part one of two for this chapter. hope you enjoy leave reviews ;D
I took his hand and let him lead his way to his parent's front door. He turned the knob and
we went in. His mother instantly greeted us with hugs.
"I've missed you two," she started. We both just look at each other and smiled. For a second
it felt like everything was all right, but then reality slipped through the cracks again and I
felt like telling his mom that her son was a no good cheating prick. Thankfully for him I
have more respect than that. Just then my sidekick started buzzing. Ryan sent me a text. Oh God
i thought. i knew i couldnt get mad right now. so i played it cool.
"Maddy I love your dress." she gasped.
"Thank you," I said as i smiled.
"Well let's go in and sit down. I want to hear all about what you two have been up to."
She lead us to the deck and we all got situated around a large oak table.
"Where's dad at?" Brendon asked.
"Work, where else?" she laughed,"So how's the new apartment?"
"It's going well, we're almost done decorating, Maddy's got quite the eye for interior design."
"Maybe you should do that instead of being a band manager." His mother joked.
"No, I'd miss all of the excitement and hanging out with all my boys."
"Madeline, don't you have any friends that are girls?" she asked, but it sounded a bit sour.
"Well I'm really close to my mom and actually my best friend Jade is going to be with us on the
"That's good, what will she be doing."
"Um mostly just being extra assistance, the boys can get a bit needy sometimes."
"Thats not true," Brendon responded acting like he was offended. We all laughed a bit. He smiled and for a second i felt a hint
of what i always had.
"Maddy are you okay? You seem to be a bit distant today," Brendon's mom asked in a concerning way.
"huh? oh yeah, im fine im just thinking about this two-day trip to LA i have to go on." Brendon gave me a weird look.
"What are you going to La for?" his mom asked.
"Well you know my older brother and my twin brother live in LA so my mom and i are going to visit him just for a couple of days."
"Oh that's sweet, you know i still havent met your parents."
"Yeah well my mom is busy right now. She's got my younger sister to worry about and she's going through a divorce."
"oh thats a shame Brendon never told me that your parents were going through a divorce."
"excuse me?" she asked extremely confused.
"she isnt divorcing my father."
"Nah, just her husband."
"oh i see. so you and your two brothers are from her first marriage and your sister is from her second."
"no my brother is from her first, my twin brother, my sister, and i are from the second and Christopher is the guy she is divorcing."
"wow your mother sure does go through husbands."
"I'm sorry?" uh-uh she did not just insult my mother.
"well all i meant was that three husbands she is a lot. dont you think it shows shes just a little careless?"
"No Not At All." i could feel my voice start to raise. Brendon put his hand on my knee as to calm me down.
"Just calm dont dear i didnt mean any harm." she added.
"Maddy, babe just calm down," Brendon pleaded.
"No i wont just calm down. You just insulted the women that gave me birth and made assumptions that she was some kind
of skanky whore. Well if you would like to know, her first husband did angel dust so im sure you can understand why she
didnt want to keep her three year old son around that. My father was the only good thing that happened to her and he died.
The other dickface used to hit me and my sister. And she never realised we went through that kind of abuse until she walked
in on him raping my eleven year old sister."
"Well you just have quite the dirty mouth dont you?" she asked in disgust.
"Oh no, thats it. I'm fucking outta here." i pushed through the slider glass door, stomped through the kitchen and the hallway
and slammed open the front door so hard it almost broke off the hinges. I heard Brendon calling after me.
"Maddy, MADDY! WAIT!"
"What Brendon? You know what? you didnt even stick up for me in there."
"what was i supposed to do? She's my mom Madeline I cant just yell at her like you did."
" No obviously you cant but you can atleast say to her that she was out of line."
"Come on Maddy, you know i love you."
"Do you Brendon?"
"Do you love me?"
"Why are you even asking me this."
"because lately i question it everytime those three little words find their way out of your mouth."
he sighed. i hate when he did that. When he had no response, he just sighed as if he was too defeated to fight for something.
"what we just go here."
"well im sure as hell not going back in there."
"you have to i have the keys" he stated.
"I'll walk." i shrugged.
"Maddy come on dont do this."
"Do what? HMM?"
"you know what i'll just take you home."
"fine." we got into the car. None of us dared to speak but every once in awhile his mouth would open as if he were about to say
something but was holding back.
"Maddy, what's going on between us."
"I dont know Bren."
"The past few days have been nothing but tension. Is this still about the dog?"
"What? no. I dont want to talk about it."
"baby i really want to know whats wrong, i hate seeing you like this."
"And i hate feeling like you are constantly lying to me anymore."
"what do you mean"
"well the dog was really no big deal but i know when you arent telling me the truth about why you dont wanna do something.
i've known you too long and all to well. and for some reason i just dont think that you played video games over spencers and
gave his sister a hug before homecoming or prom or whatever. so instead of just admitting where you really were and what you
were really doing you dug a shallow lie deeper."
"Why dont you think i was at Spencers."
"Brendon, I think i still love you alot, so why dont you just tell me where you really were right now."
"Baby I'm not lying i was at Spencers."
I started laughing histerically. Just kept laughing. I was so pissed that i was laughing. He looked over at me, shocked. He
had no idea how to react and i knew that. I wonder if he knew he was just about to be caught in a lie?
"Why are you laughing?" he finally asked.
"oh its nothing i just think it hilarious that you are still telling me some bullshit story about being at spencers when i got a
text from someone today telling me that Spencer was in Chicago visiting Hayley."
"how do you know they arent lying." as he said this he pulled into the garage. i just looked at him. was he really trying to take
this further? I opened my door and slammed it shut. I made my way to our apartment and opened the door. To my surprise
Pete was standing there.
"Hey Maddy," he greeted in an extremely solemn tone.
"Pete is everything okay?"
tears started to stream down his face, taking his make-up down with them. He eyes lost their Pete-like glimmer and all
i could find in them was sadness.
"Maddy-" he started. i heard Brendon walk behind me through the door. he just stood there and examined the situation.
"Pete whats wrong?" i felt something in my gut. i felt it a bit earlier but i didnt say anything, normally when that happened
something was wrong with my twin brother Aiden. Tears started to stream down my face. I felt the ground beneath me
crumble and crack and my heart hit the bottom of my stomach. obviously it couldnt take what was going through my head and it
"Maddy, about an hour ago they found Aiden at the studio."
all i was thinking was please tell me he isnt dead, and that he is alright. please say he broke his arm or they hadnt seen him for a
few days and they suddenly found him.
"He mixed his pills with alcohol," pete began as he took a step closer. I felt my world cave in one wall at a time i knew it was coming
nothing that took this long to get out or seemed so long to process could be anything good.
i looked him right in the eyes just waiting for him to say it.
"Maddy, they pronounced him dead a half hour ago from and accidental OD."
"NO, NO they didnt PEte please tell me your kidding i wont get mad , just say it was all a joke and that Aiden is on his way here right now
and that he's is going to be okay. please pete say your kidding."
"I'm sorry Maddy I'm not."
i knew this was hard for him, Aiden and pete were like brothers. I felt like i was going to blank out. i started to sob, uncontrollably.
i just felt like if i kept crying all the sadness would leave. Brendon came to the front of me and wrapped his arms around me.
I felt safe. Depressed, sad and lonely, but safe.
*So I've decided to break this chapter into 2 parts because i dont want them both to be extremely detailed so let me know how
im doing on this one. hope you enjoyed. leave me a review :D