Screw everything in this Godforsaken world. I'm so very upset over suicides and everything else going on currenty. I just want it to stop T_T I would love if you would take the time to read this.
I've been seeing a lot of suicide notes here lately, more than usual. It's so very upsetting to me. I'm ready to break down and cry in my room and I don't even know these people. It's just...heartbreaking. I was never really good with my emotions, but this...saddens me.
I'm seeing all these guys and gals on here with amazing potential taking their lives and it makes me want to cry. I don't see why. I know that there are terrible things and people out there, but is it really worth it in the long shot?
I know that sometimes it's very, very hard to live. But suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. It's not something that can be decided in a spur of the moment decision. When I feel down, I always tell myself: one more day, just see what's worth living for tomorrow.
Give yourself a reason to live. Any reason you can think of. I just...why. Someone please tell me why you do this to yourselves and the people around you. Somebody give me a persuasive argument as to why suicide should be a valid answer to something. They say that words are the most powerful tool we have, so go on. Someone please enlighten me.
There's so many beautiful things, places, and people in this world. You just have to find them. The sky is the limit, you can do anything you want on earth. Anything. It is better to beg forgiveness than ask permission.
I don't know. I was always an optimist, maybe that's why I'm so torn up inside. I just...please stop. Please just stop and think of everything you have ahead of you. These are the best years of your life, you should be having fun, be happy, be hopeful. Not sad and filled with sorrow. No matter how bad things are, once you hit rock bottom there's only one other way to go. Up.
I feel as if this is the most pathetic plea I've ever read, but I'm trying I really am. I don't want to cause any harm, so if you have something bad to say to me about this, then go ahead. I'll take whatever you have. I'm only want to see it stop.
I've seen a lot in my short 15 years of life. Some of my best friends are gay, lesbian, bi, asexual, heck, my best friend was molested by a cousin when she was only a toddler. Carrying some of what they went through is enough to make me take up the knife, but I won't. There's too much in this world for me.
Please, just think before you act. Everyone. Try to think of one thing each day you have to live for. If you run out, make something up. Give yourself a purpose. Have someone else give you one when you run out even.
Please I just...stop....
Think about My Chemical Romance, everyone's saying how they saved their life. Think of them, what they stand for. What made you claim that they saved your life in the first place. If you take yours, then they really didn't save it, did they? If anything think of the music. The one thing that can make you feel safe, an escape.
Thank you for taking the time to read this if you do. Ha, just another heartfelt plea from a girl who's never taken seriously in society because she's under the age of 25 and jobless...
I shall end this sentiment with a favorite quote of mine from the Lord of the Rings and a collage of hopeful, meaningful songs.
Frodo: "I can’t do this, Sam."
Sam: "I know. It’s all wrong. By rights we shouldn’t even be here. But we are. It’s like in the great stories, Mr. Frodo. The ones that really mattered. Full of darkness and danger, they were. And sometimes you didn’t want to know the end. Because how could the end be happy? How could the world go back to the way it was when so much bad had happened?
But in the end, it’s only a passing thing, this shadow. Even darkness must pass. A new day will come. And when the sun shines it will shine out the clearer. Those were the stories that stayed with you. That meant something, even if you were too small to understand why. But I think, Mr. Frodo, I do understand. I know now. Folk in those stories had lots of chances of turning back, only they didn’t. They kept going. Because they were holding on to something."
Frodo: "What are we holding onto, Sam?"
Sam: "That there’s some good in this world, Mr. Frodo…and it’s worth fighting for."
Sing it for the boys
Sing it for the girls
Every time that you lose it sing it for the world
Sing it from the heart
Sing it till you're nuts
Sing it out for the ones that'll hate your guts
Sing it for the deaf
Sing it for the blind
Sing about everyone that you left behind
Sing it for the world
Sing it for the world
It may sound absurd: but don't be naive
Even Heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed:but won't you conceed
Even Heroes have the right to dream
It's not easy to be me
I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
Youre a little late, I'm already torn
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
Even if I say
It'll be alright
Still I hear you say
You want to end your life
Now and again we try
To just stay alive
Maybe we'll turn it all around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late
This is the last night you'll spend alone
Look me in the eyes so I know you know
I'm everywhere you want me to be.
The last night you'll spend alone,
I'll wrap you in my arms and I won't let go,
I'm everything you need me to be.
But we all bleed the same way as you do
And we all have the same things to go through
Hold on if you feel like letting go
Hold on it gets better than you know
Don't stop looking, you're one step closer
Don't stop searching, it's not over
Make it stop,
Let this end,
All these years pushed to the ledge,
But proud I stand, of who I am,
I plan to go on living
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home