The prequel to my story, "More Than Words Could Ever Say."
Anyway, this was the original 'More Than Words Could Ever Say,' before I went crazy and revised it beyond recognition. After that, I decided to make this a sort of prequel... But my lazyness made sure that never happened. So now I've found it, and decided to post it. Note that this was written in mid-February / early-March, so the thing about Bob's reply? I don't remember what it was. Sorry. -_-*
Wake up. Drink coffee. Shower. Cigarette. Kiss Lindsey goodbye. Drive over to Mikey's. Cigarette. Coffee. Hang out with the guys. Cigarette. Drive home. Post a blog for the kiddies. Snuggle on the couch with Lindsey watching movies until she falls asleep. Smile to yourself thinking how lucky you are. Sneak outside for a smoke. Fall asleep on the couch with your pregnant wife. Repeat.
Gerard's life was- to say the least- getting monotonus. He was ecstatic at first- he'd finally be home long enough to actually be with Lindsey properly. It was like the summer vacation he'd always wanted as a kid. And now he had it. "Vacation" started on May 9th at 11:30 at night; and now, almost nine months later, it seemed like it would never end.
Nine months. Now, Gerard had been through many things. But drugs, alcohol and depression combined was nothing compared to the pure hell it was to see Lindsey pregnant. He couldn't sleep at night knowing the beautiful creature beside him was stirring, trying to find a comfortable position for both herself and the baby he put in her. It broke his heart to see her getting up in the middle of the night to throw up her day's food. It was torture.
Gerard had always wanted a family- always wanted to be a good father and husband. But how could he be those when they never saw each other almost 75% of the time?
The reply Bob had given to that fan nearly a month and a half ago still haunted him. He knew it was a joke, but somewhere deep inside, it dawned on him. What now, Gerard? Are you going to give up your dreams or your family?
Gerard wasn't sure.
And as he looked down to the cigarette between his fingers, he wondered if he could quit. He wasn't sure about that, either.
These days, Gerard Arthur Way wasn't sure of anything anymore.
*Is it any good? Oh, and I just wanted you all to know that I watched The Powerpuff Girls 10th Anniversary Special episode and I loved it almost as much as I'll love all of your reviews. Just sayin'.