*holds hand in air* just give me a chance to explain!!
OH MY GOD I AM SO SORRY OH MY GOD OH MY GOD
so erm... Okay I'll just explain.
So Uh I first listened to mcr at the end of last year (doesn't mean I'm any less of a fan!!) and it was right when I needed them.
This last year I've been dipping in and out of depresstion, confusion and just plain 'I can't be bothered with life' fazes, but 'round october/november time was when I first cut. And other cuts coming after that. I just hated most things about my life and me.
Lots of things where going on, tests at school, frustration at home and just a whole lot of negative thoughts running through my mind. The assholes at school not making it any easier.
So shit happened, people noticed, got a talk for my guidance teacher (uuuugh) and a talk with my mom (uuuuuuuugh) and people have mostly fogotten it.
Like it was just a bleep in the system.
But it's not a bleep. I still want to cut. Still have negative thoughts. They just think it was a spur of the moment thing.
Also mom knows about the bisexual thing and things it's just a faze. hahaha no.
So like I'm actually reeeeeaaaaally sorry about the wait but I will try and at least start writing the next chapter soon - I'm still thinking about how exactly it should end.
Bye bye for now :)
Hmmmm I wonder who will actually read this. I bet you have better things to be doing then hearing my excuses.