Things have changed for Panic At The Disco. Ryan admits his feelings to Brendon, but how will he react? Fluff,fluff,fluff. c;
It's three years later (2008 now), and things have changed. We had our first album, 'A Fever You Can't Sweat Out', come out shortly after we graduated. We are waay more focused on the band now, since we graduated. Sad news: Ryan's father passed away. We've had tons of interviews,concerts, tours, and LOTS of practicing. It isn't so easy being famous, yet it is such an amazing experience. Oh yeah, and Brent Wilson left the band. Long story. We have another guy, Jonathan Walker, or as we call him 'Jon', as our new bass player. The past is the past though, so what happened with Brent is the past. So anyways with Ryan and our shows... for 'Lying Is The Most Fun A Girl Can Have Without Taking Her Clothes Off', we have a script and I have to kiss him, but push him away. It sucks. I want to fully kiss him right then and there, but we don't want any rumors saying we're boyfriends. Even though it would be pretty nice. Not the rumors, but the boyfriend part. But my current relationship with Ryan is just friends, still. Sure, we've been cuddling once in a while and all the stage stuff, but I'm not sure how Ryan takes it. I absolutely love it. But anyways, you get the picture. We're going on another tour for our new album 'Pretty.Odd.' that just came out about a month ago.
So I'm sitting on my bed in the huge tour bus next to Ryan when he says,
"Bren, can we talk?"
I respond, "Of course Ry, what's up?"
"Listen, I've held this in for a looong time and I've come to think it's time I tell you.
"Brendon Boyd Urie..." he starts.
'Uh oh,' I think.
"...I love you so much. You're on my mind 24/7. I know it may sound weird and I don't know if you'd ever feel the same way, but I'm gay for you, and only you. I would love to be with you, for the rest of our lives. I know we can't say anything though if we did start dating. When I saw you when we first met, I was instantly in love. I thought, 'Oh my god, is this guy gorgeous.' You're an amazing guy Brendon, you really are. You're smart, friendly, very caring, absolutely beautiful, and just perfect. And I would do anything to be with you."
My jaw dropped. I was speechless. I had tears in my eyes. Never, has anyone said something like that to me before.
"Bren look at me" Ryan said.
I looked at him. He wiped my tears away before they fell.
"Please don't cry,"
"I won't Ry. That was amazing what you just said. I never knew you felt like that. I totally feel the same about you, I just didn't know if you felt the same about me. I really like you Ryan Ross. And I would do anything to be with you too."
"Hug me please?"
He looked so cute I couldn't help but smirk.
"You're so cute, Ryro"
I wrapped my arms around his waist and he wrapped his arms around my neck. I put my head in the crook of his neck. Then I lay down with him.
"Ryan Ross, I love you, wil you be my boyfriend?"
"Yes Brendon, of course I will. I love you, too."
I picked my head up from his neck and slowly leaned in and kissed Ryan Ross right there on the lips. My boyfriend.
I guess we both fell asleep after Brendon kissed me. Oh my god, he's my boyfriend. I've loved him ever since we met... He's just an amazing guy, and I'm so happy and excited that we're together now after me liking him for several years. And him liking me back.
I felt Brendon move and his breathing pattern change.
He grunted, in response.
"Breeeennnndddoonnn.... wake up."
"I'm uuuupppp, goossshh," he whined.
"Then get out of your beeedddd" I whined back.
I grabbed his hand and dragged him out of his bed and onto the floor. Then I went to the top of the bunk, my bed, and laid there and waited until Brendon opened his eyes and realized I wasn't there.
"Baaabe, where are you?" he whined.
Oh my gosh, that was too cute. I peeked out from the top of my bed and saw him looking in the closet. Yep, that's Brendon for you. Looking in closets for a person. Then he was pacing the room until he finally decided to check my bunk. I ducked my head before he saw me.
"Ryan?" he asked while looking at me.
I stuck my tongue out at him,
"You're a meanie for leaving me on the floor," he was trying not to smirk or laugh.
"Well I told you to get up, lazy ass" I winked.
"Brenny, I'm sorry"
I went over to him and hugged him tightly.
"Better?" I asked him.
He nodded, and then smiled one of his beautiful smiles that could light up anyone's day, and said,
"I love you"
I smiled back and said,
"I love you too"
And just like that, my life was complete.
Sorry, I don't have internet so it's hard to update. I have to go to my friend's or cousin's house. But I don't go over their houses' often. But whenever I go over there, I'll update for you guys. c:
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