I would very much like to leave FicWad permanently.
I feel like crap writing this because honestly why would anyone even want to know my reasons? Just get out of here and don't come back, right?
But some of you kind of like me, I think, and this is just a heads up to all of you guys.
This site isn't my happy place anymore. I've made wonderful friends here that I still love so much and I'd love to meet up with later in life but I'm considering leaving. There are too many things on this site that I dislike but I can't change them, so might as well leave and not let those bother me.
It's kind of sad to me, because when I first started out, I looked at all of the users who've been here for a while and I thought, I'm going to be like that. There'll be new people who come here and they'll think I'm cool. (Lol. I can never be cool.) I couldn't even last a year, though. It must have been bad timing, because I came right when all the shit started going down.
I don't even know how to organize this note. (Gosh, I hate writing this because what if I change my mind and I come back and people call me attention-seeking or something? I'm so sorry, but whenever people make a big deal of leaving and then they come back it bugs me like nothing else.)
I think before I go I'd like to impart some words of wisdom or something, based on what I've observed from being on FicWad:
Fanfiction can be a wonderful thing. I find that it's a creative outlet for some kids, and if you like it, don't stop! Don't let anything stop you. Write what you want, as long as you put thought into it. Be creative and original with it! (Word of advice: if you're going to write self-inserts, don't go overboard with them. Just enough to satisfy your fangirl feels.)
I liked this place because people could be close and become friends. But there's a lot of trolling and fighting and rating down and arguments. Trolls, fuck off. It hurts to have something rated down for almost no reason. People fighting, get over yourselves. This needs to be a place where people can just feel good.
It's sad when there are such talented authors who often go unnoticed or don't get enough credit. Please, give everyone a chance, as much as possible.
About the stuff going down in the MCR section: this is the most spammed section on this site. I hate saying this but, if you need advice about everyday stuff, if you're going to post about it, do not do it in this section. If you're going to write about you or your life, do not do it in this section. If you're going to write poetry or song lyrics that aren't related to MCR, do not do it in this section. If you're going to do anything that was not inspired by or does not relate or have any fucking thing to do at all with MCR, do not post it in the MCR section.
If all of your friends are in the MCR section and you are either leaving this site or leaving this earth, that's probably the one time it doesn't annoy me to post about it in the MCR section. I feel like such a harsh cunt, but I understand that people make friends in that section and you need to write to them all at once. (I'm sorry for inserting my opinion back there. Moving back to wisdom.)
Don't wear your past on your sleeves. I know that a bunch of people here have been through absolute fucking shit, but that's not something you want to advertise about yourself all the time.
Don't be an asshole. I know I've been asshole-like so far in this note, and I'm sorry. It's a onetime thing. But do not, do NOT, be an asshole all the time because some people here are extremely sensitive. Words hurt more than some people know. This also goes along with don't start drama, because no one fucking wants that.
This escalated rather quickly. Sorry that I sound so angry.
But back to nice stuff.
Guys, you are all awesome. I know that some of you don't realize it. Some of you fucking hate yourselves. But I love you guys so much. You have so much potential and you can do such fucking awesome things with your life.
I'm sorry if you feel sad, or angry at me, or whatever. I never want anyone to ever have to feel bad.
I guess this is it. My run with FicWad was short but sweet.
If you want to keep in touch, firstname.lastname@example.org. Or my tumblr is mirazel.tumblr.com.
So long (and goodnight, to be horribly cliche).
p.s. and to be a total complete fucking hypocrite I'm gonna repost this in the MCR section.