I know the feeling. I went through the same stage. I had my best friend who would just get everyone falling at her feet and I would be the one who just got a few people to look at her because she seemed lonely. It was almost as if i was only there to make her look better. I got dragged along and I was taken to places I realy didn't want to go to because I am also insecure in my body! I hate my legs my face looks all wierd my only good feature is my eyes. Then I found just one person who actualy looked at me and could see my upset and could see my hurt and this was at a party of HER mates I didnt know anyone and this guy was genuin and I just broke down and told him everything and he said life would get better and it has. I now hang out with people who like me for who I am and love my problems like when I get writters block and when i muck up because they dont pressure me. But I know they will be there for me. Finding those people can be hard but it is worth it and now I feel like I am finaly someone not something and I have a boyfriend he isn't much of a looker but I love him and he loves me which is more than I could ever ask for. So as one writter to another and as almost a friend I'd like to say just hang in there life seems like crap at the moment but trust me it will get better take me as living proof. I still have quite a bit to get sorted out in me I'm like a work in progress but arent we all in the end. You are an amazing writter and you sound like an amazing person keep it up. :)
I realy hope this helps sorry if it doesn't
Jo xxx
Author's response
Thank you so much. I cryed reading this... Just thank you so much. You've given me my first real smile of the day. I broke down on the bus today... I think it was everything just coming up. But I could tell three people ever thing butthe rest.. no.. After I stoped crying though, I went back to being invisable... But thank you so much.. ~JS~