Gerard's done something terrible. He feels guilty. It doesn't help that he wants to fuck his brother too.
Vampires aren't supposed to feel emotions such as this, are they? That's what it says in all the books, "Vampires can't feel emotions so as they can kill and feed." - Books don't always tell the truth, I guess.
Panic was the main thing on my mind. I would go through a routine; Calm myself down, tell myself everything was going to be okay, feel a wash of guilt and then a pang of panic. I went through the routine continuously but I couldn't cry, I had to save that untill I got back to the house.
Hopefully Mikey was asleep and I could just sneak downstairs without him seeing the blood that was hardening and layering over my velvety face and hands.
I made an immediate stop outside the house, so as I couldn't crash. I was driving too quick, trying to get away from the mess I'd made as fast as I could. At least I'll be safe now, I'll have to start running. But... what about Mikey? I can't just leave- No. No, I have to go. It's this or I'm going to prision.