Yeah so urm read or whatever. Im giving up
It is no longer Pain, Anger, or sadness.
It is beyond that.
It’s Like there’s nothing here for me anymore.
I start to question myself as to why I’m left in this world
If i can’t be in this world with you.
You were the one that used to make me smile
The one that made my day.
The one that when my phone used to flash up with your name
I’d smile Like The Fucking Cheshire Cat!
I don’t want to be here when life is so imperfect and the one
Perfect thing in my life is 6 Feet under.
It’s Like this Numb Feeling
Me feeling Unbearably empty
Hollow Almost, Like there’s nothing!
That’s when you become a ghost in the world
That you used to once feel safe in.
I feel like i want to die.
But in some strange reality Im waiting
For someone to come along and
I Hate it when people
They don’t know what I’ve been through.
“oooh why do you look so miserable”
Do I need to Pain a smile on my face all the time ?
Just for other people’s Benefit ?
Im done trying.
I Get sad, So what ?
I know you said for me to forget you
But I can’t.
Plain and simple.
Why am I Afraid to Loose you
When you’re not around anymore.
Have you ever loved someone so much
That when you lose them
Your Life Crumbles apart!
I remember what you used to say to me
When you were lying there
In the hospital.
“Everything will be okay in the end.
If it’s not okay ,then it’s not the end.”
I just want you back.
But the chances of that happening
I don’t know what to do now.
Never coming back.
I miss you!
I love you still
Even though you’re in peace
And im still in this hell which is suppost to Life.
Why couldn’t you take me with you.
Dont worry i’ll be there soon.
Im on my way right now.
Nobody wants an Imperfect girl
In this so called perfect world.
So thats why i must do this.
Im On My Way!