This is absolutely positively marvelous!!! It made a lot of sense, too. I don't know why you worry so much, your writing is fabulous and so is the story. It's terrific. Anyway, I really like this line. "I like it. It’s making me feel at ease, calm, safe. Like I’ve got nothing to worry about and never will have again; like I’ve finally done the right thing." Mikey is rarely in situations where he feels safe, and he likes it. All this time he has gone on believing that he is a worthless stuttering freak that isn't worth anyone's time because people have told him so, even Gerard, and he knows they wouldn't lie to him. He likes this new feeling, well mostly new feeling, but he can't forget the fact that this It's wrong to go around living a lie, so he knows he can't believe that he has done right and is capable of doing right. It's not the truth at all. "And if he says it then it must really be true; Gerard tries not to upset me no matter how much I upset him, so for him to say something like that must mean that it’s true. He wouldn’t make up stuff like that; he’s too nice to, as his kindness towards me this morning proves." This also proves that he knows that he can't do anything right. I also really like the part when he says he's a failure because he couldn't even kill himself right. It just adds to that terrible "I can't do anything right" feeling that he knows very well. You're so clever about Mikey's thinking. He'll say something ridiculous, but his reasoning makes so much sense when you explain it. It just makes you wanna hug him and rid him of all pain and say "Oh Mikes. Don't say that about yourself because it's just not true. Would I lie to you?" It's such a Frank thing to say, but it really does make me want to do that. It's incredible how you can make your readers want to do that. So many stories lack emotion, but yours are always full of emotion and I always feel connected to the character in some way or another. I also really like the part with Frank. The part where Mikey says he thought he was going to be different. He knew deep down that the fear of Frank hurting him was still there, even if he trusted him to the point where he didn't stutter at all, it was still there. Now it's rushing back and he'll probably never trust him again. It's so hard to trust, and he wants to but he's afraid it'll happen again and he doesn't want to deal with it when Frank made him feel somewhat safe at times. The ending was terrific. I really want to see what happens next. Seriously, I'm shaking because I really really want to know. Great job, as always and I hope that this review made sense. I'll be waiting for the next chapter.
Thank you sooooo much; I'm really relieve that you thought it was alright! I guess I worry because if I would like people to take the time to read what I right, then I at least owe them a decent story and I get worried that this'll just be a waste of their time. I guess it's kinda like stage fright (if that makes any kind of sense).
I'm glad that you think I conveyed Mikey's thoughts alright; I'm pleased that you understood what I was trying to get at - I half thought that I'd written a loa of nonsense!
Thank so very much for taking the time to leave such a lovely, detailed review (as always); it really does help! :)