Okay guys, I've come to you because I feel like you'll understand.
Among lots of other big issues in my life, I've got an issue. Not one of the main ones but, eh..
Anyway, recently I've been having a problem that's been particularly aggravating my depression and sending me on urges and making me really, seriously depressed and making me, well, suicidal.
It's my sisters. Half-sister and twin sister.
Actually, it's my whole fucking family. Particularly my sisters.
They just put me down all the time, Mum judging my weight and how I look, my Twin sister arguing with me all the time, snapping at me and just.. I don't really know how to explain it. She just putting me down, making me feel guilty and like I do everything wrong and insulting me in an indirect way. Then my older sister has a temper and she just makes fun of me constantly! Like, horridly. I don't even wanna write some of the things she says to me.
And then my Dad acts like he's fifteen and keep going to Russia to be with his new girlfriend, who have all been Russian since his recent divorce with his wi-
That's a totally different problem. I'm on about my non-existent self-esteem and all the shit that makes me pretty much hate my being.
I just feel like I'm hanging on the edge, because this is the last thing I need along with all my other problems and my asthma which, er, is so uncontrolled doctors are pretty much fearing for me, I think.
They haven't told me, but I know they're worried because of the urgency they say and write everything with.
Uh, guys, just help me? What can I do? I don't know whatta say or do even though it's pretty much tearing me apart. I just constantly feel like shit and my insomnia keeps me up for hours at a time and I try to keep myself to myself but they're my family, yo'know?
So what d'you think I should do to.. I dunno, boost my self-esteem? Ignore them? Get them to stop?
I'm sorry this has been so depressing. >.<
On the bright side my asthma hasn't made me almost die in a couple o weeks!? :)