She wants me?! Did she really ask to see me?! I've got to go see her NOW!
Incoming call- Gee
"Hey Gee what's up?"
"It's Maria, she doesn't want me"
"Well you've got Lyn-Z and Bandit so that's fine, isn't it?"
"No it's not Mikey. I want her, no one else!"
"Well I'm coming to see her now, Frank has told me to go over"
"Stay away from her. Shes mine! Go home to your little bitch, Alicia" Gerards tone of voice startled me, he had never spoke to me like that. He always had a tendency to get over protective, but this was too far.
"You can talk! What are you going to do, knock up Lyn-Z and pretend you're dead. Oh wait, you've already done that with Maria. You better be out of that hospital by the time I get there" He was about to argue back before the last of my rage came out, "Oh yeah and I'm cancelling the tour to spend time with Maria"
"Fucking shut up Mikey!"
"Why should I?!"
"She's with Bryar!" She was with Bob? After everything he did to her, she ended up in hospital 4 times! How was he not arrested for attempted murder?! I could feel my heart crumble into one thousand tiny pieces, each piece melting into my lungs making it harder to breath.
"Shit Mikey! Are you ok?! Breathe!" I gulped back the air and let it flow into my system.
"Just be careful when you see her, like don't mention you tried to kill her". I had what? This sounded nothing like me, I wouldnt kill the woman I loved. Shit, did I? Maybe the alcohol and drugs controlled me, it happened to Gerard.
"Wait I what?"
"You stabbed her Mikey, that's why she's in hospital. Don't act dumb. I saved your sorry ass for the last time" Shit, I've done this before. I remember waking up with blood on my hands, I thought I just had a nose bleed. What kind of monster am I? I need to hand myself in or something, but I need to see Maria first.
"Shit Gerard, I'm a monster. Gerard are you there?"
Fucking hell so much for brotherly love. He said he would always be there for me! I need a drink.
"Mikey what are you doing with that bottle! Put it down! You said you had stopped! This is the last day you're home before you continue the tour, put it down!" I was sick of Alicia treating me like a kid, I was the fucking man of this relationship not her. Then I did it, I slapped her in the face, "Fucking get to bed! I will be up to deal with you soon!"
"M-Mikey, you hit me"
"GET TO BED NOW!" Shit I'd never spoke to her like that before, I felt as though I had so much power inside of me, the adrenaline ran through my body. I could control her she was like my bitch, I watched as she ran to bed.
"Where the fuck is my bag?!"
I lifted up the pillow and found a white bag lying next to a bottle of Jack Daniels. The bag looked so perfect, almost like Maria. Shit, Maria. What was I doing? I needed to see her.
"WAIT HERE BITCH I WILL BE BACK SOON!" Shit I was a horrible husband, well I won't be her husband for much longer. I hope.
Why is it I'm pushing everyone away? My life is shit I just want to die.
"Maria, you have a visitor" Shit, Bobs found me. I told him I was going to visit my Mom, I was trying to sneak away to see Frank. Last time he found out he beat me almost to death. I will just pretend to sleep, that way he will be kinder. I hope.
"Hey Maria, it's me. Mikey"
"Mikey!" He came to see me, I love him so much. He came back for me.
"Looks like someone's happy to see me?" As he sat beside me I embraced him into a hug.
"I missed you so much Mikes! I love you so so much!" Did I really just say I loved him?Shit.
"Wait, you what?" I noticed a smile grow onto his face.
"I love you Michael Way, I really do. I don't want anyone else" Our lips locked just for that small second until it was all over.
"WHAT THE FUCK MARIA!?"
"BRYAR! WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING HERE?!"
This can't be happening the two men I love and of course there is Gerard too. What am I supposed to do? Its not like it is in the movies, it never is.
"IM HERE TO SEE MY WHORE OF A GIRLFRIEND!" Bob always knew how to make me feel like shit, but I love him. There's no one like him, I don't know if that's a good thing. On the outside he is a sweet, loving, caring guy but on the inside he's an abusive, evil prick.
Then there was Mikey, he was an all around nice guy, he's so cute and loves me; despite all my flaws. He was just like his brother. Gerard said he loved me but I don't even know if that's real anymore. He lied to me. He hurt me.
"DON'T TALK TO HER LIKE THAT"
"Mikey, please stop. He's ok, we are together" It pained to say it but I didn't want Mikey to get even more hurt than he already was.
"Maria, did that kiss mean nothing. I'm leaving Alicia for you. I stopped drinking and drugs for you"
"Mikey, I do love you. I'm sorry"