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12:18.

For everyone who's lost someone they hadn't met. For everyone who's been lost. Mikeys_glasses, if you're still reading posts...

Category: Poetry - Rating: G - Genres: Angst - Characters:  - Published: 2013/01/18 - Updated: 2013/01/19 - 316 words

Reviews

• 12:18.

  (#) SyraStrange 2013-01-19 12:08:09 AM

  You can't do this to me. I don't. I'm not even fucking kidding right now, I talked to her when she first came to this goddamn site and she told me my shitty stories inspired her to start her own. I didn't even know how to react, so I hid. I was scared that after she would have talked to me that her little bit of inspiration wasn't all that. I was a coward.
  
  I can't breathe cos I don't know how to even begin. Your words caught me up in tangles of my own and I just - I can't even describe how fast this broke me down.
  
  It's too soon. Still. I want to thank you for writing this. You're an amazing poet, I would go on but I can't right now. I'm too fucked up right now. Maybe another day.
  
  -S
  
  P.S. - I've heard many good things about you from Azure. He didn't lie.

  Author's response

  I'm sorry. I just...I don't really know how to react. I've never...this thing hasn't happened and I wanted so badly to do something. But, I can't do anything...I wish I could've known her.
  
  I didn't mean for it to be broken...I just was wishing badly for her to see it and read it.
  
  Maybe I'm still hoping. Maybe she hasn't swallowed the pills yet and she's sitting in bed staring up...if she is, I just want her to know I care.
  
  If you would like me to take it down, I don't mind. You don't need to tell me that. Honestly, thank you but I can understand where your mind is. I don't know if I've been in such a mental fuck as of right now. I can't respond to you like I normally would and I know you get it.
  
  I'm sure you weren't a coward.
  
  Maybe she's still out there, waiting for someone to lead her back.
  
  I hope.

• 12:18.

  (#) SyraStrange 2013-01-19 12:55:44 AM

  I am going to save this and tape it to my bedroom wall. I'm fine. This is - why would you take this down? I want to roll around with it and just. Pretend it's something she's going to see and that she means something. That she shouldn't have - shouldn't be thinking - should be out - that she deserves to live. I'm a mess and she would probably be shaking her head at how ridiculous this looks, crying over a fucking computer.
  
  I'm still hanging on to that last shred of hope too.
  
  

  Author's response

  I don't know...I just didn't want to have anyone else hurt over this. She'd probably be shaking her head over me...I never even knew her. She just...I read her reviews around and I admired her humorous username. I can't believe...I just...I hope she's still out there, too.
  
  If you want to talk, here are my emails: comecrashingdown@live.com/autumn.sullen@gmail.com

• 12:18.

  (#) AdnarimSmada 2013-01-19 01:43:00 AM

  She promised me she wouldn't get to this point. She promised me. I remember making her the time we pulled an all nighter in gmail chat. It was like she was with me at my dad's house. Damn it, I already lost Lornaigh to this. I really hope she's in a hospital somewhere right now or someone caught her in the act.
  
  -Adnarim Smada

  Author's response

  I...I'm sorry that I never got the chance to help her or even know her. Just, all these signs of bleeding hearts...I could've helped her, couldn't I of?
  
  I...Lornaigh was extraordinary. As I'm sure Anna was. Let's hope the ambulance came and pumped out her pills...depression is such a terrible disease.

• 12:18.

  (#) BipolarUnicorn 2013-01-19 06:19:10 AM

  What? No. Nonononononono. I'm not believing it. She wouldn't do this. She would would she? I go to sleep for a few hours and I wake up and automatically come on here and no. It can't be true. I read her post ad I won't believe it, I can't. Anna was one of the first stories I read on here. I was a coward and wouldn't talk to her. I-I can't do this right now, not now. I can't believe this. Gosh, I can't even put words together right now.
  
  She can't do this. I need hope.
  
  Abbie xx

  Author's response

  Maybe...maybe she didn't swallow the pills yet. Maybe she's just staring at the ceiling waiting for someone to help her.
  
  I don't want her to be gone. I never even had the pleasure of knowing her.
  
  Hope.

• 12:18.

  (#) OhmyGee 2013-01-19 06:53:02 PM

  You really know how to write
  
  I still can't believe she ...anyone could do this.
  
  Maybe she didn't swallow the pills. If she did, then I know she must be feeling blissful by now. My friend who had an NDE tried many times to let go
  
  I never even knew Anna, but, damn...
  
  I don't know whether to call her brave for doing something I don't know how to do, or to call her a coward (respectivly) because she was able to go that easily.
  
  I really do wish I was able to get to know her. I just... she is probably the fourth person that I knew who left to this.
  
  Thank you for taking the time to write your poetry.
  
  Lets just hope.

  Author's response

  Well, I don't know about that...I think you're far better.
  
  I hope wherever she is, she is feeling happy. Is your friend alright now?
  
  I didn't know her either. I wish I could've, though.
  
  I'm not sure...a brave coward doesn't seem like it would suite her. Maybe she was just fucking lost.
  
  I...god.
  
  Thanks...I just had to do something.
  
  I hope she sees this if she hasn't gone through with it yet.

• 12:18.

  (#) 19206277382007 2013-01-19 07:00:25 PM

  I thought that she was already dead?
  
  http://www.ficwad.com/story/200372
  
  I don't know?
  
  -007

  Author's response

  No, I think she's...she...
  
  That must've been a joke because she commented on the page.
  
  And they sounded so absolutely alright with it.

• 12:18.

  (#) upinflames 2013-01-19 07:37:48 PM

  yeah...i remember video chatting that day. we all pretended she got run over by a horse. it was fun.
  
  fuck.
  -az

  Author's response

  That sounds like fun.
  
  She must've been someone to have all of you people care for her.
  
  She should be alive...she didn't deserve to catch this sickness.

• 12:18.

  (#) BipolarUnicorn 2013-01-19 07:51:37 PM

  This was beautiful by the way I forgot to tell you that, it was amazing.

  Author's response

  Thank you, Abby. I wish it wasn't only here because of a tragedy...

• 12:18.

  (#) Mirazal 2013-01-19 11:57:42 PM

  Oh.
  
  I just found this.
  
  I don't even know what to say right now.
  
  This is amazing. It's truly a piece of art, I think.
  
  It's a little soon, yeah. I'm not gonna get over this situation for a while.
  
  But no matter, I really liked it.

  Author's response

  Thanks, M.
  
  I was really hoping she hadn't gone through with it. And she sees the poem. But, most importantly, all you people who knew her and cared for her.
  
  I hope too badly.
  
  I wrote right after I read what she said. I was really hoping she'd be here still...
  
  Maybe someone did find her and she's in the hospital.

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