Trying to vent my feelings. I've been more honest in this then I ever have been to any of my friends and family. I'm sorry if it makes no sense, I just needed to do this.
(#) killjoy_blackrose 2012-05-01 03:39:49 PMyou're not in this alone
there you go and it's true.
my friend has clinical depression and she described it pretty much like that...i know it's really hard, but you need to talk to someone, do anything to get help. if it helps, you can talk to me. i'm a shitty advice giver though.
just know you're not alone. we're all in this fucked up thing together and we all belong here. so yeah...
literally scream a big fuck you at the world...maybe i should shut up, i'm not really helping am i? well, i try, because i /care/.
ever want to bitch about everything and anything? go to my profile and look for my mail. xk
Author's responseThank you. I actually have bipolar and take meds but I still feel like crap. And you were helping, this review made me smile actually, and I will mail you if I need to, thank you so much,x
(#) lwarfield3 2012-05-01 04:15:46 PMYou're not insane, you won't fail exams (probably), and it's gonna all have to come out sometime. I promise that you're not alone. I care. The person who reviewed before me cares. The people that will probably review after me (hopefully someone will) care. I know, for sure.
Just remember, YOU ARE FUCKING AWESOME. okay? I know that and I've never even met you.
Author's responseThank you, and thank you for caring. It just feels like no-one here fucking does. And I'm pretty sure I will fail my exams but, that's what re-sits were made for.
(#) WickedDiamond 2012-05-01 04:30:56 PMI think you're amazing for actually getting out of bed. I know I didn't. It's actually a really strong move when falling back to sleep is so easy and peaceful.
I know it doesn't feel like it now and you probably won't believe me anyways.. But I'm living proof that it does get better. i've been exactly where you are now. I recognize every single word you write.
You need to find someone to talk to. It doesn't matter if it's a stranger like anyone of us or someone at school or a friend you think would understand. Talking about it does help. Just unloading everything for a while and sharing your feelings. It's incredible how much it lightens the load. It's ok to let someone else carry it for a while.
I don't know how it is for you because it's always different but for me I couldn't get better without pills. There was some wiring problems in my brain and I needed some help for it to work right. Maybe that's what you need too.
All I know is that you don't have to feel this way and if you don't find anyone else then you have three awesome people here who cares and who wants to help (yes we're awesome). I'm a very empathetic person and I couldn't stop myself from reading this and replying to you. If you wanna rant/vent/unload I'll be happy to give you my two cents.
Just stay strong and keep getting out of bed because you're amazing for it. You're so strong and you can get through this. Stay Strong
Author's responseSeriously, dude, this review pretty much made me cry, thank you so much. I'm already on meds for my bipolar but I still feel like this all the fucking time, so maybe they don't work for me, maybe I need to try something else but I don't know what. The thing is, I know things will get better, i just...I dont realise it or something, it doesn't register, I dunno, it's weird man. But thank you so much, it really does mean a lot to me.
(#) CosmicZombie 2012-05-03 11:45:52 AMHoney, we all care on here. Please don't think you're alone- you're not, even if it really feels like it. I really know the kind of thing your talking about, because hell, I feel like that most days too.
But you know what? You're really strong. I know you might feel terrible sometimes, but you're carrying on, and I know it might be hard to see it yourself right now, but that is an incredibly courageous thing to do, okay?
I really admire you for continuing going to school, getting out of bed, all that- to someone else, it might sound like the easiest thing in the world, but I know how fucking hard it can be. I've missed over a year and a half of school because I have clinical anxiety and depression, so trust me, I really do know what you're feeling, even if it's slightly different.
I know how hard it is. I know how shit it makes you feel. But it will get better. I promise. I don't mean suddenly everything will be perfect, but slowly, it will improve. You can do it.
Keep getting out of bed, keep trying. And every time you make the effort, tell yourself the truth; that you're amazing and you can do this.
Stay strong, never give in. You ARE cared about, okay?
Feel free to email me: firstname.lastname@example.org I'm not just saying that or anything- I'd be happy to talk if you want :)
P.S. Shit, that was a pretty long review...sorry if I've annoyed you.
Author's responseDude, you didn't annoy me at all, in fact it nearly made me cry. Thank you so much, and you know what, you are pretty damn strong and awesome too. It's nice to find someone who actually just - gets it, ya know. Just thank you, for caring and I may email you soon. Thank you,xo
(#) WickedDiamond 2012-05-07 12:54:16 PMI'm glad to see you read our reviews. I just want you to know that people do care. It's a good feeling.
I kind of gave up on ficwad recently but I came back now and remembered I wrote this comment for you and had to go back and check how you were doing.
I'm relieved to see you have people who care. As much drama and shit as ficwad has.. i think.. there's still people who care and we all know how you feel and want to help.
As shitty as you feel now it does get better. it doesn't have to make you feel better right now but keep that sentence in your mind if only to not do anything rash or crazy.
You can email me anytime and I'll tell you all about my crazy actions. When you feel crappy it's like you don't think clearly or rationally. But things change and you'll be glad you got through it in one piece.
It does get better
Author's responseThank you, so much. I really appreciated everyones reviews but this really made me smile. I've done so much crazy shit over the years it's not even funny anymore, but thank you. I just hope it gets better soon.