikey.. I sniffed.
‘But that still doesn’t give me an answer. Why would you care if I killed my self. It’s the best thing to do. I mean, look at me’ I stood up. ‘I’m a mess, a freak of nature. Who the fuck would love me like this. Jake never loved me when I was normal. And he was my boyfriend. I mean if he didn’t love me then, who could love me now? I could never have a sexual relationship with anyone, nobody would want to. I’m going to die alone. Why not just do it now.’ a tear rooled down my cheek and I swatted it away angrily. Gerard looked sad, but kind of happy at the same time. It was pissing me off, he was laughing at me and he thought I couldn’t tell, well I could. I just sat back down on my bed. Waiting for him to go or to laugh or call me a freak and agree with me on everything I said.
‘I would.’ I looked at him, confused.
‘I would, I would love you the way you are. Not matter what you looked like, because to me, Frank, You are perfect’ with that he kissed me, lightly on the lips. Sparks ran up my body and into his. He put his hands on my waist as I kissed back. I wrapped my arms around his neck and he pulled me onto his lap so I was straddling him. He broke the kiss and smiled.
‘Do you mean that Gerard?’ I was really unsure, I mean he is a greek god. And I’m just little Frankie, a nobody.
‘Yes Frankie I do. I’ve liked you for a very long time, thats why I had asked you to my prom, but then you couldn’t go and I moved away to college. Then Ray told me about his friend and I knew it was you some how. Then tonight, when I came in and heard you crying, I just, my heart broke and when you said you wanted to end your life I couldn’t let you, not without knowing that I love you. Because I do Frankie, I love you. If you let me, I’ll prove it to you. I’ll show you it’s okay to be who you are, you got sick, that wasn’t your fault but your alive, but your not living, you need to live again Frankie. Let me show you how.’
And that is what I’m going to do. I’m going to let Gerard Way save me from myself.
Hope you like this chapter. look me awhile to write it because i was in hospital. yeah.. hospital haha..
I was in a car crash, but i'm fine now, still a little sore but nothing rest wont fix.
anyways enjoy and please rate and review.