Nowaki once again left Hiroki. THE STORY HAS THIS WEIRD TWIST : PLEASE READ. Warning: M/M, BL. If you hate homosexuality, don't read.
three years of loneliness and pain, 2 years of suffering alone, and a year waiting for him to come home. I stare at the broken window, Nowaki. I swayed my attention from the orange sky towards the shattered glass of the picture frame; inside it lies two guys- one who's smiling like an idiot and one who's pouting, beet red; I smiled, how long has it been since that time?
"Nowaki! Stop it!" I shouted, stopping him from kissing my collar bone- I shivered from the undeniable pleasure, but my pride won't allow that.
"Come on Hiro-san" he whined, taking my hand.
"I love you" he whispered.
"Idiot" I muttered.
I started bawling once again, remembering the moments that we spent together.
"Nowaki? Hey ..." I called. I was taken back when I saw Nowaki carrying two duffel bags.
"Where are you going?" I asked him. He smiled painfully at me but kept silent.
"Where are you going!" I shouted.
"I'm sorry Hiro-san, I'll be gone for a while and-"
"You're planning to leave me again!" I yelled.
"Get out!" I shouted, pushing him outside the door; pounding his chest.
"Hiro-san ... I love you, I promise- promise I'll come back" He cried, pulling me closer. I struggled but soon let him take over me, I sobbed silently on his shirt
"I promise" he whispered.
I sob, "Liar! You didn't came back" I cried, collapsing on my knees. "You didn't ..." I sob.
"Kamijou-san, I think you should rest now ... your body won't be able to take anymore stress. I suggest you move in with your pare-"
"I won't" I objected, making Tsukimori-senpai sigh.
"I know you love him, but- it's not good to keep on waiting ... it's been 2 years" he said.
"He didn't contacted me for a year, I know he'll come back-" I yelled, gasping back before whispering, "Just not now ..."
"Why Nowaki? Why didn't you came back for me?" I sob.
"Hiro-san?" I almost jump from the shock. Only him ... only him calls me Hiro-san. I turn around revealing Nowaki
"You're supposed to be-" I mumbled.
"Hiro-san, Hiro-san. Is it this a dream? Is this a-" I cutted him off with a kiss, a deep kiss ... making up for all those times.
"I love you so much" I whispered.
"How?" He asked.
"Shhh" I told him, putting a finger on his lips. He began kissing me, and with that- we had all the time in the world replenishing all the moments we spent; the pleasure of love, the pain of departing, and the hope of meeting again.
I stared at half-naked guy next to me, Cute ...
"Hiro-san ..." he called, I stared at his cobalt eyes ... Pain.
"Hiro-san why?" he asked. I smiled at him painfully, "Because you were late" I told him.
"But why- why did not you waited for me?" He asked.
"I did, Nowaki. I did" I told him. three years to be exact.
"But why did you-" he cried, tears falling down his cheeks. His sobs fill the vacant room.
"Why did you die Hiro-san! Why?" He shouted, grabbing my shoulder. I started crying again, That's right ... I died.
"Kamijou-san, you have a terminal cancer" the words echoed through my ear, Where are you Nowaki?
Day and night, for months ... I stayed at our apartment, hoping that he'll come back to me. Day and night, I was lonely and sad. Day and night, I suffered alone. Day and night, I was dying. But that was until that time ...
"Kamijou Hiroki, time of death 7:30 P.M." the doctor around me pronounced. "I'm sorry Nowaki" i cried, I'm sorry.
"Ever since then ... I stayed here" I told him, I heard his sobs again ... it hurts.
"I'm so sorry ... if I didn't ... if i didn't" I cutted him again with a kiss.
"It's fine Nowaki ... I'm happy now" I told him.
"For so long, Hiro-san. For so long, you've been waiting ... alone" he sobs. I smiled at him, "You're free now Nowaki ... you're free" I told him.
He kisses me one more time before whispering, "You can go now Hiro-san" I smiled at him.
"Thank you, Nowaki"
I sat next to Hiro-san's grave. I still can't believe what happened that i started sobbing again. But I manage to crack a smile, "I love you Hiro-san" I whispered. I love you ... today, tomorrow, and always.
At the last moment, before I leave the cemetery- I felt a wind kiss my lips, then everything seems brighter.
And with that, the wind says goodbye to me as I walk slowly towards the future, carrying the memories of my beloved ... now and forever.
[/A wonderful son, teacher, and lover
AND TADAH! my first junjou egoist fanfiction :]