Us girls headed up to our rooms. I tossed and turned all night long. I kept replaying last night and the night before events in my head. From the bus to the kiss in the club and then frank saying he liked me. I like him too. I really do. I am just afraid of getting hurt again. It was almost 7am when I got out of bed. I had been laying there for an hour at least. I went onto the balcony and lit a cigarette. The sun was rising. We were on the top floor so it was shining brightly right in my face. I had my sunglasses on as I sat out there.
“ what are you doing up so early?” Molly asked me as she walked on the balcony
“Couldn’t sleep” I said putting my third cigarette out.
“ I know. I heard you moving all night long... wanna talk about it?” she said sitting next to me.
“ its just... my head is telling me one thing , but my heart is telling me another. I wanna follow my heart but im afraid of getting hurt. I don’t want it to happen again. I cant take anymore problems.” I said. I spilt all my feelings out.. I continued to tell molly everything. She was the advice giver. I knew I could trust her.
“Katie, Frank would never intentionally hurt you. He honestly and truly cares about you. You opened up to him more than you have to anyone except Ian. You need to talk to Frank. Take things slow, but let him know how you feel. Otherwise its just gonna eat away at the both of you” she said
“thank molly” I said hugging her. Just then my phone went off signaling that I had a text message. It was from frank.
“Guessing its Frank” molly said
“How’d you know” I asked
“Mikey called before I came out saying Frank didn’t sleep and as smoking like a chimney. We put two and two together and figured you two were having issues” she said as she walked inside. I read Frank’s text.
‘Are you awake? We really need to talk’
I send him one back
‘ meet me on the roof in 10 min’
I went inside and slipped on some shoes. I looked a fucking mess. My hair was in a messy bun on top my head. I had on tinkerbell pajama bottoms and a sweatshirt. My makeup was all over the place. I quickly washed my face before I headed up to the roof. Since we had the whole floor to ourselves we were the only ones with roof access. As I opened the door I slipped my sunglasses back on. Frank was sitting with his back towards me. He had his knees pulled up to his chest and was resting his head on them. I slowly walked over and sat next to him.
“ hey” I said quietly
“hey” he whispered. It got really quiet between us
“look Kates, I was serious last night. I really am falling for you. I think I was even when we were at each others throats. Its scares the shit out of me because I have never been able to open up to anyone as easily as I have with you. I feel like I can be the real me around you. You are the only girl I have been able to fully open my heart to. I just needed to tell you how I felt. I cant deny it anymore. I understand that you don’t feel the same. But at least you know” he said. I could see the tears rolling down his cheeks
“Frankie... I didn’t get to finish last night. I have fallen hard for you too. You know me better than the girls do. I’ve opened up to you more than I have to anyone else. Believe me it scares the shit out of me too. I feel safe around you. I know nothing can hurt me as long as I am in your arms. I just don’t want to get hurt. I’ve been hurt so many times before. I don’t want that to happen again. You have opened my hear up in ways I didn’t even know were possible. You understand me in ways that I don’t even understand myself. You get me like no one else does. I don’t want that to ever get ruined.” I said as I started to cry
“Baby I would never do anything to intentionally hurt you or cause you any pain. I would rather take a bullet to my heart before I did that. It hurts me to see you hurting. We can go as slow as you want. I will always be here for you no matter what.” frank said as he wrapped his arms around me and pulled me close. I looked up at him and looked into his eyes.
“I think im in love with you” I whispered
“ I think im in love with you too” he whispered back. I leaned in and kissed him lightly on the lips. As we pulled apart we reached up and wiped the tears from each others eyes.
“Can...will...will you be my girlfriend?” Frank asked nervously
“ I would love to” I said smiling. Frank smiled then kissed me passionately.
“Katie Mellencamp is my girlfriend” frank yelled making me laugh. We were both on top of the world. Little did we know that world would come crashing down around us in the near future.