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I Can't Stand It
0 ReviewsRyden, fluff fic,one shot. Brendon is confused and can't stand the multiple feelings being thrown at him by Ryan. Finally he lets it out.
I sighed and curled up in a ball in the tour bus bunk. My lip quivered and I chocked back a sob, why couldn't he like me back? I heard Ryan come near and I pulled up the covers over my head. "Hey Bren, you okay? You haven't talked to any of us since the show." He said worriedly. I didn't reply. I heard him sigh and remove the covers from my face.
"What's wrong?"
"Nothing,just go away." I replied, my voice dull and hoarse. Ryan bit his lip and then crawled in the bunk next to me. I shivered as he put his arms around me. "Tell me whats wrong." He whispered.
"You."
He blinked and looked at me with an expression of confusion. "What do you mean?"
I boiled with rage and depression at the same time.
"I touch you at a show or try to kiss you and you back away, smiling,brushing it off. Then when were here you act like everything's cool, and we're just friends you say, but then you touch me , hugging me, cuddling with me, falling asleep with me in the same bunk." I chocked back another sob and my voice grows louder. "And it's like a cycle and it repeats in my head every single day. You don't realize you're hurting me, Ry! I remember I told you I loved you, you just laughed and said I love you too, you're a great friend! I didn't mean it like that,Ry." By now I could hear Spencer and Jon's footsteps coming near and I'm actually yelling. " I love you so much and I can't even deal with it anymore. It's KILLING me,Ryan. I can't eat, I can't sleep, and it's because of YOU. I can't stand it" I wanted to stop, Ryan's frown killed me and Spencer and Jon were watching us. "I just, I can't do it anymore." It was a whisper, tears falling down my face. Ryan looked at me with a melancholy smile and kissed me. He pulled back and wiped my tears away.
"Hey Bren?"
"W-What?" I said,shaking.
"I love you too, and not just as a friend."
"What's wrong?"
"Nothing,just go away." I replied, my voice dull and hoarse. Ryan bit his lip and then crawled in the bunk next to me. I shivered as he put his arms around me. "Tell me whats wrong." He whispered.
"You."
He blinked and looked at me with an expression of confusion. "What do you mean?"
I boiled with rage and depression at the same time.
"I touch you at a show or try to kiss you and you back away, smiling,brushing it off. Then when were here you act like everything's cool, and we're just friends you say, but then you touch me , hugging me, cuddling with me, falling asleep with me in the same bunk." I chocked back another sob and my voice grows louder. "And it's like a cycle and it repeats in my head every single day. You don't realize you're hurting me, Ry! I remember I told you I loved you, you just laughed and said I love you too, you're a great friend! I didn't mean it like that,Ry." By now I could hear Spencer and Jon's footsteps coming near and I'm actually yelling. " I love you so much and I can't even deal with it anymore. It's KILLING me,Ryan. I can't eat, I can't sleep, and it's because of YOU. I can't stand it" I wanted to stop, Ryan's frown killed me and Spencer and Jon were watching us. "I just, I can't do it anymore." It was a whisper, tears falling down my face. Ryan looked at me with a melancholy smile and kissed me. He pulled back and wiped my tears away.
"Hey Bren?"
"W-What?" I said,shaking.
"I love you too, and not just as a friend."
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