Axl's thoughts on Slash.
Axl had hardly been out of his room since his confrontation with Slash. The only time he went out of his room was when he needed the bathroom, to get food and to bathe. When he was out of his room for food, he could feel Slash's eyes boring into his back, waiting for Axl to give him some sign to come to him. But Axl ignored him and kept on continuing moving about in the kitchen.
He couldn't bear to look at Slash. To look at the marks that he had left on that beautiful,loving face. He didn't mean to hurt him, he just wanted Slash to be quiet, to stop pushing him for more. In Axl's mind, him and Slash were not together,so he could do whatever he wanted. He knew Slash wanted more but Axl wasn't ready. It was to much,Slash's love was pure and passionate and Axl couldn't give him that.
He didn't love Slash. It was only lust. Normally, Axl would just screw a girl and chuck her out when he had his fill. But Slash was different,Axl couldn't get enough of him. He wanted Slash but at the same time he wanted to hurt him. Hurt him for making Axl feel this way, hurt him for getting under his skin.
Axl lay on his bed,flipping through random TV channels, he couldn't get into any of them. He couldn't concentrate. He had watched all the films in his room, wrote a couple of new songs and read a few books. He'd had a shower and was dressed, since he went out for an interview with Izzy and Duff earlier that day. Now, he was bored.
“Axl, we're going out for lunch, you coming?”Izzy's voice came from the other side of the wooden door after he knocked softly. Axl rolled his eyes and sighed before he got off of his bed and walked to the door,opening it, he came face to face with Izzy.
“So are you coming or not? We have no food in the house, thanks to out greedy fucker of a drummer.” Izzy smirked when Steven defended himself miserably from the other side of the living room. Axl had to admit, he was hungry but that meant spending time around a table with Slash.
Axl saw Duff,Steven and Izzy's pleading faces and caved.”Fine, c'mon lets go then.”Izzy breathed a sigh of relief and grabbed his and Axl's jackets before they followed,Duff, Steven and Slash out of the house.
He stayed and walked with Izzy, keeping clear of Slash as much as he could. Slash was chatting with Duff, chuckling softly now and then after Duff told him a joke. Steven was at the other side of Slash, telling him about his latest conquest.
“....the stuff she did with her tongue,man, it was like nothing I had seen before.”Steven laughed and Duff high-fived him. Slash slapped his hand too and continued chatting with Duff.
Out of the corner of his eye, Axl stole a look at Slash, his face had cleared a lot but there was some fading bruises still on his cheek and the cut was fading also. He could hardly see Slash because of his long curtain of curly hair that always covered his face.
“Why do you hide your face,Slash?” Axl asked the caramel skinned man as he wiped the hair away from his eyes and big brown eyes looked back up at him. Such pretty eyes they were.
“I don't like people seeing the real me. It's my cover,y'know?”Slash took a drag from his cigarette,snuggling closer to Axl's chest.
“I understand,”Axl kissed his forehead,”I really do.”
Axl snapped out of his flashbacks when Izzy told them that they had arrived at the small,local Café. He followed the rest of them in and to a small table. He found himself sitting the opposite of Slash, who was sitting next to Duff. Izzy was next to him and Steven was at the end, chatting with Duff about what to get.
“I can't choose between eggs and chips or sausages and chips.” Steven whined, complaining that it was to hard to choose. Slash gave Steven a smile.
“How about we flip a coin?”Slash suggested, Steven and Duff agreed. Digging into his pocket, Slash took out coin and explained it to Steven.
“Heads, eggs wins and tails sausages wins.”Steven nodded,”Tails, I pick tails.” He said and leaned back into the chair,eyes following the coin as Slash flipped it into the air. Axl watched too, eyes following it as it landed back into his hand.
Slash looked down at the coin,”Tails wins,man.” Steven chuckled and called over a waiter,”Thanks,Slash.”
“What can I get you?” He asked the band, taking out a small and pen.“1 sausages and chips and a lemonade,please.”Steven said first,interrupting Slash when he opened his mouth to speak. Slash glared at him before he put up his and Duff's order.
“2 ham burgers and chips and 2 Cokes.”Slash leaned back after he gave the order, avoiding Axl at all times. Duff noticed the tension but not the reason so he decided to get Slash's mind off whatever was happening.
Meanwhile Izzy was giving his and Axl's order too,”2 full Sunday lunches and two Cokes.” Axl and Izzy were starving,”Your food will be here in about 5 minute tops, we aren't very busy today.” He gave them a smile and took the menus, taking the order to the kitchen.
They waited, Steven telling the same story to Axl and Izzy that he told Slash and Duff,” I didn't need to know the full details,Steve.”Axl scrunched his face and took a sip of his Coke.
“You asked the question and I gave you an answer. Right,Izz?” Steven looked at the taller man beside Axl and Izzy nodded, earning the 'look' from Axl. Izzy looked away,quickly joining the conversation that Slash and Duff were having.
“.....so then he turned to her and said paint my house!” Duff laughed as he finished his joke. Slash was the only person in the group who could understand his jokes and he chuckled.
Izzy wasn't listening, he was to busy trying to look at the purple and blue fading bruises on the guitarist's face, almost hidden by his hair. They had all noticed it and Slash just shrugged, saying he got drunk and passed out on his bedroom after some party.
Turning from Duff, Slash looked at Izzy,”Yeah,Izz?” The rhythm guitarist took a look at Slash's face,”What happened to your face? They are new bruises.”
Axl looked up at this,ignoring Steven and looked at Izzy then Slash.
Slash opened his mouth then shut it again. Then with a confident look he said,”I screwed this guy's girlfriend and he found us, got pissed off. He hit me, then we got into a fight. That's all.” He said calmly and Izzy nodded,”Be careful next time.”
Axl looked over at Slash, who was in return, looking at him straight back. Slash's look was desperate but angry at the same time. Axl looked away when the waiter came over and gave them their food.
“Thanks,”Slash muttered, as he slowly ate.
Later that night Slash was in his bed, sleeping soundly when he heard his door being kicked open then it was slammed shut again. He woke and looked around in the darkness but saw nothing but he knew that someone was there,”Who's there.”
He heard footsteps come closer to the bed and the sound of shoes being kicked off. A leather jacket his the ground and then there was silence.
Suddenly he found himself pinned to the bed and the smell of coconut and alcohol. It was an addicting scent,”Axl? What are you doing in here?”He asked,leaning his head on the pillows. He heard a small chuckle from the body that was on top of him.
“Slash?” Axl breathed into his ear, the liquor slighting slurring his speech. Slash's eyes closed and he arched up into the body.”Yes,Axl?”Slash responded, forcing himself not to touch the other man.
Axl's fingers played with his hair and he stoked it, all while he nuzzled his neck, like he was hiding from everyone else in the world, like that was the only place that he was safe at.
“I-I miss you,”Axl answered, voice slightly muffled from Slash's skin and hair. Slash made a small content noise.”I can't sleep without out you.”Axl would've never said this when he was sober. Slash started to like drunk Axl, he was honest. He wasn't hiding behind violence or the walls that he had built over the years. He was his Axl right now, not a fake.
Axl kissed along Slash's jawline and up to his cheek, placing soft,small kisses on his cuts and bruises. Slash closed his eyes,finally he gave in and placed his hands on Axl's hips, his thumbs caressing the skin under his t-shirt.
“Mine.”Axl mumbled against Slash's skin, his long pale fingers leaving his hair and stroked over his arms. His lips left his cheek and he kissed the corner of his mouth then his long tongue poked out and licked along Slash's full bottom lip.
“You're mine,Slash. No-one else's.” Axl growled and Slash moaned, the words overtaking him. The chance to belong to Axl was all that Slash wanted. He wanted to be his and for Axl to belong to him too.Axl moved off of Slash and curled at his side, burying his face back to the crook of Slash's neck. Slash pulled the singer closer and he felt Sleep take him again.
His eyes got heavier and he could see that Axl was the same,”Don't leave?” Slash asked him with a yawn. Axl kissed his arm,”I wont. I promise.”