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yours
its not me but you
flooding us
drowning us

i can feel it
pouring over me
a tidal wave of blood
of misery
of pain

the beads well up in the slit
roll away like tears
my eyes mirror your leg
i cannot feel it
not the pain of the steel
but i know it like my own

you abandon me
leave me to imagine the cruelty
my mind lies
whispering the worst to me
i feel it squeeze my chest
the terror

i hope for a reply
just a word to ease my suffering
to know you are here
you seek to spare me
but you spare me nothing
memories punish me
expose my mistakes
mistakes i have made again

yours
not mine
but it may as well be