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Was that possible? I really didn't know. I was his wife…?
"Mandy? Mandy, are you there?" asked Annie. I snapped back into reality… which didn't seem so real anymore.
"Uhh, yeah? Was just spacing out, sorry," I said.
"I know. Now, I was asking you if Gerard already called?" she asked. I blinked.
"Did he already call you?" she asked again, sounding impatient.
"And why would he?" I asked rather unsurely.
"Because he's your husband, if I am not dearly mistaken?" she said. Thinking it was a joke, I laughed.
"Nice one, Annie. Love you for that," I said.
"Amanda Louise Anderson, I am fucking serious."
I stopped laughing. "Oh my God I am his wife."
Next thing I knew, I was lying on this couch I was not familiar with, alone, and it was already morning. I sat up and looked around me. No… this wasn't my apartment. Nor my parent's place. Where the hell was I, I didn't…
Oh fuck, wait a minute. I do recognize this place. This was the place I always imagined… where I was living with Gerard… this was from one of the things I imagined…
Yeah, I always imagine I am his wife and the imagination I liked best was when we had a deal, he wanted to marry me 'cause he liked me a lot and I did 'cause I needed money, and we had this contract and sex ban and I didn't like him at all, I was always hard on him but he did everything I wanted and he was always so sweet to me… oh my God, this is real. This is really real.
The door opened and I looked at it, my eyes wide open, still in shock. It was Gerard. He saw me awake then he came in and walked towards me, looking worried.
"Hey, are you ok now? Last night you lost consciousness, Annie told me so I came to your apartment and took you home," he said, reached over and tried to touch me but pulled back. "Can I?"
I was confused a bit. "Can you what?" I asked.
"You know… in our contract, I can't touch you unless we are in public, unless you start it, or unless you allow me?" he said.
"Oh, yeah, I remember. And yeah, you can," I replied, feeling somewhat excited and… I don't know, but I felt like playing along. He moved closer to me then touched my arm and then my chin. I shivered but it was a good kind of shiver.
"Are you ok now? Last night you sounded upset with me, you hung up on me and then some moments after that, I received a call from Annie and she said you were unconscious. Do you feel sick?" he asked me worriedly, his hand not leaving my chin, the other now placed on my back, making me feel safe.
"Uhh, yeah, I am ok now. I really don't remember what happened with me, but… I guess I'm just tired," I said.
"Do you think we should go to the hospital and have you checked up?" he asked again.
"No, I'd stay here, thank you," I said. He looked at me, a bit surprised. I wrinkled my forehead. "What?"
"N-nothing, you just don't… naturally thank me… I mean, nothing at all," he said, sounding hesitant. He removed his hands from me and looked down, he was at loss of words. I decided to make talk.
"Um, Gerard? I lost our contract… do you still have a copy?" I asked. He looked up at me, took something from his pocket then handed it out to me. Three pieces of folded paper. I took it and unfolded it.
"That's not the original copy," he said. If I wasn't mistaken, I made a hundred rules. I looked at the paper, and I was right. I tried hard not to smile about everything I've made in one of my dreams, but I couldn't help it so I just bit my lip so it wouldn't be too obvious. I didn't notice he was looking me the whole time. I folded the papers then handed it back to him.
"Here, thanks," I said and he looked weirded out again but he took it and smiled a bit. He looked so adorable, my God.
"So…" He licked his lips and I just looked at him. He looked super cute.
"Well… do you guys have a show tonight?" I asked.
"No, we don't have anything to do for three days," he said.
"Cool," I said.
"Yeah, it's…" He looked up at me. "I… do I need to leave, or…"
"If you want to, you could leave, but if you want to stay, well sure," I said, shrugging.
"Really?" he asked. "You seem a bit nice today, are you sure you are ok?"
I smiled a little. "So you mean I am not nice?"
"No, it's not what I meant," he said quickly. I laughed.
"It's ok. I just… want some company right now," I said and looked him in the eye. I loved his hazel eyes, I loved the way he looks at me. He stared at me and I felt like I was melting, but in a good way. I moved closer to him and we didn't break eye contact, then I touched his jaw and stroked it. God it felt so wonderful to be near him like this. I ran my fingers over his lips and then he touched my hips and leaned down, eyes closed. He was about to kiss me, I guess… I closed my eyes too and felt his warm breath on my face and his hand was making its way up, and…
And then the door suddenly opened. I cringed and pulled away from him, blushing.
"Hey Gee, I—"
It was Mikey. Dammit. I could see him smiling. He had seen us and he obviously knew what was happening before he walked in.
"Sorry to interrupt, but you have plenty of time to do that later," he said. I looked up at him and he was smirking.
Gerard walked towards him. "What do you want, Mikey?" he asked.
"Well, breakfast is ready and I just came here to announce it," he said. I felt so ashamed. Gerard grabbed Mikey by the shoulders.
"Ok, let's go now," he told him as he tried to push Mikey away. But Mikey didn't budge, he just looked at me, smirking. "Go!" Gerard yelled and pushed him out of the door. Then when Mikey was outside, he looked at me. "Sorry, baby, you go change now and we'll wait for you at the dining table," he said, blushing, then he went out and closed the door.
"Damn you, Mikey," I muttered as I closed the door, still blushing. Mikey, who was in front of me, laughed and looked at me.
"Hey, I didn't know she was in-love with you… and whoa, she makes you blush, doesn't she?" he teased.
"Shut up, she isn't in-love with me…"
"Oh yeah, you just wish!" he interrupted with a chuckle. I glared at him.
"And I am not blushing so fuck off," I snapped. He laughed.
"Seriously, dude, she looked like she wanted to kiss you," he said as we walked to the dining room.
"How I wish," I said with a sigh. "I really love her and I just wanna touch her and kiss her and make her feel special, and I wish she would fall for me or give me a chance, and…"
"And I ruined your moment?" he asked.
"Yes and I do thank you for being so kind," I said sarcastically. He only laughed. When we got to the dining table they were all complete—everyone but Brian was there.
"Morning Gee, where's your queen?" Frank asked with a smile. He loved labeling Amanda my queen.
"She'll be here soon," I replied as I sat down.
"How is she?" asked Alicia.
"She's actually…" I hesitated but then said it. "Weird but she said she's ok."
"Weird?" asked Bob.
"It's hard to explain… you have to see for yourself," I said.
"Oh, here she is… good morning, Mandy! Are you ok now?" Jamia greeted. I looked at where she was looking and saw Amanda walking towards the table, looking as beautiful as ever with a knee-length white skirt and a black tank top.
"Morning Jamia," she greeted back with a smile. "I am ok now, thank you. I guess I was just tired." She looked at me smiled, then sat beside me. I just kept staring at her. She seemed different… she really was different. She was so nice to me… normally she wasn't. I mean, she gets along with the others real well, they are all close but she's almost always cold to me. She lets me call her "baby", though, and when she's in a good mood, she touches me, too. But when she's not… she barely talks to me, or it's as if I always say something bad that she always snaps at me. She's so snooty when I talk to her… most of the times, actually. And I follow whatever she say, that's why Frank calls her my queen. I love her too much to actually contradict her and I would follow everything she'd say, whether it would do me good or not. Once she even said she wanted ice cream, so I hurriedly went to buy a gallon but when I got back, she wanted a cake. Sometimes I think she does everything on purpose to annoy me or make me look stupid, but I dunno, I don't really mind when it comes to her even when she's being mean.
But now she seems so nice. She even touched me a while ago and she even let me touch her…
"Why are you staring?" Her voice cut in and I snapped away from my thoughts. I looked at her and she had this sweet smile on her face.
"Sorry," I said as I looked away and blushed.
"Well if you think I'm pretty you could just say it, you know," she said with a giggle. I looked at her again. God she was indeed very pretty and charming, it made me smile.
"Yeah, you are very… very, very beautiful," I said as I stared at her again. God I wanted to kiss her…
Alicia coughed. "Ehem, aren't we very cozy today," she teased then winked at me. I blushed again and my gaze met Frank's, he smiled.
"Wow, Mandy seems to be in a good mood today, must be the effect of that losing consciousness thing," he commented with a smile. "Is she in-love already or Gerard just still wishes?"
They all laughed at what he said and I did, too, only sarcastically. These guys always tease me about her but they stop when they see I am already annoyed. They just love to play around but they are sober when I am and they keep secrets.
I looked down and then she put her hand over mind. I looked up at her in surprise.
"It's ok," she mouthed with a smile and squeezed my hand, then released it. I smiled back at her and we began to eat.
I couldn't help it, I loved touching him and feeling him. And well… when I thought of this thing—me and him getting married and me being rude—I just kind of "twisted" myself.
It's not that I'm in-love with him. I mean… I'm in-love with him, but not really. It's just that "fan" thing. But I do like him a lot and I feel good that I'm his wife… it's hard to explain how I feel. It's hard to explain everything after all, how this happened and all that.
"Ok, what's up with you two, you are so different today," said Ray with a laugh,
"Yeah, you are both so sweet and it's so cute," said Bob.
"I just hope you'll always be like that so there'd be no one fighting everyday," said Alicia.
Well I guess it will be like this from now on. I will not torture him and I know that I will enjoy this…
After breakfast, Mandy went back to our room. This was our house, I had it built a long time ago for my own family. We had one room but when she's here I have to sleep on the couch at the living room, she didn't like it when I'm inside with her. When she still had work she barely slept here but when she left Barnes and Noble she always comes home here.
When the others were busy I tiptoed back to our room, hoping we would pick up where we left off, but also wanting to tell her that my mom called.
"Hey," I said as I walked inside. She was walking around the room when I walked in.
"Hey," she said to me as she looked at me.
"What are you up to?" I asked as I sat on the couch.
"Nothing I was just… I was just thinking about Annie, I miss her and my job," she replied.
"Do you want to work again?" I asked her.
"I don't know…" She looked at me then sat beside me. "I just wanna be here right now, with all of you. With you…"
I widened my eyes in disbelief. "Really?"
"Well, yeah. You're lots of fun," she said. It was weird. It was weird to hear her say things like that. She was being nice and sweet and it was weird… I still love her though, only I think I love her more than ever.
"Uhh… well, mom called and she's asking if we could come to Jersey this Christmas. Is it all right with you?" I asked her. Mom didn't know that she was not in-love with me, and when we see her she always asks when we are going to give her grandchildren. It's embarrassing 'cause we had just been married for six months and we had no honeymoon yet and your wife doesn't love you. I am always embarrassed when it comes to Amanda. I am a screwed man still, no more vices but marrying someone who doesn't love you is just crazy. I know it is, but… I feel all right when I'm with her. I mean, I feel like I am in total peace. Even though she snaps at me, I feel like I'm on the right track and walking the right path with her.
"Sure, it would be fun," she said with a smile, looking excited. "I mean… finally seeing her and…" I looked at her oddly. Finally seeing her? She was never this excited about mom, but she was nice to her and calls her mom. But never, never this excited. She was really weird.
I think she noticed that I was weirded out again. "Uhh, I… I am just happy… I, uhh… I wanna see mom, I haven't seen her for so long," she said, waiting for my reaction. I finally smiled.
"Ok. Well…" I stood up, not knowing what to do anymore. Then she looked at me brightly.
"Hey, you don't have anything to do today, right? Is it ok if you and I walk around first?" she asked excitedly as she stood up. I looked at her oddly again.
"W-what?" I asked.
"What… don't you want to?" she asked, the smile on her face disappearing.
"No, no, I'd absolutely want to. We could go now," I said quickly, now getting excited.
"Then let's go!" She smiled at me, held my arm and led me out.
Wow… to be with her like this is like a dream. I can't believe she asked me to go with her. I just wake up one day, and she was sweet Mandy and not cold Amanda… the two kinds of girls I both love. =)
Author's Notes: Ok, sorry it took so long to post this chappy, I've been busy this New Year… XD… well, I hope you like this one, I got the idea when one day, due to coincidence, what I've been saying came true. My friend and I were fixing this electric cord of our homemade lamp and I told her to be careful in case it would explode or something like that. And it sparked and we almost got hurt but she quickly threw it away. And then my cousin and I were driving home and I told him to concentrate on driving cuz we might encounter accidents, and we DID bump a car but luckily, we didn't make much damage. My friend found this out and well, she began thinking it was kind of… amazing. She's now making me say things so it would happen, but well, the magic's gone now. Haha… oh too much from me. Reviews please and let me know what you think, suggest and leave good/bad comments please and I'll work on them and I'll accept it wholeheartedly. Ok… love to all of you and reviews please!