Where will this all end up?
It had been a full month. A full month since I had seen Gerard. I remember the night when I walked away from him. I miss him so much. I have got much ill since then. Much more ill. I wanted to see Gerard one more time but I couldn't just go back to him. I knew these few days were going to be my last.
"Please Frank.Don't do this to me!
His words kept going through my head.
I love you.Always have.Always will.
I started to cry. I wasn't that far away from home. I was by the local park. I needed a sit down. I had been walking for a while and it was getting dark. I walked past the black iron gates of the park and walked on the soggy grass. I sat on a damp bench. That's when I saw him..
I was walking in the local park. It had been a month since I lost my Frank. It hurt so much. Life hasn't been the same without him. I've been stopping at Mikey's. He understands me. Lyn-Z or Jamia don't. I started to cry. It was all too much for me. I wanted him back. The thought of him lying dead on a sidewalk somewhere broke my heart. I wish I could go back in time and go to that night and I wish I never asked what are we doing frank? If I didn't we would be far away now. I would be with Frank. We would be in love. I carried on walking. It was getting dark now but I had no purpose in life so why was there point rushing home to see how much Mikey was in love with his wife. I looked over to the bright shining lamppost and under that I saw a dark wooden bench. Then I saw him. It was Frank. Sitting there.
I had to double check. Was it actually him? Was it actually Gerard? I stood up but the light was shining to bright. Then I saw his bright red hair over his face and knew it was him. I ran to him. It seemed like I was running forever but I finally got to him. I grabbed him and hugged him. I never wanted to let go. Never.
He ran over to me. I hugged him. I started to cry more. I couldn't believe he was here with me. I was so happy. He looked up at me and I kissed him. It lasted for minutes but then it suddenly stopped. He started coughing. I thought it was just a little cough but it wasn't. He started not being able to breathe. I quickly picked him up and took him over to the bench. I was scared. Was this the end?
He placed me on the bench. His soft hands were warm and tender. I couldn't breathe like normal and I knew then something was wrong. I coughed up blood all over me.
"Have you got any water in here?" Gerard asked whilst quickly looking through my backpack.
"No!" I said still coughing.
Then I stopped. I could breathe normally and I had stopped coughing. I stood up and smiled at Gerard. I thought I was going to die. I thought I had defiantly seen his face for the last time. Gerard was froze. He was looking in my backpack but he just stood there. His face was shocked.
I couldn't believe it. Whilst I had been looking through Frank's backpack for water I had found something. I couldn't believe my eyes. He had a knife. I was shocked. I couldn't believe it. I took it out and showed it to him.
"What the hell is this?" I shouted.
"What is it for? Tell me the truth!"
"IT'S FOR IF IT ALL GOT TO MUCH OKAY? WHICH IT NEARLY DID TILL I SAW YOU."
He was going to kill himself. I was overwhelmed.
"I'm sorry." I said.
"No,I'm sorry!" He replied.
Before I could say anything else Frank had dropped to the floor.
I went really dizzy and fell to the ground. That's when I knew it was it.
"Gerard. I have to go now but please I just want you to know I love you. I always have. I shouldn't have walked off that night. I always wanted to go back and change it. I still remember the night you first kissed me. The time you waited for me at the hospital. I want you to know I will always love you. Always. Always have,always will. But I have to go now."
"No Frankie. You can get through this it will be fine!"
"I'm sorry Gee,but I have to go now..."
His eyes closed. I burst into tears. My Frankie had died. I didn't want to be without him. I looked at him and slowly looked at the backpack. I went over to it and picked out the knife. I lay next to Frank and slowly whispered into his ear
I will stay with you forever. It has to be this way.
I slowly took the knife and plunged it into my chest.
Couple found in local park dead.Both holding each others hands. Named Frank Iero and Gerard Way.
I love you. Always have. Always will