Brendon's happy like always, but how will he take it when Ryan says why he was up all night? Mini arguement ;c
Okay, so let's just say, life is great. The tour has been awesome. Ryan and I have been amazing, going on three months together soon, and I couldn't ask for more. Life's just awesome. We have a show tonight in Chicago. Then we have only 4 more after. Tour's almost over, so that's good. More Brendon and Ryan time, if you know what I mean. ;D Haha, nothing has happened yet to where we're in bed, naked. But the key word; yet. Meaning soon, hopefully.
Jon comes up to me and pokes me.
"Yeah Jon?" I respond.
"There's this bar I know and I wanted to know if we can all go after the show. Then hook up with girls and stuff," he smirked.
"Haha, yeah sure, don't get too crazy though."
"Alright, I'll try not to," he laughed.
Ryan walked into the small place we call the living room, then Jon walked to the bathroom.
"Hey baby" I told him.
He gave me a half- hearted smile. What the hell?
"Hi babe" he sighed.
He sat in my lap and leaned back against my chest. I wrapped my arms around his waist and he entwined our fingers together. Little things like this make my heart melt. Not when Ryan's upset though.
"Ryan, something's wrong. I know you. And plus I could tell that your heart didn't melt when I called you baby, or when you said "Hi babe", or when you half- heartedly smiled. Tell me what's wrong."
"I'm just tired Bren, I was up all night."
"Doing what?" Now I was more concerned.
"I was on the phone."
Pause. Long pause. That pause when something's wrong.
"With who Ryan?"
"Get off my fucking lap right now."
What the FUCK?! How could he just do that to me and still have the nerve to call me babe, sit on my lap, and entwine our fingers together?! What did our relationship even mean to him?
He got off and walked towards the bedroom. I walked to him and spun him around with my hand.
"What the HELL Ryan?! How could you? I love you so damn much, more than you'll EVER know, and you have the guts to talk to your ex?! Especially when I'm asleep?"
"I'm sorry" he whispered with his head down, a secret tear falling from his right eye.
"Do you know how bad you're hurting me Ryan?"
Tears were streaming down my face. No answer.
Still no answer.
"How am I...how are we supposed to be together if I have a possibility of you cheating on me.... with a girl? I thought you were gay Ryan? I thought you loved me? I thought I was your one and only. It doesn't seem like that now...."
And with that, I walked to the bathroom, locked it, and cried til there were no more tears left. Not giving a damn about what Ryan said, if he even said anything.
Okay yeah. I get it, I'm an asshole. I didn't mean it though. Well yeah, I mean I did. But not in a way to hurt Brendon though. I would never try to hurt him like that. Cheating is super wrong. My ex called me at about 2 am, drunk. She was flirting with me, and my stupid self does what? You're right, I flirt back. I was 100% sober, and I was flirting with my ex-girlfriend. I'm gay! Yeah, that's pretty messed up, if you ask me. Now you guys are probably thinking,
What about Brendon, the love of your life? How can you just do that to him?
Truth is? I don't know. Maybe I was bored, or lonely, or just felt like it. I don't know. I walk to the bathroom and knock on the locked door gently and say,
"Can I come in baby?" in a gentle tone.
I guess he got up and unlocked it, because it's unlocked now. He sat on the floor, hands wrapped around his knees that were up against his chest. His eyes were puffy and red. He was staring at the wall. My, did he look heartbroken...
"Baby.." I started,
"How could you?" he whispered ever so softly, still staring at the wall.
I closed the bathroom door behind me and locked it. Then I sat down next to him. I opened out my arms for him to sit in my lap. He shook his head no. Wow, that sucks.
-Insert "DAYYYUUUMMM, REJECTED!!!!" here.-
"I didn't mean to Bren. I mean I did, but never ever in a way to hurt you. My ex called me last night and she was drunk. She started flirting with me. I know, I'm stupid, but I flirted back." My eyes started to water.
"Brendon, I didn't mean to hurt you.....I really didn't baby." I started crying.
"I'm really sorry for being a jerk Brendon."
"You should be, that's fucked up."
"I shouldn't have even answered the phone." I said.
I hold out my arms this time for him to sit in my lap. He scoots into my lap and looks at me.
"Smile, you're beautiful," he tells me and wipes away my tears.
I smile for him.
"Good. I accept your apology, but if you do it again, we're over."
"It's not going to happen again Brendon. I would be lost without you."
"Me too, Ryan"
He got up off my lap and held his hand out to help me up. I took the offer then wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed him.
I'm in the dressing room I share with Ryan and he's helping me with my stage makeup. He's pretty good at it, I gotta admit. I'm trying to forget about the situation with Ryan and his ex. That was messed up and I've lost trust from him. He just finished my makeup and I look at the clock. 30 minutes and we're on. Hm.... what will I do now you ask? I make my way to Ryan and wrap my arms around him from behind and kiss my neck, and I thrust my hips into his ass which I get a little moan from, from Ryan. I start to suck on his neck, when he pushes me away.
"Ryaaannnn" I whine.
He rolls his eyes and smirks,
"But I don't waaannt hickeys before the show. Maybe after" he winks.
I fake pout,
"Hmmmphhh." Then I cross my arms across my chest.
"C'mon Brennnyyyy. We gotta go now, it's showtime baby!"
I walk out of the dressing room, normal now, no fake pouting, and hum the words to 'Nine In The Afternoon' when Ryan "bumps" into me.
"Asshole" I say, playfully.
He sticks his tongue out at me. I stick my tongue out right back at him.
"You guys ready?" Spencer asks.
I hear all the screams and cheers.
"Yeah," I smile.
Jon and Ryan say yeah too.
"Alright guys, let's go!"
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