Frankie's funeral.. :*( You will need councelling after this chapter I'm sure of it..
But I felt your sadness too..
Who knew words could truly demolish you?
anyways chapter 7 of 8..
Sing me to sleep..
If I could be with you tonight I would sing you to sleep never let them take the light behind your eyes
I love you..
Forever and ever,Frankie.Forever and ever.
I always will,Gee.Remember that.
Don't ever forget me.
I'll never forget you.I promise.
He then closed his eyes for his eternal slumber.
That woke me.
My phone shoked me with my new ringtone,The World Is Ugly
"Hello?"I sniffed,wiping my stray tears away.
"It's Frankies funeral today.You comin?"
"Sure"I say,tears on the horison again
"I'll be there at 3pm ok.You have 3 hours."Mikey informs then hangs up.
Great.As if losing him wasn't enough.Now I have to bury him too.
I shift myself off the couch and to the bathroom.
I remove my clothes and step in the shower,turning on the hot water.
It's heat reminded me of Frankie.His body heat next to mine every night.Hugging me closely.Never letting go.
I trn off the hot water and curl into a ball in the wet shower.
I was always reminded of that night.
3 years ago that happened.3 years ago I lost him.My angel,sent from heaven,to protect me.
Everyone waited a long time for me to recover enough to hold the funeral.
Took me 3 years to nearly get over it.Now it's all flooding back.
I look at myself in the bathroom mirror.
My pale white torso.
My heart could be heard pounding for miles.I felt the bile and acid rise in my throat.
I quickly bent over the toilet and threw up.
I then shifted off the floor and looked in the mirror as I applyed my eyeliner.
My doorbell chimed that 2 bar tune.
I slowly proggressed down stairs and looked at myself in the big mirror.
I had on a black t-shirt and a black military jacket over the top.
The black Parade,as I called it.
My hair had been cropped short and newly dyed snow white.
I answered the door.
"Gee!"Mikey greets,trying to be happy.
"Lets just go Mikey."I say,stepping out the door and closing and locking it behind me.
We walk to the car in silence,the only sound is our shoes hitting the sidewalk after every step.
After the funeral,We all drove home in silence.
Well,the only sound was Alicia's cooing to 3 year old baby Sadie.
"Whose a cutie baby?"She'd ask teasingly before uncovering her eyes and making Sadie giggle.
I saw it all in the rear view mirror.
I then looked over at Mikey,who had his eyes on the road.
I smiled.First time since Frankie died.I was smiling.
My brother really does make me proud.
An adoring wife.A beautiful baby girl.A family.
My thoughts were interrupted by Mikey saying to me
"Oh! Right."I say,then open the door.
I give Mikey a quick hug,then blow a kiss to baby Sadie and get out of the car.
I walk to the front door and unlock it.
A bottle of Sleeping pills.
I unscrewed the cap and tipped the whole lot into my hand.
22 pills altogether.19 for the years I've lived.
3 for the years without Frankie.
I tip back my head as I pour the pills into my mouth quickly.
I feel the unconciousness drawing itself over me as I collapse to the ground.
My heart is now breaking into a million tiny pieces.
You know what to do..
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