Axel remembers. [Axelcentric] One Shot please R&R.
Disclaimer:They're not mine and I'm not getting any less broke from this so yeah... Leave me alone with my imaginary friends.
He is nothing and no one, he is non existent and yet there he lies, ready to fade away. He shouldn't feel like this. Nobodies don't have feelings or hearts but some of them remember what it was like before the nothing, before being no one. Some of them remember how it felt to feel and that's what sets them apart, Axel remembers.
"No one would care."
"That's not true!
He remembers what sadness and fear feels like and when he watched Roxas walk away that night he remembers the grief and worry feeling like a bit more than a memory.
"Who are you?"
"The name's Axel. Got it memorized?"
Axel remembers hope and he's decided that's what Sora is. Sora was his chance, his way back to Roxas.
"I wanted to see Roxas again."
Even hope can't bring miracles. As far as Axel should be concerned his friend is gone, he knew the last time he saw him that the Roxas he remembers, his best friend, is no more but even then he couldn't give up on hope. Not when hope looks so much like what he was after, not when it looks like Roxas. It's different as he looks up at Sora, now. He knows he'll never see Roxas again.
"I'm sorry about Kairi."
Axel remembers remorse and he's decided he doesn't quite like it. It's an emotion so he'll take it but he'd rather have one of those up beat ones. He remembers liking joy.
"Roxas made me feel like I had a heart. It's funny, you make me feel the same way"
He remembers Roxas. Sora smiles more than Roxas ever did but he's just as determined. As he looks up at Sora now he feels connected to him some how and at the same time he feels distant, able to let go. Sora doesn't look so much like Roxas anymore. Sora can't be Roxas.
"I'm sorry for what I did to Kairi."
He remembers disappointment. In the end Kairi's suffering was his fault and he didn't even get Roxas back for it. He wonders if he would still have felt sorry if he would have gotten his friend, his heart, back. He doubts things would be the same then but as he looks up at Sora's worried eyes he could swear the guilt he feels is real, not merely a memory of real remorse. He likes that.
"You can tell her that yourself."
"I think I'll pass. My heart just wouldn't be in it y'know."
He remembers feeling lost. He's fading, he's watching himself vanish and he knows there will be nothing after. Real nothing, not this nothing he's not living now. Once he's gone that's it, there's no eternity for a nobody, there's no next life for someone who never had a first.
"Let's meet again in the next life."
"Yeah, I'll be waiting."
"Silly, just because you have a next life..."
Born from the creation of a heartless, from the hatred and rage within ones heart and yet without a heart of his own. Axel can't help but smile up at Sora before he vanishes. Sora makes him feel like Roxas did. Sora makes him feel complete, even as he fades away, back into the darkness to meet true nothing.