"What's wrong?" Jackson asked, rubbing his face even further into my neck. I had to admit, I wasn't really that comfortable with it. But I was scared to push him away. He could already tell something was bothering me, why would I want to confirm his suspicions by moving away from him?
"N-Nothing." I told him shakily. My nerves had been all over the place since the kiss...Logan was the only boy I had on my mind. I couldn't concentrate on Jackson: only the fact that I didn't want him to find out. I didn't mean to cheat on him. And it wasn't really cheating, just one-two innocent kisses, right? It meant nothing. So, why did I get butterflies the more I thought about it? Why did I want to kiss Logan again? Was I going straight to hell?
"Are you sure?" He began lightly kissing my neck, sending shivers down my spine. He knew that was how to get what he wanted. My neck was my weakness. Kiss me there and I'm like putty in your hands. "Because you've been acting really, really weird lately." I bit down on my tongue, trying not to do anything but concentrate on myself. No boys, just me.
"I'm fine." I said, rolling over, so I was on top of him, pressing our foreheads together. "School's just tiring me out." It wasn't a complete lie. School was tiring, so much work in school, then homework out of school. What kind of sick place was it?
"I told you it was a bad idea." Jackson whispered against my lips.
"No it wasn't." I defended. "I like high school." No more conversation, Jackson kissed me and I knew that was the end of it. He hated it when I talked about school. He hated high school. I had no idea why, he had never been to high school to have a reason to hate it. But I had to bring up the subject for him to stop the talking.
"So, you busy Friday night?" Jackson asked. He rolled us back over, so he was on top, and began nibbling at my neck once again. Sometimes my tricks didn't always work.
"Yeah." I replied, biting down on my bottom lip. "I told Logan I'd go to the football game at school and then there's this party and I-"
"Why are you always so busy with Logan?" Jackson asked. He sat up on my bed and his eyes pierced down at me. "All I ever get these days off you is Logan this and Logan that." I equaled his gaze, knowing exactly where it was going.
"Is it so wrong that I have friends now, Jack?" I hissed, sitting up, too. "You're not the only person in my life, you need to let me have some sort of distance."
"How about a permanent one?" Jackson stood up and headed towards the door.
"W-What?" I stuttered, shocked at what he said. It hadn't taken too long for my brain to process it.
"You heard me. If you can't fit me in, don't try." Jackson walked out the door and I was left sitting on the bed in shock. When I heard the door slam shut, tears started to form in my eyes. How could he just break up with me like that? I hadn't done anything wrong, had I? Of course not. I just wanted some freedom to spend time with my friend. And it looked like I got it.
"It'll be okay, sweetie." Mom cooed, stroking my hair. The two of us were stretched out on the sofa. I had my head in her lap, tears still falling. "Break ups are just a part of life."
"B-But..." What was the use? Nothing I said, nothing I did, was ever going to get Jackson back. He officially hated me.
"Mel, baby girl, you just have to accept it and move on. Focus on something else for a while. You still going out on Friday?" Mom was right. I had to think of something else. I had that party to look forward to. And I still had Logan and Tori.
"Yeah." I sniffled, sitting up. Mom ran her fingers through my mess of a hair and I wiped my eyes dry. I gave her a kiss and left the room, going back upstairs to mine.
I opened up my laptop and logged into my blog. The tears had stopped falling, but my heart was still hurting. No matter what, though, I had to get the truth about the break up out there before it all got twisted around by the press. I'd been there before. It hurt to have your story turned against you, so I didn't want that pain again.
Dear my amazing readers, and people I'm turning to for support,
Mel here. So, this isn't easy for me to say, but I am officially single now. Me and Jackson Night (Asshole) broke up earlier today for reasons I don't want to get into. To me, it's stupid. Just Jackson being a childish little dick, which he is. But, I'm not going to stay hung up on him. In fact, I'm quite glad he did break up with me. Now I had more time to spend on myself, my family and my friends.
Oh, that reminds me. This Friday I am going to my first High school football game, how exciting is that? I can't wait. Afterwards, my friend's invited me to a party, too. I'm really happy, something to take my mind off HIM.
Love you guys, Mel Ross
I clicked add to blog and it replied with 'message sent.' There, now my break up was worldwide. Well, it was to anyone who read my blog. Quite a few people did, actually. It was quite flattering.
Then my phone went off. I looked down at the caller ID; Tori. I smiled a little, wondering what she could possibly want.
"OH MY GOD!" She yelled down the phone. "I just read your blog." That was fast. "Is it true? Are you and Jackson Night officially over? I CAN NOT BELIEVE THIS! This is perfect! Now you and Logan can finally be together. Now we can have a happy ending for everyone! Well we can once Jayce asks me out, but YAY! You and Logan are so cute together, mind. You'll make a great couple and everything and-"
"TORI!" I screamed and she shut up. "I don't want to date Logan, we're just friends, okay?"
"FINE!" She shouted back. "But, I'll have you know, you are breaking a young boys heart here, Mel. Logan LIKES you!"
"Well-I...Uh..." There was no denying that he liked me, and maybe I did like him a bit. Just a bit, though. "OKAY! Maybe I will be, but I just want to enjoy being single for a while, okay?"
"Okay-hang on a minute. WHAT MOM?" I heard Tori shout away from the phone. I couldn't help but laugh at her. "UGH! I gotta go, my bratty cousins are here. I'll see you soon, bye."
"Bye." I giggled, hanging up the phone. That was the great thing about Tori, she was all in your face one minute and laughing along with you the next. She was a really good friend, too. When people whispered about me in the halls at school, I know Tori's the one who shuts them up for me later. I really hoped we'd stay friends for a long while. I needed someone like her around.