Categories > Celebrities > Panic! At The Disco > It Started With a Look


by marissasorrentino 4 reviews

Category: Panic! At The Disco - Rating: PG-13 - Genres: Romance - Published: 2011-09-05 - Updated: 2011-09-06 - 1332 words

I stared at the concrete two stories beneath me. Jumping was my only solution. Either I break my leg or my neck. Any will do.
I put one leg out the window and let out a depressed sigh. I felt the sweat rolling down my face. I braced for impact as I held my breath. Right when I was about to go I felt someone grab my arm. I shot my head around just to take a look. It was Jon, he was crying and sweating. I couldn't tell the difference very well.
"Please, just listen." Jon asked in a worried tone.
"Listen! Listen to what? More of your bullshit! I'm tired of hearing you say that you love me and then take it back. Just save me the pain of the jump and tell me the truth. PLease, all honesty, no holding back." I said as more tears fell from my eyes. Jon let out a long breath.
"You want the truth, the whole truth?" Jon asked cocking an eyebrow.
"Yes, I want not to be lead on." I said leaning further out the window.
"Okay, the truth is that I love you more then I have ever loved anyone, maybe even more then I love myself. And I am going to use a very tired, and old cliche when I say, if you jump I jump." Jon said as he stepped closer and put one leg out the window. At this moment I couldn't tell if my tears were happy or sad.
"Then why did you break up with me in the hospital?" I asked.
"Because, I don't want you to have to deal with my problems. I get beaten everyday. By my parents, Julia and now that I'm with you I get beaten by my once friends. But I don't want you worrying about me. And never once while I was getting beaten did I deny my love for you. If I had they would have stopped, but I didn't because I was brought up never to lie. Now can we just get out of the window?" Jon asked as he stepped back from the window. I heard a cynical laugh from the doorway. Julia stood leaning against the doorframe.
"Aw, now isn't that cute. It's a shame Spencer has to leave." Julia ran at me with her arms extended. She gave me a big shove and I lost my footing, along with my grip. Damn these traction-less shoes! I quickly reached out and grabbed the open window.
"Spencer!" I heard Jon scream. I couldn't see him anymore. I could hear Julia and him arguing and then the door slam shut.
The breeze against my foot was making me scared. Now was my chance, all I had to do was let go. I was about to let go when I felt Jon's clammy hands grab my arm and pull me inside. Jon's face was bright red and he was breathing heavily. I brushed myself off and headed for the door.
"Wait, I promise this is the last time you have to listen to me. Then, if you want to leave you can." Jon said practically begging. I crossed my arms in frustration and waited for him to start talking.
"Okay, I want you to know that even if you walk out that door, I'll love you. If you never talk to me again I will still love you, no matter what. I have loved you ever since I first saw you. I denied my feelings because I didn't think I could be gay. But every time I saw you I thought to myself, 'wow that boy is gorgeous'. I tried to build up the courage to talk to this beautiful boy but then my 'friends' would think bad of me. Turns out my only true friend is the beautiful boy. Now, he is in bedroom, but not the way I want him to be. I want him in my room, in my bed, half naked, lying so close that I can feel his heart beat. I don't want him threatening death so I will tell him my feelings. I will remind him, everyday that he lives, that I love him. If he doesn't believe me then he can walk out the door right now." Jon finished as tears soaked his cheeks.
I looked at the ground and walked out the door. Not because I didn't believe him, but because I wanted to scare him. Because I'm a bitch like that.
I stood outside his door and giggled to myself before I walked back in the room. Jon's face was buried in his hands as he cried loudly. I walked quietly over to where he was sitting on his bed.
"Can you remind him one more time?" I said smiling to myself. Jon looked up and his eyes lit up.
"I thought you weren't going to come back." Jon said as his crying died down.
"No way, I found a beautiful boy of my own. I don't want anyone stealing him from me." I said smiling at him. His smile grew as he took me by the waist.
"That means a lot to hear you say that Angel Eyes." Jon hugged me without standing.
"So then everything Julia said was a lie?" I asked looking down at him. Jon raised one eyebrow in confusion.
"What did that bitch say this time?" Jon growled looking at his still open window.
"She said that you never loved me and that you were just being nice. And that..." I looked at the floor not wanting to say the next part.
"What did she say? I can't fix it unless I know what she said." Jon said guiding my face with his hand under my chin.
"She said that you guys had sex." I said feeling a blush creeping onto my already pink cheeks. Jon's eyes got wide when he heard this. Jon jumped to his feet as his face turned red with anger.
"What!? How could she lie about something that significant?" Jon said as he slammed his fist into the wooden desk by his bed.
"So you guys didn't?" I asked scared of the answer.
"No! Never! I have never had sex as long as I have lived!" Jon said as he paced. I let out a sigh of relief knowing that this was completely wrong.
"I would never do that with anyone other then you. Spencer, your the only person I want to have sex with for the rest of my life. I want you to want the same thing, with me." Jon said as he walked over to me. He grabbed my shoulders.
"Please tell me you want and feel the same." Jon said in a sad tone.
"Yes. Of course. Nothing else." I said as I pulled him into a deep passionate kiss. I never wanted to leave that moment but I knew we had to. Jon pulled away and snuggled his head into my chest as he snaked his arm around my waist.
"How could she do that? I was hoping that she would get over me and we could still be friends at least, but I guess not. I need to straighten this up." Jon said as he balled his fists. He let go of me and walked over to his dresser.
"What are you getting?" I asked fearing the answer.
"Nothing, stay here Spencer." Jon said in an angry tone. I saw a glint of shiny metal as he stuck something up his sleeve. My eyes got wide as I thought of Jon going to jail and me never being able to see him again. It's a good thing his plan was way different then what I was thinking.
Bitch-Bot : I try to keep things interesting. But I am getting to the end because I can't think of any more twists. Sorry. It will be pretty long till the end though, so don't get scared.
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