Something is bothering Ryan, and Brendon wants to know what it is. But will he like what it is?
“I’m bored.” Jon says and he stares out of the window.
“Then go out and do something.” Brendon says and he continues watching his movie.
“I agree with Jon, it’s boring here.” he says.
They were in a hotel room waiting for the bus to pick them up.
“I’m going out, who’s coming with me?” Jon says and he get’s up.
“I am, I can’t stand being in this room any longer.” Spencer says and he puts on his shoes.
“Ryan, Brendon?” Jon asks.
“Nah, I’m watching a movie.” Brendon says without looking up.
“I’m not going, I really want to finish this book.” Ryan says.
“Oh well, see it for yourself. We’ll be back at 11.30.” Jon says.
“See ya.” Brendon says and Jon and Spencer leave the room.
After an hour Brendon get’s out of the bed.
“Want something to drink?” he asks.
“No thanks.” Ryan says and he continues reading.
Brendon goes to the kitchen part of the room and opens the fridge.
“Are you sure you don’t want anything? We have all sorts of fruit.” Brendon says.
“I don’t want anything.” Ryan says.
“Ry, is anything wrong? The last couple of days you hardly talk and only read.” Brendon says as he sits down on the bed again.
“Nothing’s wrong.” Ryan says, but Brendon sees he’s lying.
“Come on, you can tell me, maybe I can help.” Brendon says, but his friend refuses to look up from the book.
Brendon jumps of the bed and sits right next to Ryan on the couch.
He grabs the book from Ryan’s hands and lays it down on the table.
“Bren, I was reading that.” Ryan says and he looks pissed off.
“I know, but we have to talk. Something’s bothering you and you’re gonna tell me what.” Brendon says.
“I can’t and I won’t.” Ryan says and his look turns from pissed off to sad.
“You’re my best friend, you can tell me anything.” Brendon says and he puts his hand on Ryan’s hand.
“Please don’t tell the other guys.” Ryan says and he gets tears in his eyes.
“I won’t.” Brendon says and he gives a reassuring smile.
“I think I might be... ehm...” Ryan says and he stops talking.
“You think you might be what?” Brendon asks.
“Gay.” Ryan whispers and he looks away.
“Why can’t Jon and Spencer know?” Brendon asks, not knowing what else to say.
“I don’t want them to know, but I thought you might understand because you’re well, you know, bisexual.” Ryan says.
“There‘s nothing to understand. If you are more attracted to guys than girls, than that’s not a big deal to us. But I do understand that it might be difficult for you.” Brendon says and he smiles.
“I just, I always dated girls, but since I broke up with Keltie, I only felt attracted to guys.” Ryan says and he blushes.
“Have you never felt that way before?” Brendon asks.
“In high school I once liked a guy, but I thought it was just a phase.” Ryan says.
“But did you feel attracted to the girls you’ve dated?” Brendon asks.
“I thought I did, and I enjoyed spending time with them and stuff, but when it came to more intimate things, I never really liked it. And to be honest, I don’t know what to do now. Everyone, well we’re famous and stuff, and I’m afraid we will lose fans if they know. And I can’t date a guy, because he might as well go to the press.” Ryan says with tears in his eyes.
“It’ll be okay.” Brendon says and he gives Ryan a big hug.
Ryan starts to cry and Brendon holds him even tighter.
When Ryan finally calms down Brendon lets go of him.
“Thank you for listening.” Ryan says and he wipes off his eyes.
“You’re welcome.” Brendon says and he smiles.
“So, anyone in particular you like?” Brendon asks to lighten the mood.
Ryan starts to blush and looks away.
“Who is it?” Brendon asks and he starts to laugh.
Ryan looks at him and looks into his eyes.
Brendon sees that his eyes are filled with pain.
“You mean...” Brendon asks shocked.
“I’m sorry.” Ryan whispers and he runs out of the hotel room.
Brendon sits there in shock.
“Dude, where’s Ryan, the bus is leaving in a couple of minutes.” Jon asks and Brendon is still in shock.
“I don’t know, he just left. Without saying where he went to.” Brendon says.
“I’m here.” they hear Ryan say and he walks into the bus.
“I’ll be in my bunk.” he says and he walks to his bunk without looking at his band mates.
“What the hell happened?” Spencer asks.
“Nothing.” Brendon lies.
“Look, you don’t have to tell us what happened, but I do think you two need to talk.” Jon says, but Brendon shakes his head.
“He doesn’t want to talk to me.” Brendon says.
“You better talk to him now, whether he wants to or not, we have an interview in the morning and two shows, so you better take care of this.” Spencer says.
“Fine, I’ll go talk to him.” Brendon says and he walks to the bunks.
He closes the door behind him and sits down.
“Ry, we need to talk.” he says to the curtain of the bunk.
“Go away.” Ryan says from the lowest bunk.
“Please Ryan.” Brendon almost begs.
Ryan opens the bunk curtain and looks into Brendon’s big brown eyes.
“I’m sorry okay, I can’t help it.” he says and he sees the tears in Brendon’s eyes.
“You ran away before I could even say something.” Brendon says.
“What? You mean I should’ve stayed so you could tell me that you like us being good friends, but we can’t be anything more?” Ryan says and he almost starts to cry.
“I care about you. More than you know, and to be honest I’ve had a crush on you ever since I met you.” Brendon says and he starts to blush.
“Are you serious?” Ryan asks and Brendon nods.
“I had no idea, why didn’t you tell me?” Ryan asks.
“Because I thought you were straight.” Brendon says.
Ryan gets out of his bunk and sits down right next to Brendon.
“Do you think we can be more than friends?” he asks serious.
“We can at least try.” Brendon says and he starts to smile a bit.
“I’d like that.” Ryan says and he gives Brendon a long kiss.
“And I like that.” Brendon laughs.
“Wanna ehm... join me in my bunk?” Ryan asks and he blushes.
“I would love to.” Brendon says smiling.
The next morning Ryan wakes up and the first thing he sees are two big brown eyes staring at him.
“Good morning.” Brendon whispers.
“Hey.” Ryan whispers very sleepy.
“How long are you awake?” he whispers.
“About ten minutes. Jon and Spencer are already up.” Brendon whispers and he smiles.
“What?” Ryan asks.
“I’m just happy.” Brendon says and Ryan gives him a kiss.
“Let’s get out of bed, the interview is in less than an hour.” Ryan says when he sees the alarm clock.
They get out of the bunk and go into the sitting area.
Brendon sits down and he pulls Ryan on his lap.
“We have to tell you guys something.” Brendon says.
“We heard you talking last night.” Jon laughs.
“Oh, and you’re cool with it?” Ryan asks surprised.
“Of course we are. We just didn’t know you did guys.” Spencer laughs.
Ryan starts to blush and Brendon wraps his arms around him.
“We’re already happy to not seeing you as depressed as you looked the last couple of days, well weeks.” Jon says.
“Just keep it a bit quiet in the bunk, we need to sleep there too you know.” Spencer jokes.
“Thanks guys.” Ryan says.
“I love you.” Brendon whispers in his ear and Ryan turns his face towards him.
“I love you too.” Ryan whispers and he kisses Brendon.