I was hearing the song Yellow by Coldplay and thought of this its cheesy as shit i know cx But idk i thought of it and wrote it.
I woke up from a nightmare in the middle of the night, knocking down my lamp next to me making me even more scared than i already was. I sat there in my bed nervously for about 5 minutes.
Then i thought of him.
The only thing that pretty much kept me alive and killed me at the same time.
I stayed alive because he convinced me i was important to him but killed me because he didn't realize how much i was in love with him.
And all the bad dreams went away.
I felt safe.
I suddenly hear a knock on the door.
My immediate reaction is to throw my pillow at the door. (like that'll help if it was a rapist or something)
I hear the door open slowly and i just makes me even more nervous.
I finally see the dark shadow of my younger brother... and there’s something behind him... Frank. The one person i told all my secrets to, the person i loved the most.
"Gerard?" Mikey says walking towards me "I heard crashing coming from in here... Are you okay?"
"Yeah i'm fine... i just woke up from a nightmare"
"Oh okay, well im going back to bed." Mikey said as if nothing had happened walking to his room.
"Gee you fucking scared me... What's wrong?" Frank said noticing how depressed i looked.
"First off what the hell are you doing here?”
“Oh umm... Mikey invited me at the last minute he said you were fine with it”
“Well no i was not informed”
“Oh well now you know” he laughed for a bit, god his laugh was perfect. “But returning to our previous subject what’s wrong Gee you don’t seem like yourself lately”
Thats because im in love with you and you won’t notice Frank!
“I’m really fine... I just haven’t gotten much rest thats all”
“Gee we've been best friends since we were kids and still shitted ourselves, I think I can tell when your not OhFuckingKay!”
“I guess all the hate is just getting to me... I'm not as good as you at ignoring my surroundings” while i say that i think of how in fucking sake he has not noticed i'm in love with him.
“Is that a compliment? It didn’t really feel like it.”
“I just wana go to sleep... I’m really tired. Sorry.” I say trying my best to stop talking about the previous subject.
“Oh umm okay... Well can I sleep here... With you?”
I blushed slightly at the thought of me and Frankie sleeping together, thank god we're in the dark.
We both laid there knowing the other was not asleep.
“Gee... you awake?” a soothing whisper came from Frankie.
“I know you don’t really don’t wana talk about why your sad but... I want you to know your really important-”
“Frankie... Im really tired... sorry” i said interrupting him
“No Gee let me finish”
“Gee your fucking important to me... don’t listen to all those guys who pick on you, don’t let their stupid words get to you, you're perfect in so many levels...” he smiled and tried to hide but was unsuccessful i smiled back and let him continue. “Gee look at the stars, Look how they shine for you.”
With that said i fell asleep peacefully and had no more nightmares. Of course it was because Frankie was there. When ever he was near me all my bad dreams, bad thoughts, just went away.
God if only he knew.