"Gerard I'm sorry, you've been so kind but I have to go. My Mom is in the hospital"
I can't let her go, not now, I've only just met her. My daughter, my beautiful daughter. She can't leave again.
"If you wait, I can drop you off?"
"You would? Gerard that's so sweet of you, thank you so much"
Do I tell her now? Should I wait until her Mom is out of the hospital?
"It's no problem at all, I've just got to go get some fuel for my car"
I didn't have to but I just want to get to know my daughter better.
What's going on? Why am I in so much pain?
"God Penina please get better. Come on, please. For me?"
Is that? It was.
"God Penina you're ok, thank god. Don't do that to me again"
He was so caring and sweet, god why couldn't I have met him earlier? Much earlier!
"Where am I?"
"You're in the hospital? Can you remember what happened?"
Now that I think about it, I can't. Why can't I remember what happened?
"No. I can't remember"
"Oh crap, do you want me to get the nurse? They've called Lucy's father and he is bringing Lucy with him. Thank God she was with your ex"
Ex? Crap, that's right. I haven't told Frank yet, I like him to much to break it to him. I'm taken. I'm married for gods sake. I can't just expect to find someone else as soon as we move to Belleville.
"Oh yeah, my ex"
Do I tell him now before anything happens with us? I liked there being an us. But there never could be an us.
"You know Penina. Although we've just met, I'm really starting to like you"
Ok it's too late now.
"Frank I feel the same but..."
Why did I say but?! I could have said anything. I said but.
What can I say? I can't tell him about David, I need to protect him. He's far to sweet and caring to be harmed. But we can't be together because my husband is a physco killer who will get you if you're still near me.
"But I don't want to be with you, I mean you're Frank Iero! You're on my daughters wall, but I am not like you. I want to protect you from the humility from being seen with me and I want to protect my daughter from the cameras. She needs a normal life, I'm sorry"
I wanted to just hold him tight and tell him everything. I wanted him to hold me in his arms and tell me everything will be ok. That's not going to happen, no matter what happens David will always be there to find and hurt us.
"Penina. I can help, I will hide you both. I love you..."
"No Frank. Just go"
"Penina, please. Just think about it, I've never felt this way..."
"JUST LEAVE FRANK!"
Why?! Why couldn't I have just moved here earlier and met Frank first. Then this wouldn't have happened! I hate my life!
He turned out of the door, leaving my life forever.
They're letting me out today, thank God. I can see everyone again and sort things out. But first I have the party everyone is throwing for my release from hospital. Mikey is coming to collect me, Frank hasn't came back since Tuesday. Three days isn't to bad but I do miss my brother. Oh well, hopefully I can make things up to Mikey. I haven't told anyone that he could possibly be Amy's Dad. There is a way to find out but I need some of their DNA, my friend James works at a nearby lab and I told him my situation he told me to get some DNA from all three of them. It can't be that hard. I hope.
Where's Mikey? He's supposed to be here now.
"Hey Mikes, I'm ready to go"
"Yeah I can see" he let out a small grin as he sighed, "so look, I'm sorry about what I said. I didn't mean to be such a dick but..."
I walked over to him and pressed my lips against his, slowly pulling away.
"Mikey, I want you in my life. I love you and I want to be with you, but what about Alicia?"
"She left me after I told her I wanted you"
He what? Alicia is lovely but he can't have just left her for me, I'm nothing compared to her.
"Why? You broke off something as wonderful as you and Alicia for me?"
"Yeah. When I'm with you I feel different. I've neve felt this way before, as soon as I met you in school I've always wanted to be with you. Hold you in my arms, tell you how much you mean to me and to take you away from Gerard. He didn't deserve you"
"Well I don't deserve you Mikey"
"I don't care Maria. I want you, I love you"
"I love you too Mikey"
The door opened as a drunken figure stumbled inside the hospital room.
"Hey sugar, miss me?"