Some chocolate, a single rose and helping with an art project.
The next thing I did almost broke my heart. To make my mission ‘Convince gee way’ I had to spend some money, and knowing mum wouldn’t even consider for a second i decided to take plan B. I grabbed the stolen hammer on my desk and pulled my piggy bank out of the drawer. The emotions came flooding to me at once. Fear, regret and excitement. They were crashing together all at once ripping my apart into pieces. My little piggy bank is what kept my money; obviously. However the money i was saving wasn’t just for anything, this money was to pay for the beautiful guitar I’ve had my eyes on for years. Of course being seventeen with no full time job means no way getting the precious item soon. I’ve been working with Gerard and Mikey to buy the beauty just taking any jobs i can but never completely earn enough money, especially since I’m often having to buy new clothes and gifts or pay for food when my mum’s low on money. I really hope Gerard appreciates this otherwise I’m going to buy a cat, cry in bed all day and never leave my house again. I lifted the hammer and suddenly lowered it back down with as much strength as i could. The pig broke, tiny little pieces cracking and falling apart throwing up coins and notes all spilling onto the floor.
I quickly collected the metal still sighing at my actions. I picked up twenty dollars and ran downstairs. My mother was still asleep as well as my father so I had no need to explain for the rush to leave so suddenly. Moving quickly I flung my backpack on my shoulder quietly and left the house to reveal that he sun was barely noticeable through the grey clouds not giving me much hope for a good day. It was just my luck to have something planned and then have nothing work out the way it was meant too.
My feet continued on walking until I reached the corner shop. I briefly knew about the woman who owned it, age forty-three with two kids; Steven and Janet both Gerard’s age. I had met them once while they were at the counter, although I never really paid much attention to Janet, Steven was hot, but i had my eyes set on Gerard so I decided to ignore his good looks.
I heard the little ‘ding’ that would alert the owner that I was here and made my way to the chocolate section. Once when Gerard was sixteen he ordered me to stay round his one weekend to sit and listen to him cry over his ex while we stuffed our faces with chocolate talking about how people can be such assholes. That was when I first noticed how beautiful he was. My heart melted as i stared into his eyes; filed with sadness as the tears escaped. I couldn’t help but let him cry on my shoulder. After he stopped I suggested more food. The way he pouted or how his cheeks moved while he was munching on a chocolate bar was hypnotizing. It was how he wrapped his lips around the spoon of ice cream then using his tongue to lick the metal clean that had gave me my first of many boners over him. I knew it was hopeless; he was sixteen, and i was fourteen so there was no hope for us. Everybody would insult us; mainly Gerard for being the older man in the relationship. Then as I grew up I realised I didn’t care about everybody else. I was in love with Gerard Way and I wasn’t going to deny it. Unless Gerard asked me.
I searched through piles stacked chocolate until I found the bars I had been looking for. Galaxy plain + cookie crumble and Cadburys caramel. The exact three that we had stacked up on every time we were upset and needed to eat through our problems together. I picked them up and walked towards the counter only to see Steven smirking at me.
“Morning Frank” he smiled showing all of his teeth.
“So Frank, I’m free this week if you want to do anything, just the two of us” he winked.
Knowingly I Shook my head. It was obvious Steven was bi and wanted me as a quick fuck but i had to get Gerard now. He pouted playfully and shrugged me off. Looking around the counter I noticed a fresh rose. Perfect. I plucked the single flower from its bunch and settled it near the chocolate.
“Who’s that for then?” he asked suddenly interested in my love life. I bit my lip.
“My boyfriend”. His eyes widened and a smirk spread across his face as he shoved a pen and little card into my face telling me to write something cute for him. I agreed to do so letting the words write themselves leaving me no room. After paying for the treats he wished me luck which I thanked because I’d sure as hell need it.
After ten minutes of walking and freezing my ass off i finally reached the way household. I knocked on the door to be greeted by a Mikey with a half done up shirt and pants half way down his skinny legs. I smiled laughed at his expression and walked pass him to make my way to Gerard.
“Is Gee awake?” I asked as my eyes scanned over the living room only to see a tired donna way and Mikey following me. Shaking his head he finished pulling his pants up his legs and setting to work on his top. Grinning I made my way to Gerard’s room hoping to give him a nice surprise today.
I quietly opened the door to see Gerard once again topless and spread out on his bed like yesterday only with his eyes closed and snoring slightly. I took in the slight. He was so beautiful, so peaceful and innocent. I couldn’t imagine anyone hating him or hurting him. The only dream that remained in my head was the hope of one day having him wrap his arms protectively over me and stay with me forever. Licking my lips I Dropped my bag of treats on the floor next to the bed and carefully climbed on top of Gerard to straddle the gorgeous body he owns. Smirking to myself i set kisses on his collar bone, carefully brushing my tongue over the skin to feel him shuffle slightly. Being a little more confident I Moved the sloppy kisses to his neck. My fingers buried themselves into his hair as i sucked on the very sensitive spot I had found while tickling him. He shifted under my weight and moaned which had alerted me that he was wide awake now. I smiled taking in his morning scent of sweat and pulled myself up to stare into his eyes.
They were filled with lust and confusion. As soon as he realised what had happened he smirked, grabbing my hair and pulling me down for a kiss.
Our lips met against each other forcefully and butterflies were basically eating at my insides trying to escape. I moved my lips against his then felt his tongue trace over my bottom lip. I had almost panicked; I never had anyone to kiss so this was completely new. Sure me and Gerard had shared a few pecks on the lips to say goodbye but they had only lasted a few seconds. This was Gerard purposely smashing his lips against mine.
“Open up” he laughed at me.
The embarrassment was filling up. It was at times like these I wish I wasn’t just some seventeen year old virgin making out with an older guy. Feeling like a complete idiot I obeyed and granted permission for him to explore me. Without hesitation he moved his tongue and pressed it against me making me give out a low moan. Confidence suddenly forced me grind down on him as I felt around his mouth to be rewarded with a low growl and even more contact as he arched up.
I pulled back biting back a smirk as he smiled up at me. “Good morning” I whispered mind still gripping on the fact me and Gerard had just kissed. Me and GERARD. KISSED.
Giggling slightly he pushed himself to lean against the headboard of his bed and nodded. “certainly was with that little surprise”. It was obvious I was blushing. “You smell like roses” he grinned showing his teeth. “I Wanted to smell nice for you” I blushed then remembered the treats I had gotten and leaned over him. Surprisingly Gerard felt the need to slap my arse which caused my cheeks to turn even pinker. He raised his eyebrows in suspicion as I revealed the plastic bag, then slowly pulling out the chocolate. I opened ripped of the wrapper and broke a square of the cookie crumble off to feed him. Realising my actions he opened his mouth, and then closes it around my fingers sucking softly and licking everything he can. I sucked in a deep breath at his actions. Finally I worked up the nerve to pull them away from him replacing them with my own lips and giving him a hug.
“So, what is this for Frank? I mean you’ve never given me a kiss like that” he asked wrapping his bare arms around me.“Well Gerard” I Smiled looking at him through my eyelashes “If you want me to convince you, then We’re going to have an eventful week”. After I finished speaking my words he patted my head. “Oh. Well then, can’t wait”. I climbed out off his grip and searched for the rose in the bag. Quickly I handed him the flower blowing him a kiss and Leaving the house ready for school.
“Hold up a second, You’re going with Gerard” Ray asked disbelievingly at my answer. I nodded rather excited about the whole idea of arriving at the party with Gerard, all eyes on us. He raised his eyebrow still shocked at my sudden change of plan. “And Mikey knows?” he asked leaning closer towards me. “Mikey suggested i ask him” I grinned.
"Hey baby” Christa giggled from behind Ray who automatically turned his head. “Hey beautiful” responded Ray “Did you know Frank’s going to the party with Gerard?” he asked. She shook her head and took a seat next to him with a look on her face that says ‘Tell me everything now’. “When did this happen?” she questioned propping her head on Ray’s shoulder who started stroking her hair through his fingers. “Yesterday” I giggled.
“What happened yesterday?”
Alicia’s voice broke into our conversation as she and Mikey sat down next to them. “Frank and Gerard are having hot sex at the party” informed Christa making Mikey screw up his nose in disgust. I explained the deal to them; if I could convince Gerard I’m good enough to be a pretend date then we’d show up, kiss and leave which would be the end of story. Obviously the girls were on the edge of their seats listening to my plans of having a romantic time with Gerard; even suggesting me cute things which I would defiantly think about. Mikey groaned.
“Can we stop talking about how to seduce my brother” he asked earning a slap from Alicia.
“Shut up mikes, this is the cutest thing ever” she giggled planting a kiss on his lips.
“Frank, you smell like a fucking rose shit on you”
The voice rung through my ears. Sophie. All eyes were on me and noses taking a smell of my new scent. Bob had burst out laughing who was standing next to Sophie and Anna who had their eyebrows raised. I ducked my head cursing at myself. Ray’s hair was bouncing up, Mikey’s poker face remained while Alicia and Christa leaned over me more to confirm their suspicions.
“For Gerard?” they asked in unison. I nodded weakly as they seated themselves back down smirking at my reaction.
“What’s for Gerard?” sophie chuckled seating herself right next to me.
“Frank asked Gerard if they could have sex at the party this weekend but Gerard’s making Rrank give him a good reason to. Frank the hopeless romantic has formed a plan to not only get in his pants; but make Gee his boyfriend. Roses are his favourite smell” Mikey concluded for me.
Sophie almost choked on thin air as she heard the explanation. “Gerard is your date?” she questioned wide eyed, I merely nodded hoping a black hole would just suck me up and throw me a Gerard so we could spend an eternity in darkness together. Her hand slapped me on the back while her mouth wearing the biggest smile she could make. “Well done” she congratulated before the bell rung saving me from my embarrassment for ten minutes.
“Sup faggot?” Sophie smiled as I approached her perched up on her tree while her gym class failed to noticed their missing student. I frinned and jumped to catch the strong branch and pull myself up to sit next to her.
She made room for me as she turned to face me. She observed me before asking “what’s up buttercup? You seem down"
I Sighed. I had been thinking about what i was doing. Was it really going to work or was I making a fool of myself? “Sophie... I’m unsure of this whole thing. What if I make a mistake and end up ruining our friendship? I’ll make a fool of myself”.
She bit her lip nodding before answering my question.“You’re in love Frank, you’re just scared. You and Gerard have had so many memories and shared so many moments and nothing can break that up. How long have you had this crush? More than five years. That’s a long time to have a little crush on”.
I stopped her in her tracks. I had only had a crush on Gerard for three years; from the age fourteen making her laugh.
“Oh please, i’ve heard of how you acted around him when you were a little kid. Crying for him whenever he’d leave, giving him small kisses on his lips when you’d be reunited. Cuddling up to him when he showed you your first horror movie”
I Can remember that night like the back of my hand. I was only twelve and he had invited me to join him and Mikey to watch a movie. I had accepted not knowing what I was getting myself into. The asshole had decided to watch ‘IT’ by Stephen king. I nearly shat myself. The only thing that had calmed me down was Gerard letting me dig my head into his chest and sleep with him that night. But that wasn’t love right?
“that’s not love” I mumbled.
“No, it was but neither of you realised because you were too young. We all dismiss the possibility of love at such a young age, so you never took note of it. Don’t be so afraid of your feelings Frank; Gerard has them too”. i looked up into her eyes.
She laughed at how i was so blind.
“OF COURSE YOU IDIOT” She yelled “I’ve met him once, and there is no way that he looks at just ANYONE Like that dumbass”.
I bit my lip. Maybe she was right.
School had practically finished when I received a text from Gerard.
Gee: Get your ass round my house tonight. Need you desperately Mr. Romance. Don’t give a shit about your excuses. If you don’t show up I’ll find you and attach you to a leash and fucking drag you here. Xx
p.s thanks for the chocolate!
The picture of Gerard controlling me in a leash was somewhat creepy yet exciting. As I read through it once more excitement was running through my veins and questions making themselves up. I watched the clock ticking slowly. Its small hands mocking me as it took forever to reach four o’clock. I cursed under my breath debating whether i should just make a run for it now.
The bell had stop my thoughts and my mind was suddenly free of any thought but to get to Gerard. The teacher hadn’t excused us before I Stood up, grabbed my things along with Mikey and dragged him out of the school eve against his protests. Knowing that’d he’d beat this shit out of me I let go of his wrist and ran full speed for Gerard. I was probably overreacting to his text message but i just couldn’t help but wanting to know what was about to happen. I Ran past kids and parents making my way to his house. My feet were killing and muscles were burning before i stopped in front of their front door. What was about to happen? Was he angry at me for kissing him? Oh god he hates me. I’m going to be humiliated in front of everyone. He’s going to tell all of his friends about his pathetic little friend who’s had the biggest crush on him ever. I’m going to die, oh no.
I raised my head to see Gerard staring at me a little taken back at my face. my tears were leaking down my cheek, teeth digging deep into my lip almost breaking the skin. I was breathing oddly but now the pace had gotten quicker. Warmth covered me as his arms pulled me into him dragging me into the house while playing with my hair. I felt a soft kiss land on my forehead and looked up to see him smiling. I had been crying in front of Gerard. This is worth dying over.
“You okay there?” he asked concern lacing his voice as his eyes searched for an answer. I nodded as a smile spread across my lips causing him to grin. “Great”. He took my hand and led me to his room. It was then i noticed he was wearing a black woolly jumper and grey jeans with white socks. A sight very rare. He pushed me onto the bed and pulled out his sketch pad. I instantly knew what was coming, the old ‘i need your face for a project’. I waited for him to sit down in front of me, only this time he had no camera and wore a grin.
“Take your top off”
I almost threw up. What the fuck did he just say? Why do i need to be topless? This wasn’t happening. Oh god. I had the sexual attraction of a pig. Seeing my panicked expression Gerard calmed me down by placing a hand on my shoulder. “Shhhh.... I just want to sketch you for art class, topic is something innocent so I decided to pick you” he smiled. I breathed in and out slowly and nodded. He’s not the kind to take the piss out of me. “Great, now just lay down on the bed” he instructed and I followed. Casually he handed me the rose I had given him a gift and placed it on my stomach just letting it lay there. Questioning what he was doing would earn me a sarcastic answer. I just continued laying in my position listening to the sound of pencils marking paper and Gerard’s slow breathing. I closed my eyes. The relaxation was too much before I drifted off into a sleep.
He was waving at me, dressed in his Skeleton pyjamas and a smile plastered on his lips. I ran, faster than i realised I could and jumped at him. He caught me with his arms letting me wrap my legs around him as he attacked my lips. He smiled into the kiss before pulling away and leaning into my neck licking the skin there. The heavenly feeling was pure bliss making me want to hold him forever. “Frankie, i love you” he whispered almost uncertain to tell me. I messed around with the stands of his hair then moved my lips to hover over his ear. “I love you too Gee”
Shortly after my little dream I was woken up by Gerard shaking me. I opened my eyes and saw him smiling at me. That fucking smile could kill somebody if he wasn’t careful. He shoved a piece of paper in my face forcing me to look at his sketch. I was laying there, sleeping with the rose still planted on my chest. Doves were watching me from afar at my sleeping body. I didn’t appear to be in his bed; in fact I was in a field sleeping in a blanket. “What’s the story?” I asked completely blown away by the drawing. Gerard loved to give a story to his work.
“A young boy fell in love with a knight. The knight had to disappear and gave him a rose to remember him by. Each night the boy would be waiting for his knight in shining armour to come back sleeping with the rose to keep the feeling of his lovers presence there. Until then the doves keep his spirit free and safe” he explained.
“Does he find he his knight?” I asked aware of how close his lip were to mine.
“Maybe” he whispered, breath hovering over me making my skin crawl.
“Hey, gee wanna watch a movie? Unless you and frank are fucking in which case don’t worry” came Mikey’s squeak which had became my saviour at the moment. We both followed him into the living room. Gerard had insisted that i sit next to him. The show was some sort of crappy TV Series I’ve never heard off although that’s not what had my attention. I had been pulled into Gerard’s chest and quietly listening to his heartbeat for a while. My fingers gripped his and I closed my eyes. His breathing was relaxing, soothing just something you could listen to all day. As The show ended I looked at my watch. 7:32. I had to get home soon. I Sighed and picked myself up from his arms saying goodbye to Mikey and Donna.
“So what’s your mind got planned for the rest of the week?” Gerard asked rubbing his hands against my hips.
“You’ll have to wait and see” I winked, pecking his lips and leaving him smirking in the doorway. I stopped just at his front garden gate and turned around.
“Sweet dreams honey” i shouted blowing him a kiss which he had pretended to catch. I Couldn’t wait for tomorrow.
AAHHHHHHHH. Thanks to my friend i have been able to update. Please review and tell me your thoughts:) thank you for reading and it will get cuter!
Hopefully I've fixed all the mistakes and made it easier to read for you all:3