“Oh god what have I done?”
Axl groaned quietly and rolled over, away from the glowing red numbers that were winking at him tauntingly. Next to him, DJ mumbled something and shifted closer, seeking Axl’s arms once more, a small smile turned the singer’s mouth as he obliged the guitarist and kissed his forehead, DJ smiled in his sleep and settled, Axl brushed his fingers gently over the younger’s cheek, admiring his beauty. DJ winced and moved his head away; Axl pulled back immediately then leant in to examine what was wrong once DJ had fallen fully back to sleep, a bruise had formed and darkened on his skin, only a shade or so lighter than the others decorating his chest.
Teeth bit down hard on his tongue as he struggled to control the anger that overtook him, his arms tightened involuntarily, DJ groaned, waking slightly and pushing at Axl “Ax, leggo” he mumbled, the singer took a deep breath and released him, whispering his apology as DJ let out a sleepy mutter then promptly fell back to sleep. Axl remained by the guitarist’s side for a moment or so longer before sliding out of the bed carefully and padding silently over to his bathroom.
Fingers gripped the sink furiously, knuckles were turning white, his breath was speeding and coming out in pants as his whole frame shook with contained wrath. He glanced back at the bed, at DJ slumbering peacefully, some of the anger drained slightly; allowing his thoughts to run clearer however only one was standing out He cannot get away with this! Axl splashed some water over his face between creeping back into the bedroom and grabbing his jeans, a t-shirt and a jacket, pausing at the door he looked back at DJ before walking back and kissing his forehead, DJ smiled as Axl murmured “I love you baby”
Slash leaned his head back and gazed at his ceiling, noting absentmindedly that it needed painting before jumping as there was a loud bang on his front door; lowering his head again he glanced at the clock
Who the fuck is that? he mentally groaned before standing and dragging his feet to the door, he pulled it open after a moment’s wrestling with the chain. The man before him had his mouth dropping open in surprise as he pushed past him into the house, the singer glanced around dismissively before turning to face his ex-bandmate again “The only thing I’m here for Slash is warn you, if you go anywhere near DJ again…” he paused, eyes catching Slash’s, anger was in the green orbs as well as a slight bit of fear “I’ll fucking kill you” Axl finished in hiss, Slash stared at him for a moment before sneering
“Aww, did he run crying to you? Don’t worry; I won’t waste any more time on the pathetic kid” Axl glared “Besides…” Slash’s voice had dropped to a purr “I was only trying to get your attention Rosie” Axl’s expression took a wary edge as he backed away subconsciously “Don’t back away baby, and I thought you were being all strong, and standing up for your lover” the word lover tasted sour in Slash’s mouth but Axl’s eyes took on a steely edge as he straightened up.
“I mean it Slash, you lay a hand on him again and you’ll regret it” Slash smirked
“I love it when you try and threaten me baby, it’s sexy” Slash took a step away from the door, allowing the thing to fall shut, the fury and determination in Axl’s eyes was still there but it was slowly getting edged out by fear “Don’t panic Rosie, I won’t do anything you won’t want me to, I won’t hurt you, all my anger’s gone, I’ve taken it out already” he paused again, stepping closer to Axl and crowding the singer against the wall with his arms, his eyes watched Axl intensely as he finished his sentence “I went a few with your boyfriend” the fear disappeared as Axl shoved Slash away from him before landing a punch to the guitarist mouth, Slash laughed, spitting out blood as the singer pushed him to the floor and climbed on top of him, fist curling into his shirt to pull him up slightly as Axl snarled
“I fucking hate you” Slash blew a kiss upwards mockingly
“Love you too baby” Axl’s mouth twisted into a grimace before his fist made contact with Slash’s cheek again, tears welled up in Axl’s eyes before he let Slash go and leaned back, trying to control his emotions. Slash leant up on his elbows before shifting Axl to sit on his lap as he sat up properly and wrapped his arms around the singer as he whimpered
“Why are you doing this?”
“Doing what Rosie?” He whispered softly, running a hand through Axl’s soft hair
“Making me care about you again” Axl answered softly, raising his face to make eye contact with Slash, tears making streaks down his pale face as the guitarist leant in slightly and paused, eyes silently asking if this was what the singer wanted, Axl looked tortured for a moment before he moved in and closed the gap between their mouths, Slash’s eyes slid shut, triumph fading in lieu of desire as his hands slid into Axl’s hair and held him anchored to him. Lips moved against one another gently, slowing growing in desperation as the singer twisted his fingers into Slash’s curls before pulling away to catch a breath, he leaned his forehead against Slash’s and gazed at the man beneath him as Slash murmured
“I love you Axl” his hands slid from Axl’s hair to rest at his lower back as he gazed back “I’m so sorry for everything I did” Axl remained quiet but pressed their lips together again, silent forgiveness.
“I love you” Slash whispered again once they parted
“You’ve been drinking” Axl stated quietly, Slash frowned
“That doesn’t change how I feel, Axl I love you, how many times do I have to say it?” the singer looked away before removing Slash’s arms and standing up
“Slash, your wife…” The guitarist stood swiftly and pulled Axl back into his embrace
“Perla left, she said I had to decide who I wanted, her… or you” the singer pulled free again
“Choose Perla, choose your family, choose the life you built around them” he told Slash quietly, leaning against the wall and resisting the guitarist’s attempts to hug him again “Slash, we were never meant for each other, we’ll destroy each other. If we got back together, one of us would end up in a coffin” Slash shook his head trying to block out Axl’s words
“No, no, stop talking” he whispered, holding up a shaking hand “Stop talking like that”
“You need to see what I realized when I heard you’d married Perla” He stepped closer to Slash again and placed a consoling hand on his shoulder as Slash wrapped his arms firmly around himself “We don’t belong together” he whispered softly.
“No, no Axl just stop talking like that!” Slash whimpered, voice rising “I love you, you love me, that’s all that matters!” tears were building in Slash’s eyes, Axl stayed silent but his expression had an edge of finality to it, Slash’s Axl was gone, his Axl had believed that no matter how long they were apart they would always be together in the end; that their fates were written and entwined in the stars; that love was all that mattered. Tears spilled over onto his cheeks as he drew in a shuddering breath “Y…You said that love was all that mattered and fuck anybody else” Axl bit his lip
“Slash that was before you got married and had kids, that was before…” the end of his sentence was cut off as Slash mashed their lips back together desperately, hoping that it would bring back his Axl, the one who didn’t think rationally and just lived in the moment.
A squeak left his lips before he felt his eyes slide shut and his treacherous mouth kissed back automatically even as the part of his brain that was rapidly being silenced screamed at him to think about DJ, Slash’s hands roamed down his back to rest on his ass, giving it a light squeeze and drawing a moan from the singer, god how he’d missed those hands!
A soft sigh escaped the guitarist as Axl slid his hands under his t-shirt to feel over his chest smoothly, before they retreated to grip the hem and tug it off, mouths separating reluctantly to crash back together as soon as the clothing was dropped to the floor and Slash began to push Axl’s jacket off his shoulders determinedly, once that slid to floor busy hands focused on the buttons of his shirt. Creamy flesh was revealed causing Slash to lean back to admire it and run his fingertips gently over the surface lovingly, Axl closed his eyes and leaned his head backwards, resting it against the wall stifling a gasp as a slick tongue made a trail from the top of his jeans upwards to his nipple where it was joined by a hint of teeth, soft cushiony lips teasing the nub to a small round pebble.
Pulling his mouth away, Slash straightened up and looked down at his singer with dark eyes he leant in once more and kissed his lips gently “I love you Axl Rose, don’t ever forget that” he murmured softly, Axl opened his mouth to reply but was cut off by his ringtone, he glanced down at his jacket before placing another kiss on Slash’s lips and picking the item of clothing up, he fished out his mobile without taking his eyes away from the guitarist, the song finished abruptly then started again. The vocalist glanced down, expression changing immediately to one of guilt and self-loathing, Slash swore under his breath, knowing without even needing to look who was calling, Axl glanced back up, eyes meeting again; emerald against agate.
He tapped the screen then held the phone to his ear “Heya D, yeh I went out to clear my head; I’m still pretty pissed about what happened yesterday … I’ll head back now babe, you want me to get you a coffee or something? … ok, I’ll meet you at the studio … ok, I love you” his voice hitched slightly on the ‘I love you’ the phone buzzed once more as DJ replied, words indistinguishable before the call was ended, Axl looked back to Slash; there was a momentary silence then the singer pulled his jacket on and zipped it up, swallowing before saying as firmly as he could “This will never be mentioned again nor will it ever happen again. Get back with Perla, go look after your kids and stay the fuck away from DJ”
Slash remained silent as Axl walked to the door and pulled it open, stepping out just before Slash caught his arm and yanked him back into bruising kiss, “I love you” the guitarist whispered as he let the singer go, Axl looked to him with tortured eyes before he hurried out of the door, letting it fall shut behind him.
He collapsed into his car before swearing loudly, body shaking; frantically trying to forget what he’d just done, guilt flooded all senses as he gasped
“Oh god what have I done?”