Categories > Celebrities > My Chemical Romance > I brought you my bullets, you brought me your love.3 Reviews
Mikey seems so much happier around this girl, I just hope that she doesn't hurt him. That's one of the reasons we made this stupid no girls pact, we have 3 reasons for this pact.
Reason 1: Heartbreak
Every time we've ever dated it's always ended in heartbreak. None of us can handle when a relationship ends, a prime example of this is me. When I broke up with my long term girlfriend ,Jess, 5 months ago, I drank my troubles away and I became addicted to drugs. It's like her love was my drug, she kept me sane. Then one day she left, a note was in my apartment which read:
You know I love you so much and I never wanted us to end ,but I can't do this anymore. I'm so sorry, I love you baby. I really do. Don't look for me, it will only hurt you as well as me. Bye Gee.
I've never loved a girl since, it broke me apart. From the inside out my whole body was breaking down but I still haven't moved on. I just, I love her so much. But that's my reason exactly.
Reason 2: Jealousy
A great example of this is Frank. Last year Frank had a girlfriend ,Lucy, she was a flirt but Frank was so in love that he couldn't see it. I remember once Lucy was crying so I went to comfort her, I was with Jess at the time, Frank came in and knocked me to the floor. He threw punches at my face telling me I was a "stupid dickhead" and that "I was only jealous that I had a stupid bitch like Jess"
That's when I lost it and that brings us to ...
Reason 5: The Fight
The fight is something that happens with all of us ,even Ray, it tears us apart. One of the biggest examples was with a young girl called Katie, Mikey never met her and neither had Frank. Ray thought it would be sensible to introduce her to me first, he fell greatly in love with her and then believed that I was trying to take her away from him. We had a huge argument and fight over this one girl and then he it broke into a huge fight between us all. None of us would speak for weeks over this one girl.
The other 2 reasons are pointless as we never talk about those two, we only relate it to 1,2&5.
That's why we invited The bro code.
It's a stupid thing but I know when to stop it and right now feels like the time. I don't want my brother feeling the way I have, he's my little bro and I will make him happy no matter what the cost is. We are all brothers but Mikey is my little brother, we grew up together but like the other two we've been there for each other through thick and thin.
I feel bad just leaving my Mom without any notice. Maybe I should try ring her, it can't do any harm.
"Manda? Where the fuck are you?! Do you know how worried I am! Get home I miss you!"
She misses me? What happened about the lashings?
"Y-you miss me? What about you saying that you will... Beat me"
"Oh honey! What are you talking about of course I won't hurt you! What made you think about something stupid like that. Wait, I have your tracker on. I coming to get you"
I quickly checked my phone and saw the red tracker beep on the back.
"NO! Leave me here! I don't want to come home with you! I wanna stay here with Mikey"
Before my Mom had time to reply I threw my phone against the wall smashing it to pieces, I ripped off the back and threw the battery in the garbage.
"Manda, is everything ok?"
The familiar voice of Gerard approached me.
"Umm yeah just family problems"
He slowly walked over and sat next to me on the couch.
"So, I don't really know you very well. I know you're name is Amanda Louise Yendle, that's pretty much it"
I'd never had anyone ask me about my life, where do I even begin.
"Umm, ok. What do you want to know? I mean I know pretty much everything about you guys but theres not much to know about me"
"Well... Umm... Tell me about your family life"
I might as well tell him some of the truth, not all of it...
"Um well originally I grew up in LA with my aunt, then about a year or two ago she dated a rockstar. She wouldn't tell us who but she left so I went to live with my Mom again, life is ok with my Mom but 5 months ago my aunt came home and told us that she couldn't go on dating this guy. She loved him so much but... I don't wanna say anymore"
Tears were starting to form in my eyes, I couldn't help but try hold them back.
"It's fine, you don't have to say anymore to me if you don't want to, what's your aunts name?"
"Jess. Jessica Marie Bale"
"Jess. Jessica Marie Bale"
Jess. My Jess? My baby girl? Oh God, I need to find her. I need to tell her everything is ok. Amanda was sent to help me. She's my guardian angel.
Do I tell her? Do I tell her that the mystery guy was me? I have to, it's the only way I can have my girl back. I've never thrown the note away but the guys don't know that, they will never know that.
"Umm Amanda... What if I told you I know who the guy was... Would you... Let him know where she lives?"
It took her a few seconds to think about it before she was writing an address and phone number on a piece of paper that lay in front of us.
"Go get her Gee"
Before I left I leaned across and gave her a small, friendly kiss on the cheek.
"Thank you so much Amanda"
I ran out of the door to the nearest pay phone calling the number on the paper as quickly as possible.
"Hello? Who is this?"
Oh God, it's her. It's really her.
"G-Gerard? How d-did you get my number?"
"Umm let's just say I know a person"
I must sound like such a creep right now, I feel like a gangsta or something like that.
" You know a person? Oh my, Gerard Arthur Way, you haven't changed one bit"
It was such a relief to hear her happy again. I miss her, but I can't say that. I will sound needy.
"So, how would you like to meet in person. Amanda tells me that you're apparently living in..."
My paper was in my hand so I had a clear view of her address.
"Newcastle in the UK. My band will be there in a week for our UK tour, maybe we can grab a coffee?"
I remember that place, it's dark and dirty. Not one of the nicest places to be.
"Wait, Amanda? Amanda is with you! Her Mother is worried sick, you need to send her home. Please Gerard"
Send her home? Is she a stowaway, Mikey didn't tell us why she was staying. We are like kidnappers. How old is she?! She still lives with her mother.
"Wait, Jess. How old is Amanda? "
"Well if it's just been her birthday then that makes her... 17"
17?! She's far too young for Mikey! What do I say?
"Oh shit, ok. Here's the deal. If you let me come see you I will bring Amanda with me, deal?"
"Ok deal, bye Gee. Love you."
What have I done?
These past couple of days with Amanda has been amazing. We know everything about each other and have so much in common.
Today sucks. Frank has took her to a Blink-182 concert and managed to get them backstage, why cant he see that I saw her first. Even when she's not there I feel, heartbroken.
Usually there are 5 stages that we feel, this is why we made The Bro Code
Gerard was the one to talk toys about it after what he went through with Jess. He was the best example of the 5 stages.
Gerard met Jess at a concert. She had came to one of our concerts and was punched in the face, she was sent straight to backstage for first aid. That's when he saw her. Gerard asked for her number and they went on a few dates until he finally asked her out, obviously she said yes. He describes it as love at first sight.
Me and Jess became great friends, she was like a sister to me but Gerard began to grow jealous. Some days he'd come in and tell me that I should keep away from her and stop flirting, sometimes he wouldn't talk to me.
Rapidly Gee became obsessed with Jess. Every day he would call her at least 3 times asking if she was ok and asking where she was. All of us were a little freaked out and thought of it as stalking but Gerard denied it.
When we all told Gee that he was becoming too obsessed over this one girl he would lash out. We would receive a lot of verbal abuse from him for no reason at all sometimes, I'd go to his house and find picture frames shattered and things destroyed. It was horrible.
Very soon Gerard became depressed, the day he found the note from Jess was the day he was going to propose. He doesn't think I know that he kept the note but I've read it over and over again while he sleeps. Alcohol and drugs soon became his new lifestyle, every time he felt remotely sad he could drink away his troubles. In the extreme cases he would try commit suicide, I never wanted to see my brother like this.
This is what love does to someone...