Yes, yes late again I know.
I looked up at Devon as her eyes widened at what I had just told her. I’m pregnant. Fucking 16 years old and already pregnant. Now everyone will think I’m a slut. Whether they tell me that to my face or not I still now that’s what they think. I’ve only just moved into London and so far I’ve managed to get caught having sex with my brother’s best friend, make them both hate each and now I’m fucking pregnant… Great.
“Cassie, you’re really fucking pregnant.”
“Yeah Devon, I kind of noticed.” Even in a time like this I can remain sarcastic. I don’t know if my sarcasm was audible in my voice though, as it is so rough after days of tears.
“C’mon Cass, this is serious” She said.
I stood up abruptly. “You think I don’t know that already?”
Brushing past Devon, I make my way into my room and flop down onto my bed, lying face down. Believe me, I feel like crying, but I don’t think there are any tears left in me. This past month has been so difficult that I am now unable to cry anymore. I hear Devon’s footsteps shuffling along the floor and stopping when she reaches my room and sits on the edge of my bed.
“What are you planning on doing about it.” She says. Wow, that question really hit me. What was I going to do? Have an abortion? Put it up for adoption?... Keep it?
I sat up and frowned. “Well?” Devon urged me for an answer.
“I don’t know.” I paused for a moment. “I mean, I'm only 16 there’s no way I could look after a baby. Even if I wanted to can you imagine-“
The end of that sentence would’ve been “imagine what Dan would think.” I can’t begin to think about how disappointed he would be with me. Oh God, as if I hadn’t fucked up things enough already.
I need to go tell Phil. We need to make a decision together on what to do about… about our baby. Wow. Me and Phil’s baby. Climbing off my bed and pulling on a hoodie, I made my way to the door. Devon began to follow me.
“Where are you going?” She called out to me.
“I have to tell Phil. He needs to know so we can come to a decision on what we should do with our baby.” I smiled slightly at the thought of carrying Phil’s child.
Before Devon can say anything else I ran out the door, shutting it behind me. At a quick pace, I make my way to Phil’s apartment to tell him about his child that I am carrying. The child that will change both of our lives dramatically depending on what we choose to do with it. I will need to sit him down and gently drop this fricking bombshell on him. Ok, at the door of his building I buzz the intercom and wait for his voice to come out of it.
“Hello?” I hear Phil say.
“Phil, it’s me, Cassie.” I reply. “I really need to see you.”
“I was actually just about to phone you. You can come up now.” A little buzz vibrates through the intercom and I step into the building. Deep breaths Cassie. I was only a few feet away from the door when it opened and Phil stepped out into the hall.
“There’s somebody here who wants to talk to us.” He says in a slightly grim voice.
I frown and then step into the apartment to find Dan is standing in the front room, hands in his pockets and shifting about awkwardly. My jaw drops slightly and I can’t help but stare at his wounded nose, which is obviously from Phil’s recent rage.
“What are you doing here?” I ask him in a shaky voice.
He fidgets a bit before answering. “I came to apologise for everything I said to the both of you.” Dan was apologising? Surely he should be waiting for me to say sorry to him. “After being able to clear my head, I’ve realised that I was being stupid and should’ve been able to see that…you too clearly love each other.”
“Took your time.” Phil said, from were he stood leaning against the door.
“How come it took you so long to believe that in the first place?” I say, ignoring Phil.
“Well” he continues “walking in on the two of you having sex wasn’t exactly the best way to tell me about your relationship.” He gave a slight grimace before shaking his head to get back on to a less touchy memory. “Anyway, what I’m trying to say is that I’m sorry for the way I reacted and… I accept the fact that you two are together.”
I smile and say to him. “You have no idea how long I have been waiting for you to say that.” With blurred eyes, I quickly walk over to him and wrap my arms around the brother I had missed for so long. “I’m sorry for lying to you Dan.”
He held me close. “It’s ok, Cassie.”
“Well.” Phil said. “I guess this means you can move back in Dan and everything will be ok again.”
I smiled even though I knew that it wasn’t over. I had to tell them both that I was pregnant so that we could figure out what was going to be done about it.
“I think this calls for video games and a pizza.” Phil grinned. He grabbed his wallet and keys from the coffee table. “I’ll go and get us the food while you can just start up the games until I get back.” He kissed me quickly, ignoring Dan’s looks and opened the door. “Oh and yeah sorry for the nose Dan” He laughed before leaving the apartment.
Me and Dan laughed and I sat on the couch as he switched on the X Box. I began to wonder about Dan being an uncle if I kept my baby? I don’t know if he would like the idea or if it would start another argument. Phil too. Imagine Phil being a father. I had no idea if he would want kids or not, never mind so soon into a relationship. I didn’t realise that my eyes were watering again until Dan turned around.
“Cassie? What’s up? Why are you crying?” I couldn’t answer as my throat had become dry. “I think it’s time for you to start being happy again. What’s up?”
“I- I don’t know what to do. I o- only found out today an- and I didn’t know if I should say anything or not.” I sobbed uncontrollably.
“Slow down, what are you talking about?” He frowned putting a hand on my shoulder.
“Dan I- I’m pregnant.”
Waiting for Dan to start yelling again I was surprised when he simply stared at me. “Well say something.” I said.
He looked down at the couch as though he was thinking really hard about what to say next and what he chose took me completely by surprise. “No matter what you chose to do Cassie, I’ll be here to support you.”
“Thank you Dan. You have no idea how much it means to me to hear you say that.” I collapsed onto his shoulders and he wrapped his arms around me. It felt just like when we were little kids. If I was ever upset I could always go to Dan to make me feel better. Except this problem would take a lot more than a hug and a few comforting words. I would need Dan’s help every step of the way.
A/N Ok so I've already started the next chapter so hopefully I will be updating fairly quickly. Also I am holding auditions for an MCR fic so if you could audition for that and maybe tell more MCR fans to audition because I will need a lot of people. Yeah so r and r this please and audition for my other story :3 xxx