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"Oh, hold on. Could we get some ice cream?" I asked Gerard as we passed by an ice cream parlor. We were walking down the streets and he was carrying three paper bags. It was actually mine but he said he would hold it.
He stopped walking and faced me. "Sure, if that's what you want, baby," he said and we walked inside. Several people looked at us and began whispering, but we ignored it 'cause they were doing it since we stepped out of the house. We sat at a booth on the side.
A waiter approached us and I gave my order, an Oreo sundae. He wasn't speaking so I looked at him. "What do you want?" I asked him. He smiled.
"Oh, nothing. I'm good," he said. I frowned at him a bit and then he seemed to be looking scared. "I mean, a Chocolate cone is enough." The waiter smiled and left us. I secretly did, too. Did I really have that influence over Gerard? He was scared of me, yes… but… he was maybe just scared of losing me. Well that was what I had been thinking of when I was imagining this one. I had even written it. "Gerard was scared of losing her that's why he always aimed to make her happy," was how I'd written it.
"Hey Gee, do you mind if after this we drop by Barnes and Noble first? I just want to check up on Annie," I said to him with a smile.
"It's ok but didn't you say she doesn't work on Sundays?" he asked.
"Yeah… it's Sunday?" I think I have quite forgotten what day and date it was.
"Ok… well then let's just go home. I'm a bit tired. How about you?" I asked. We had been walking around for about two hours now and my feet terribly hurt.
"I'm ok. I think we should just get a cab home, your feet probably hurts," he said.
"Agree." Soon our orders arrived and I began to eat. As I did I stole a glance at him. He was beginning to lick his cone, God he looked cute. I never want this to end. God I think I would die if I wake up tomorrow without him by my side. Oh God, don't let it happen. I want him. I want him, please let me stay. I looked away and couldn't help but frown a bit. What if tomorrow I would be back to my own self again? I don't think I could bear it. I wanted to do more here. Going out with him once wasn't enough. I had to stay longer. Yeah I want to stay longer.
"Umm… Mandy?" he broke in. I snapped my thoughts away and looked at him.
"Yeah?" I asked.
"Umm, you have…" He motioned to the side of his lips. "You smeared some."
I grabbed a tissue, quite embarrassed, then wiped my lips with it. "Is it gone?" I asked him. He smiled a bit, God maybe he thought I looked funny, then took the tissue from me and wiped the stain away. God… did I just hear music playing?
"There. It's gone," he said, still smiling, then went back to his cone while I stared at him.
That was when I had realized, this wasn't just the fan-in-love thing. This was true. I was really, totally, crazy in-love with Gerard Way.
She was just staring at me, I couldn't actually read her eyes but I stared at her back. I dunno, I wanted to kiss her but I couldn't possibly do that can I? She would kill me and besides, we were in public. Not that people would mind, we were married anyway. It just had something to do with "privacy".
She finally looked away but I still didn't. She looked so cute while eating her ice cream. If only we were married for real and not only by contract…
"Hey Gee, where's your next show?" she suddenly asked. I snapped out of my thoughts first then cleared my throat before answering.
"Toronto. A week there, then Christmas break," I replied. "Baby, I was thinking of you wanted a honeymoon? 'Cause we never had any at all and I'm kinda guilty," I added, looking at her. I figured that this was the right time to ask 'cause she was in a good mood.
She seemed happy with the idea 'cause she smiled at me and looked quite interested. "Oh, cool. Where do you plan to go and when do you plan to have it if ever?" she asked back. I smiled, too, somehow getting excited. This was probably the first idea of mine she didn't reject nor hated.
"You've told me before…" I was about to tell her where but I figured that it would be best to keep it a surprise. I smiled. "I'm not telling where, but I'm planning to have it maybe after Christmas."
She pouted a bit at me. "Oh, c'mon. Aren't you really gonna tell me?" she asked. She looked so cute and I wanted to give in, but of course I couldn't. Otherwise it wouldn't be a surprise. I leaned forward and touched her chin.
"Nope," was all I said, then I leaned back on my chair and finished my cone happily.
"Fine then. I know you will make me happy anyway," she said, smiling.
I looked into those eyes of her and God, did I ever melt. I've never felt this way before. I don't know why but for the first time in my life, I felt that someone I love was already head-over-heels in-love with me.
When we went back to the house everyone was napping. So we hurried to our room, not wanting to wake up the others who were probably all too tired.
"Aahh, I'm so tired," I whined as I let myself fall on the bed. I looked at Gerard and scooted over. "You can lay here if you want." He seemed a bit surprised with how I acted. He cleared his throat.
"Umm, I'm ok here," he said as he sat on the edge of the bed. I smiled and sat up.
"Gee, it's ok. You don't have to be so scared anymore," I said, touching his hands. Then I giggled and pulled him down with me. When we touched the bed I stopped giggling. His face was only an inch away from me. He was looking into my eyes and my heart was beating fast. Now that he was not scared anymore, I was the one scared… scared of falling even deeper in-love for him…
"I love you," he said. I couldn't answer, but I actually didn't need to. 'Cause he closed his eyes, automatically making mine close, too, and then I felt his lips touch mine. I get tingles and, I dunno… I felt so happy. I've never felt that way before. His lips were soft and warm. God this was what I've always wanted to do, to kiss Gerard Way like this. Now I was finally getting it. I don't want this to end… please, never make me wake up… make this really real… He kissed me deeper and I let myself give in. I began to kiss him back and I let his hands wander down my back while I wrapped my arms around his neck. For a moment we pulled away from each other to get air. "You'll never guess how much I want this, baby," he said then kissed me again. Let him call me baby forever… "I love you, I'm willing to do everything for you," he said then kissed me again. Oh my God, he's making me love him even more…
I didn't actually remember how I got there but I was suddenly on top of him. I began to remove his shirt and then he touched my hips and kept his hands there, and by the look on his face I knew he was asking permission. I simply nodded but he still didn't move.
"Are you sure about this, Mandy?" he asked. "I don't want you to hate me tomorrow. I don't want you to hate me ever again and if this is the one thing that will keep us apart, I won't do it."
I smiled then kissed him on the lips. "This is what I want," I whispered. When I looked at him he was already smiling, and so he began to slip me away from my skirt.