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The Ghost of Me.

by Thank_MCR 5 Reviews

Not. Even. A. Fanfic.No, I'm not going to kill myself. Just have to breathe.

Category: My Chemical Romance - Rating: PG-13 - Genres: Angst - Characters: Bob Bryar - Published: 2012/02/29 - Updated: 2012/03/01 - 275 words

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Life is not okay right now.
I need to get this out SOMEWHERE.
So might as well put it somewhere where people don’t know me.
I hate it right now.
Everything.
Music doesn’t even help anymore.
I thought I was at my lowest point over two years ago.
I guess… I was wrong.

I don’t cut as much as I used to.
Not as much as I did then.

I have friends.
I have family.
I have people who I’m close to.
But not as close as they think.

I’m confused.

My mind is blurred.

Nothing’s clear anymore.

I just can’t figure it out.

What’s wrong with me?
Why does everything hurt?

Why is everything offensive and painful?

Why is everyone offensive and painful?
Painfilled.

I have a support system.
But not all the time.

My mom tries.
She really does.

She saw my arm the other day and asked what happened.
If I was mad at something.

I told her not to bother.
Told her it was just stress.

That’s a lie.

It’s everything.

I’m tired.
I’m lonesome.
I’m stuck in my own head.

I’m failing some classes.
My mom doesn’t make the mental connection from my cuts to my failing classes.

It’s because I’m too tired to think.

And now I’m crying.

Because everyone hates me.

Because I can’t figure anything out.

I THOUGHT I HAD THIS ALL FIGURED OUT.
I THOUGHT THIS POINT OF MY LIFE WAS OVER.
I THOUGHT I HAD FIGURED MYSELF OUT.
I THOUGHT I KNEW MYSELF.

I was WRONG.
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